It seems it havenāt sent, it happens often.
My hunger is back but the right kind (I probably never even have the annoying insatiable type anywhere close to carnivore 
) so I had a big and unusually fatty lunch 
Without even the turkey, probably I will nibble on it a little later. Itās so good turkey is very much available here as it tastes so much better than the normal, cheap chickens (chicken basically has 2 types, the common bad one and the good one and the latter is 3-4 times more expensive. I rather buy pork - or beef leg that is even more expensive but way more satiating. I looked at ribeye prices - every proper steak cut is somewhat similar -, nope, definitely not for me, not even trying out, I am not that curious. a small piece costs as much as all my food for 3-4 days. beef leg costs a fragment of that and it makes a delicious stew).
I ate cheese, pancakes, egg stew, a little fish and sausage today. It seems littleā¦ Oh, of course, I had scrambled eggs with salt pork, that added quite much fat and calories, the kind that is satiating to me. And too much salt, I am not used to that anymore. About 9 eggs, nothing extreme but higher than average for sure. I am very much into pancakes now (itās serious as I always could eat several almost every day), I should do a pancake day where I only eat pancakes It means some pancakes will be filled with a nice meaty stew. (For the new ones, I am Hungarian and we have thin pancakes filled and rolled up. A famous kind has some stew, I think traditionally vealā¦? I never had that but it sounds nice. Most pancakes are sweet and mine was like that too, I mean, mostly sweet, I liked some savory kindsā¦ But things shifted a bit when I made carnivore-ish my default woe. I still eat dessert pancakes as those are my favs, sadlyā¦ Mascarpone with some vanilla and coffee powder doesnāt need any extra sweetening, itās pretty good. I wonāt stop eating desserts any way soon so at least it should be carnivore enough.)
I will eat very properly in the weekend, I mean my big, fatty roast will be the main attraction.
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Yep, I ate some turkey, it was great but I couldnāt eat much of it. Snack sized meals are still super odd to me. So I had one proper meal and even using fatty items (maybe I automatically limit those at this pointā¦ but I had cheese and very very fatty salt pork), the total food intake wasnāt much, just a very nice amount I can function right with. Pretty normal on carnivore or close to it for me and I donāt need to worry about getting hungry at night. A higher-calorie day will happen eventually as always. Maybe tomorrow when I finally weightlift, no matter what.
I tried to make turkey deli meat. It became something else but it seems a great thing, I will test it tomorrow (turkey, white bacon, why overcomplicate things? though I used some spice for the half of it).
Alvaro didnāt touch the turkey but he had all the leftover egg stew. Maybe tomorrow.
3:30am is more like a time to go to bed though thatās a bit late even for me.
If I get up before 9-10am, I am immensely pleased. I always was like it (after I finished my schoolsā¦ those times were hard in the morning), my brain doesnāt even function in the morning, pretty pointless to try to use it then.
And close to nothing can wake me up if I go to sleep. Thatās probably useful. Tons of water before bed? Noises? Even hunger (thatās rare but once I went to bed hungry. I regretted that)? Nope, I sleep my 6-9 hours.
I lost the ability to go to sleep quickly in my darkest, most stressful times and going back to sleep is my old skill I totally lost somewhere but at least I donāt wake up without a very good reason.
I wake up tired and in no mood to do anything (with some exceptions) but thatās me. I am really not a morning person at epic levels. Did I wrote before that once I worked from home and I started my 8 hour day at 4pm? Thatās my time, too bad it took away my beautiful late hours too. Though midnight is kinda early stillā¦
Alvaro wakes up super early sometimes and canāt go back to sleep, thatās quite bad. And now the last clock setting thing (I forgot the term when we suddely lose an hour) will happen, they should have stopped that ages ago, it ruins many peopleās weeks around the time it happens. It canāt do much to me, maybe because I wake up late either way?
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THIS is the higher-calorie day. I got hungry again. Was it the more than usual amount of cheese and other not satiating fats? The tiny dinner (nope, I had such things before)? Too low protein? I had about 106g (with the usual inaccuracy), I often experienced that long term satiation is hard that low (at least with my usual less satiating items).
Whatever, I tasted the not deli meat turkey. I apparently made turkey sausage (turkey/pork but the pig only gave fat tissue) and it was suberb. I am quite content now.
but darn more power to ya!! 
I know better is coming for you truly!!
(And I need coldness for the jelly at least.)
