@Redrobins: Yay! I am glad you are better!
I had to search for @daigo1’s old plate as I always focused on the meat, never the plate I love certain plates but that one just couldn’t get my focus this far…
I ate eggs and liver stew today. It’s the good stuff from the town butcher, with hearts and stew has extra flavors I like. And still… It was okay but I only ate because I was hungry.
So I figured out that my actual mood for liver drastically influences my taste perception. It’s odd as I don’t have this with other food items. I feel the taste just the same (or similarly). I feel my vegetables just like before, with a few exceptions, I just don’t enjoy most of them. It’s very odd, feeling a good taste I always loved and the taste is there but I lost interest and enjoyment. (And my exceptional few, especially one has my total adoration and I enjoy the hell out of it every time… Today I needed to use it as I was hungry but couldn’t eat due to negative appetite and I wanted soup. I will figure out some more carni soup, it was tomato flavored egg milk today, just perfect! Soup makes appetite in my case.)
So maybe I should eat liver a bit less frequently now Or different liver. I always ate chicken liver lately as it’s the only one we know, can get and both of us like. But I want to try turkey liver as well.
I still can’t do TMAD, I simply get hungry more often. It’s fine as long as it doesn’t cause eating for too long. Today I had 2 proper, not very big meals and 2 tiny ones.
I cooked a lot today, simple ones but still… And ice cream isn’t even cooking… But now I don’t need to do such things for days Alvaro has his food and he can handle the weekend, I have liver stew, pork roast in the freezer, eggs are super easy… And maybe I get Alvaro’s heart stew as he still didn’t eat it… And then I won’t eat organ for a while… Like, 5 days. That’s a lot. I regenerate from every boredness in such a long time. Except chicken but that runs deeper, it’s not a mere boredness, I dislike common chicken and I have my childhood trauma, time cured it but maybe a relapse is possible. And I usually need way more time between 2 alcohol drinking too. But it’s not noticeable since I drink 12ml vodka or 100-200ml beer occasionally. I never feel alcohol disgusts me, I just don’t want it most of the time. I had this “oh my, we managed to drink a bottle of wine in a week, now I don’t want to see any alcohol for 1-2 months and no wine for half a year at least” before.
And I can’t get bored of coffee, unfortunately. I am fine with even black coffee now. I don’t drink it all day, it’s not cold anymore to want hot drinks all the time. And anyway, I make a tiny effort.
0.75 pound of meat today (not bad using almost exclusively organ meat) and no idea how many eggs, not nearly as much as yesterday Tiny cheese, much more sour cream…
I had my usual lowish energy, not the super low I suffered from lately. I am bubblier but maybe it’s because of KetoKoala who is my muse, actually Poor girl has problems with her digestive system now and can’t eat much My only idea was drinking some calories, maybe that is better for her body if eating is such a problem? But she probably will need the hospital again soon. She doesn’t have any extra fat to sustain her properly, eating is more important for her than for me, for example… Sometimes I wonder about it but I probably would last some months without eating… And it wouldn’t even be so horrible for several days, I guess. I worry about her.