I enjoyed reading your post. When I was earlier into my plan years, I did the same. I ‘tried to get crap back’ LOL believe me I tried but in the bitter end I listed all the issues with doing it and not feeling well…so yea, I walked your walk for sure. I think WE need it in a small way cause for me personally, I felt having some junk back was a way to pretend to myself I could still have carbs, I could still ‘eat normal’ and I just wasn’t mentally ‘giving up the garbage’ as of just yet ya know. I held on thru allowing eating crap til that one day, after I chatted with myself like you did that I finally said, hey this truly isn’t what I want cause I know that one bite will be a total backslide and lbs gained back and the vicious cycle starting over again. So I knew in the end for me that it had to be an all in lifestyle change and I had to accept it. Then I got calmer on plan without ‘still wondering about the junk’ and I know I had a ton of talks with myself too I think ya did good KD. You are seeing your limits, checking your controls, learning from each issue you experience and just foraging ahead. It is your journey, you work it good and how it suits you best.
you are me. I can’t eat off plan either. I only can take 1 nibble or 1 teaspoon of something and I have to stop. I finally am able to do that, old days 1 bite meant I was off and running for more carbs. I do this very rare also now cause I know me, I can’t go there. Cause if I take nibble 2 or 3 tablespoons of something I am a goner. Ask me how I know So when I take a small nibble or a taste of something, it is final. Done. Never bite 2 of it. I also only allow this on vacation or some crazy situation where I weigh the worth of every nibble. I don’t take many now…but back in the day I could take alot and off plan I would go, like you, with the more cheating and we aren’t fooling anyone, lol, eating crap hurts only one person, the person doing the eating So yes I know my exact limit for my personally. I think it is wonderful your control is so well and you are doing great…wishing you getting over that virus fast and your taste and more comes back easy now for you!! Woohoo q is over soon!
-------------So long day. Got so off on eating timeline. Didn’t get home til around 3 and starving. brought home pizza for mom and my kid and believe me I was one step from inhaling a slice cause I was so tired that I just didn’t wanna cook anything. But I ‘had the talk with me’ and begrudgingly flash fried my ribeye steak and omg it was delish and after I was full, I knew I was safe.
Convenience food. I need to get me some bulk burgers back in that fridge. I need some extra pork chops sitting in there for fast meal. I kinda got a tad off doing that since I am getting busy with life stuff and now I see real fast, when I am not wanting to cook, I must be able to open that fridge and grab meat. Simple as that.
Back to some good bulk meat in fridge for me.
So today was good day. Hold plan guys Every day we do just that is a day we keep changing our lives for the better and learning thru our experiences!