I have a few things right like I never desire carbs when I am stressed or down or something.
If I am VERY stressed (it doesn’t happen every decade), I may even stop eating for a while. Or rather eat very little.
But I normally want my normal food.
I go off due to different reasons.
Actually, when I am unwell, the last thing I want is carbs as they aren’t good for me.
My self control is already negligible, it still easily gets ruined a bit but not by much… But my interests don’t change. They change due to something else, not my mood and stress level.
And it’s even better when I am in my dedicated carni month.
I soooo need this now. You don’t know about my summer and autumn and I don’t remember well but it was way too carby. Sure, I did plenty near carni days and I probably kept improving and I don’t think I got sugar poisoned this year (it may be my memory but a serious case is memorable) but still. I can do better.
I even can do better than this week, some condiments and my tinned fish isn’t good enough even for me. Next week I do it stricter and I keep my dairy lower too. No cream for next week and as little cheese as I can do it comfortably. It’s not hard, I just chose the easy way this week. No coffee if possible too. Of course I went back to coffee in the morning and night again… I don’t care about it much this week but I should get my stuff together next week! And of course, a tiny eating window, it’s probably the most important thing for me as I can’t stay much from carnivore anyway.
And I should stop thinking about food too, I know.
We have rainy weather for the rest of the week. At least it’s good honest rain, the soil needs it, the rivers and ponds need it. Much better than the fog. I still want sunshine but I got some this week so I won’t be super low energy due to the weather for a little while.
The house is cooling. Next week we might start heating. But it’s already November, it’s already pretty good… We actually heat already as we use the dehumidifier a lot. The air is very humid since weeks, not always but usually. And it’s not cold enough outside so airing the house doesn’t help.
The chickadees started to visit the bird feeder regularly. They get walnuts now but we have some sunflower seeds from last year as well. They love them both but they aren’t the choosy kind anyway. We get those bird balls for them too if we can get it for an okay price (they can get quite pricey at some places and at that point the birds would cost more than the cats. it depends if we get 3 woodpeckers too or not 
they take the ball apart very quickly).
I hope we will get some cute species again. I mean, rare ones, we have big tits and blue tits all the time 
And a woodpecker isn’t a rarity either. And of course sparrows who were so very lame in the beginning, they couldn’t stay on the ball… But they learned. But when I use only the feeder, they sit inside and eat for a while. While the chickadees (who politely grab a piece of food and fly away with it) goes crazy around… But I only could do that kind of feeder from a plastic bottle (I need to get out the resident spider every spring)…
Mmmm, bird watching, I love that. Hummingbird and butterfly watching in summer and autumn, bird watching in winter, my kitchen window is great. The other window is good too, Alvaro saw a goldcrest or some close relative not long ago! I only saw long-tailed tits but I love them too. Such lovely little balls (with a huge tail)!
I start to get hungry and in the normal, annoying way, I even get the “need fuel” signs (weakness, dizziness). Sigh. It’s only 2pm but what can I do? I will eat with Alvaro soon. He goes to a meeting with his old classmates! It must be 25 years… He didn’t see them since ages and he got curious. He is in top money sparing mode (he is very serious about the month not being in the negative) so he won’t eat or drink anything but he won’t need it, he eats lunch at home and he will surely eat something late in the evening when he arrives home.
Today is pork chuck roast day, yay! Guesstimation says 134g protein for yesterday, that’s very good, I want the same for today (and for every day, basically except the inevitable occasional days with much more). It seems to work for me when I can pull it off.
I try to be scarce for a while but we know my track records. It’s probably the exciting beginning of my carni November but I just can’t help myself. It’s bad, I should do other things.
throw me some big sun please!! Shout out to the universe cause I need it! 
