Calories obviously matter and roughly only that matters if it’s about my fat-loss but I don’t care who thinks what at this point.
I never “dieted”, I wrote that already. When I lost fat, I didn’t even track (I just ate as little as I could and it was around 2000 kcal on low-carb, I was satiated all the time as always but this time I could lose fat. until some point). I experienced that I need to eat little to lose, carbs or anything else don’t matter, only calories in my family. Eating little? Always works. Anything else? Never. Clear enough 
I still never restricted my calories forcefully, that’s not me, that’s my SO so he is the slim one in the family. He loses fat super quickly if he makes his mind. He never had problems with reaching his desired figure in some (several when he was fat in the beginning) weeks if he was serious. I am the fat one who can’t lose fat due to eating too much (and that’s where a good enough carni OMAD should help if I manage to stick to it long enough. most of the time). And I don’t want to waste food. If I only need some amount, I should eat less and lose fat nicely while spending the least possible amount of food and money while still eating good, enjoyable food.
But my thinking has a little impact on my eating anyway. I eat whatever I like and whatever feels good even afterwards (unless stupid things interfere but I get better at avoiding them). And if I maintain, oh well, I do try other things but no force, ever and health and joy before fat-loss. Though the joy is so important that I pull it off after most good, drastic changes… Whatever my chosen woe is, I enjoy it.
[Why I wrote this? It’s my individual thing and not important for anything else and I know it already.
Sorry. I took out my wifi card from my computer again but I put it back. My addictions are getting worse. My life has no meaning. Okay, I go. The comment continues as I wrote that earlier.]
My calories were wonderfully low today as well 
It would be a problem longer term but it’s just for the monthly fast (and my body will start wanting more food again, it always does).
That was my plan. I didn’t eat that as I never manage to stick to the plan.
I only ate one sausage-frikadeller, I ate the scrambled eggs as always… The roast is thigh and shoulders, I started with the very freshly made thigh (I put the defrosted and not colorful enough fatty stuff back to the oven too but it still wasn’t that tempting) and I liked it soooo much that I ate some more and no shoulders. These are the small fattier pieces I cut off from the big slab 
And I ate 30g sour cream, all alone. It’s like my non-carni food: maybe it’s nice but I barely notice it if I don’t focus and it doesn’t leave me satisfied. Pork roast do.
I baked gingerbread and it was the first time ever I felt zero temptation. More like the opposite. I am not surprised considering the kitchen has an opened packet of coffee-caramel Timtams and I consider them one of the tastiest and loveliest and awesomest excessively sugary sweets in the world (and I never was any good with opened packet of sweets even though it improved in the last years). It doesn’t mean it would make my day better or something. But I wasn’t always that good with compulsions. The compulsion just… Wasn’t there this time. Yay.
Well part of my strength is that I do the monthly fast. Even if I eat, it must be carnivore… -ish, at least.
So I don’t get tempted by other food, it wouldn’t be hedonistic, not like stupid compulsions any time are… But somehow it makes sense to my mind, the not so conscious part as I don’t fully understand it.
I have good food now I still want pork chuck but I am still more pleased than usual (and I nearly always eat 7-10/10 meals. this was maybe 9.5/10 if I am strict? no wonder I don’t understand why my Christmas main dish should be anything but roasted meat and eggs).
I never really did that on any woe (it was even fun to see my 285g fat days… occasionally. it was with me being automatically careful to some little extent, I didn’t dare to eat fat with abandon since a decade, I was just dreaming about it. I don’t need this much, I just softly desire to go high sometimes, IDK what is wrong with me). I just didn’t lose fat since 9 years or something because I eat too much. And that’s wasteful and I should feel bad about it… But rather lower my too high calorie intake. Feeling bad is not hedonistic but losing fat and showing off my slooooowly improving muscles is
But things will happen (almost?) automatically next year so it doesn’t matter much what I think, if I track, it changes little. I will eat little either way so I will slim down. Or I won’t eat so little (but I doubt it. but my body has insane skills at not losing fat) and gain muscle, that’s not so bad either but with 40lbs fat on top… I need to slim down eventually. Not like just being stronger isn’t cool but if I work for my tiny muscles, I totally want to show them off properly…
Still @Redrobins: Oh, I am sad to hear you have Covid and even lost your taste/smell… I can’t even imagine that. Hopefully you will be okay soon!
Our health is what is most important, but the vanity sure does creep in.
I’m grateful to have a very mild case otherwise–just a few sniffles, chest congestion and headaches. I’ll take it! My job allows me to work from home in these instances, so it is nice that I’m able to do that instead of just sitting around for the next week or so.
but hope that all clears for you fast!
