[yesterday]
WOW, those shrimps!!! I had no idea there are so big shrimps in existence!
Unusual day for me. I was a tad hungry and Alvaro came home after 2pm… I barely ate (from my viewpoint so 3 eggs and a bit something else) but it was fatty… I tested some pork belly. Only 42% fat so it’s a watery thing, cooked, smoked, with way more meat part than my big fav with 86g fat in 100g, that’s soft and tender, this one is chewier/crunchier but nothing like raw salted pig belly, that stuff with zero meat is too popular if I look at it from my own viewpoint… I can’t eat fat tissue without meat. Maybe in scrambled eggs but only if I have no other option.
But this thing still has 3 times as much fat grams than protein so I couldn’t resist and tracked my lunch. 77% fat, I used zero added fat as I ate boiled eggs this time, among others.
Just like the fattier stuff, I easily eat it all alone. I came a long way.
I ate 100g and it filled me so very well… I tried to have some dinner in multiple parts but it was little. I barely could eat a bite from the tiny fried beef I defrosted days ago but I didn’t wanted my little pork or many eggs either.
But my energy need is so tiny, I eat a few bites a few times and my energy intake isn’t so bad (and my nutrients should be more or less okay as I eat the right stuff, usually. but I usually eat well anyway so some weaker days are fine. my body tells me if it has some problem with my eating). A bite probably means something else for me with my overeating skills, though. And my bites were quite fatty today.
So, a very unusual but okay day. Tomorrow I buy some chicken liver and hearts (they are mixed at the butcher) and fry them. Maybe I should use some new recipe… One without cream as I am almost completely run out of it. And when I do, I stop eating all dairy. My fav cheese is fun but I mostly eat it due to my low desire to eat meat and eggs (I eat meat and eggs, of course but less than usual), I should change very soon but I never stay like this for long so it will be fine. And I do want liver again.
My pants were tight today but I expect it to change soon. I made weightlifting and tried to run a little. I ended up running very little. Like, 2 minutes? I am so bad at that. No mood for it, I prefer just walking. We have a nice end of spring now. I don’t have very late tulips, mine will wilt soon. We have many other flowers including lilac, I have white and a strong purple as well.
[today]
Sigh. “Social eating” again. I mean, when my SO comes home, I eat too. It was around 3pm and I was still satiated… Solid pig fat is effective just like protein. Or more. Hard to tell. I obviously ate more protein than my tiny need but eating less is almost impossible for me, I ate enough on my plant-based low-carb days years ago, I ate enough on my 1000kcal days (often way more than needed even then)… Protein is just to easy to eat enough if one is me.
So I had a tiny lunch with about 3 eggs and soup and some small dinner later, I wasn’t hungry at that time either.
Today was low-meat just like yesterday, for some reason I just don’t need much at the moment. Of course, it will change soon, less than 0.5 pound of meat a day is extreme even for me! I still have beef and pork, tomorrow I fry liver then there will be roasted turkey and pork again (together. one turkey wing doesn’t seem a safe amount after 3 low-meat days at all).
@Hallie, you can take a page from my book and write here despite your carbs. Fangs is very friendly. I spent a long time in carni threads while doing on/off keto, it helped me to try carnivore (helped? I never would even get the idea without the charming carnivores on this forum) and come back if I strayed. What I often do. And I have carnivore-ish days or worse lately (as certain items doesn’t fit my carnivore-ish definition, it’s not all about tiny amounts, I have blacklists), I really plan to lose these tiny carbs already… Tomorrow should be the day. Sometimes it’s harder to make a clean start and I don’t need to be super strict. Just pretty much due to slippery slopes. So my woe is way closer to carnivore (and that’s the base of my woe, with some ideally very tiny amount of “extras”) than to keto (with all those veggies and sweets and baked thing), I feel much more comfy here, nothing tempt my still somewhat newbie self (I will try to behave myself)…
And I think everyone understands beginners aren’t all perfect. Even veterans aren’t always perfect.
@Fangs, one’s spirit matters a lot but it seems the situation isn’t dire anyway… 
I am glad, I thought about her and hoped this will be the case, nothing too serious! Yay, I wish her the best! I so love lively old people, they are my heros, I wanna be a fit lively old one myself! It balances out a tiny bit the current things with sick older ones and people believing that a 60 years old is old and fragile and the age brings lots of sickness… Yeah, some people has bad genetics but most of them just didn’t do what they should to stay healthy and somewhat active. And that’s sad.
I met my SO’s Mom in Saturday… Her spirit is great, she moves too but her woe was pretty bad all her life I think. She is quite obese, has diabetes and only didn’t bring her bulky but useful walking aid because she came by bus and she couldn’t walk to the quite nearby bus station, she used her bicycle. She took not very many steps, insanely slowly, clutching to his son. She hardly can walk and wait for some surgery… She isn’t even 70. And never will eat properly. She eat protein and fat just fine, she always liked meat and she avoids the worst carbs now that it’s doctor’s orders, it could be way worse but it’s not enough. But she refuses to change even more. It’s quite tragic but hopefully she won’t get even much worse…
I want to be way healthier at 120 and I will do whatever I can for it. Good genes, I have them. Not perfect but good enough. But even that isn’t enough alone so I keep trying to make my woe better.
Most delish! I tried strip steaks for a spell, but they just didn’t do it for me when it came to enough fat.
And some meat is always fine in small amounts. So I always can eat something but certain days are lowish-calorie and not so joyful on carnivore. I can’t do much about that. Maybe it will change later. But it never lasts long in my case so it’s not so bad.
I smell things and enjoy the smell and doesn’t want more