I didn’t read back yet (I just hope no one feels worse than before, more like better!), I just wanted to write that I am alive 
I had some bad days but I disappeared because I had enough of my internet addiction and took away the wifi card from my computer. It was so great not to have internet on my computer 
I still could search for things and chat with my most important people on the tablets but I always use my computer for forum and youtube and it was fine to be without them for a while.
I was quite unwell in Sunday, I don’t know why. I tried to blame carbs and overeating (due to carbs) as usual but I didn’t eat THAT unwell (I subtly ignored some hints from my body but I had no proper warnings and I didn’t do crazy things and even they never resulted in anything like this) and it doesn’t feel like that, just somewhat similar as my belly/guts were affected… I never felt a serious bellyache in my life and it was quite painful occasionally. The pain came in waves and I spent half of Sunday on the loo hoping it will help and eventually it did. The next day was smaller pain and now I have my 3rd mosly painless day with just a bit off, tender, borderline nauseous belly.
Oh well, I will still try to behave better, it’s not hedonistic enough not to anyway.
And now there is the monthly fast!
My body isn’t cooperative but there is no problem with a stricter OMAD (or TMAD as yesterday I really felt eating twice a good idea)! I do some strict carnivore now, at least in my world. No dairy (except a tiny butter in my not black coffee per meal. it has egg too, of course), just eggs, meat and a tiny added fat and spice/condiment if needed. It goes well!
I have this weird “food is fuel” time now but it’s fine. I still can’t eat just anything, my food must be nice but I have no appetite, just need for food. My OMAD meals must be modest but enough…? I don’t track but took notes (so simple, I barely eat a few items!) and will.
Yesterday I got out my 370g pork chuck roast from the freezer. No hint of my meat aversion anymore, I ate it all (for 2 meals). That’s about 660g meat in raw weight. It was enough with a few eggs (and a bite bresaola). The bresaola isn’t always the same. This pack has thick slices but Alvaro likes them in his scrambled eggs so he eats more than usual from it (but it’s not hard as he usually eats none of it). Yay. I prefer the thin slices, the thick ones are very chewy. Still good.
Today I had only 180g meat as I only have processed stuff - and probably don’t want much after the meaty yesterday. I like eggs again as well. A huge pork slab is defrosting right now, I doubt my body will want fasting tomorrow, as time passes, OMAD can sustain me less and less, usually.
Maybe it’s new and I never wrote but I weighed 74kg on a morning instead of the usual 75. Yay.
Oh and I keep getting stronger Especially my triceps is impressive, I could raise 3kg in a few weeks? Whoa.
I keep this “only eggs and meat and tiny added fat, spice and condiments” style for a while It’s quite easy, I have 7 pounds of pork and a desire for eggs and I gladly let my poor belly to heal and enjoy life for a while Alvaro won’t make rabbit stew as we go to our annual cemetery and aunt visit on Monday (and he eats the poor rabbit for 3-4 days, not 2 even if I eat all the lovely bony parts and a leg or two. I easily eat my share for a meal, of course, especially now) and anyway, we have lean enough pork!
I drink very many coffees a day now. I don’t know if it helps, I don’t crave it like when I am sugar poisoned but it still feels good. Tea doesn’t. So I postponed my fight against coffee again. I focus on my carni OMAD (sometimes TMAD).
I am nicely satiated until 4pm and eat a bit later, it works very well.
and then I dropped them.
