Weather forecast mentioned 25 Celsius for Friday… Who, whoa, slow down, I want my SPRING before summer! But then there will be a cool period they say, with 18C 
So it seems that the warmth stay with us. Good.
Too often spring only lasted for a few weeks between the elongated winter (that was tough in the end) and the super early summer. Not fun. I want my spring first 
When there will be foliage, we finally go and use a small train… I can’t explain it, it’s some oldschool cute thing and it crosses this mountain range! Even if it’s a not very high Hungarian one, it’s very, very pretty! Forests galore!
But before that, we visit a Zoo again. A small one. The 2 huge ones in 2022 were very exhausting. Nice but tiring. And I couldn’t even see the snow leopard. That is one of the most majestic animal ever.
I hope there will be lots of babies. We wonder when is the right time to go, I need to check the bigger zoos as the small one has a not very informative site.
Still not hungry but I drink coffee again. Only in the afternoon, not the instant one and black! So I am not very disappointed in myself. No coffee times will come. I almost run out of this coffee (it is a 100g bag and I was quite enthusiastic when it was new. it’s still pretty new to me) and won’t buy another until April. And my instant fav is hidden.
Yeah, I basically agree, it just helps mentally to do things clean. I am used to that on my vegetarian woe. Clear cut, this is my food, this is not, it works for me in many cases. I can’t be total pure on carnivore for long due to various things, one being my circumstances where we make a good, very meaty dish with a tiny bit of plant matter. I obviously eat it and I know I don’t need to be super strict, I don’t feel anything negative from this little, I just had too many experiences with relaxing my ways more and more and more… The right strictness range is smallish. If I break carnivore (even if I still do my pretty strict carnivore-ish that I can’t seem to be able to do on most times now, actually, I put out a tiny toe, still almost no plant matter but still…), I am more willing to break it more… It doesn’t matter how stupid it is if my mind tend to think that way. So I am careful and anyway, being totally pure has a charm. Even if I am very sure I don’t want it as it feels unnecessarily and annoyingly restrictive.
It’s good I go for the purest form, good attitude. I wrote before that if my aim is what I consider still fine, I WILL toe the line even then and things get messed up…
So that’s why. I accept the rare small amount of onion but I do my best to lobby for the tiniest possible amounts in our stews It worked very well this far. I will try egg stew without any. I already swapped the tomato puree with sour cream - later I learned it’s actually another common version. Of course Alvaro wants the tomato one but I can handle that amount of bother. The onionless version would be only mine.
And I do my best to eat my liver without onion even when I am pretty sure it makes it a bit better. But sour cream makes it better too… And the difference is so small I probably get more joy from keeping my day purer and training living without onion (something I am already great at. I came a long way).
So I just try to figure out what is the most hedonistic decision when it comes to tiny things. I don’t worry about them when I clearly find them worthy but sometimes it’s a lil nothing so nope, maybe doesn’t worth it, better to keep it stricter and safer.
And I needed stew in the beginning but not so much now. I never make a pork stew as fried and roasted pork is perfect for me. But somehow rabbit and deer are asking for becoming a stew 
All the other options in Alvaro’s mind are way too carby anyway. He needs his ideas to get realized but I prefer and want my stews too, sometimes.
Yep. Chill. When I am good. But otherwise I need to train. Without training and pushing I would just eat half loaves of bread and canned cherry - not all the time but way too often. To able to eat whatever I fancy whenever I do (I always do that or very, very close) simultaneously eating the best food I can for my health and well-being (I am not nearly perfect there yet)… Well that requires a little training. So it’s a necessary part.
But I am way more chill than what it seems I think. When I think and write here, it always seems way more stressful and struggling. I am displeased quite often but I am pretty chill about it except I NEED to think about it and find a way to change it for the better.
I need my experiments and challenges too And my plans. Now I really had enough of my still very much existing “there must be a dessert in the end of every meal” thing. I actively will push myself to change there. Dessert is fine if it’s sour cream and little else but when I lack cream and still do a dessert that requires cream to be satisfying without sweetener… Then I risk having sweetener, again. Maybe chocolate too. It’s so extremely low-carb, after all and that matters to me… But no, I do want to get FREE from desserts all the time. So some level and kind of fight is needed.
I think the rare times when I get very satiated and satisfied with meat, I can forgo the dessert but again, it’s rare. I ate 600g meat yesterday, some eggs and dairy too, in one sitting, for LUNCH when I usually can’t even eat an OMAD sized meal without actual effort and plan - and I STILL was kind of hungry, super far from being very satiated with a stop sign. It was good as I used the bite of sour cream “dessert and last bite” closure, I lacked fat anyway.
I explained it in too much detail I fear. I usually want to be clear and I only can do it through too many words. And it helps me thinking too.
Oh I don’t doubt it, it’s true for 3MAD too I am sure.
But I had very hard times with TMAD, they just didn’t happen for a long while. I either had 1 meal or 3-5. Or something weirder. I hate getting hungry every hour in my eating window.
I like TMAD when it works, it’s just hard for me to be happy with that small meals. Sometimes my first meal is many times bigger than the second, that is better.
OMAD just solves so many problems. I am just torn between lunch and dinner OMAD - or I would be if it would be my decision. I could push a bit though… That’s training too. To fast as long as kind of comfortably possible, it does much good to me under normal circumstances. But when I am in a very lucky phase? I can do lunch OMAD, no need to stress myself with not eating together with Alvaro and I still avoid getting hungry later. Yesterday I went to sleep 10.5 hours after I finished my lunch and I still wasn’t hungry. Something started but it was so subtle I could fall asleep quickly.
Maybe the 170g protein was that effective. But they are so many factors…
But I just need to wait a little more and OMAD gets way higher chances… Oh well, I just do things easy and eat when I feel a strain. I only push until 3pm but that level is negligible on workdays and I don’t do it on weekends. Or maybe I will, no idea yet. I am pretty okay with higher-cal, bigger-eating-window weekend days as long as they don’t trigger something bad. I need my higher-cal days anyway.
One day I will push for EF but not yet. I am not ready, my body isn’t cooperative at all.
then went to my other local town to sort some more banking out in a different bank and so did a little charity shopping while i was there.
Keeping her in (she is never in, maybe for a few mins very rarely), without food or water, then she will be super confused without balance, oh my… It is always tiresome. I didn’t want that. I didn’t want Ginger despite being an orange tabby and I always wanted one… But she just refused to go away 
blossoms are blooming in the Washington area. I hope we’re not too late!
