[I started to write this many hours ago…]
My body wants fat AND protein. Always. A lot of them.
And today I realized that it wants FOOD now. I find everything extremely tempting, even pure fat, it’s crazy… 
I always was choosier than that! Though pure fat would lose its charm in 1-2 bites I am sure… Or maybe not, these days are surreal.
But it’s 4:20pm now and I am still not hungry so that’s nice. I did had some creamy coffees and tasted whatever I made but those were (very fatty) morsels.
{Here was space left for my photo but all were somewhat bad and what’s worse, my plate was kind of ugly, you don’t need to see that… It had deviled eggs using 3 eggs, a sponge cake with fatty spread on it and a piece of sausage.}
And I have plenty of pork shoulders if needed too.
[after 10pm]
I ate when Alvaro had dinner, around 6pm. I was already hungry but nothing very serious 
Of course I ate everything on my plate and a bunch of more food: another sponge cake (20g fat for one - as in the pic - would have been a bit much One sponge cake contains less than half an egg), more sausage and some nice amount of pork shoulder roast. And lots of whipped cream and a yolk, oh they are so perfect together… Both my raw fluff (jellied or not) and ice cream are basically eggs mixed with cream with some tiny flavoring. But the fluff has more whites (except when it lack gelatin) and the ice cream almost only have yolks. Too much water isn’t good for ice cream… I may use some butter instead of part of the cream in all cases. I even had my fluff with only butter and no cream when I lacked cream. It wasn’t as good but still quite nice. Cream is just too amazing, impossible to skip it without negative consequences even if they aren’t too serious.
And later I had to eat again but that was 10g fat and another (two) creamy coffee(s) 
I am good. 10g fat alone is as far as I can go and I get grossed out properly (barely, I am still a hedonist but I am on a mission) and it causes my body to lose its hunger, anything just not getting any more fat, ew I need to be a tad tough with it now
Food sounds quite off-putting now but I am still fine so it’s the best I can expect right now. I am pleased and hope in even better days!
Oh, tracking. Yesterday ended at 214g protein (but less fat than that, thankfully).
Today’s guesstimation is
I had an unusual workout as I have watched many videos and tried out things… A half workout as usual but with more exercises per muscle group so it’s fine. I am thinking about stopping trying to do total body workouts, it’s not like I could do them all in one day more than 1-2 times during the last years… And I don’t even train my legs as no point in that, I should train my core and abs as they are SUPER weak.
Oh, there will be so many changes It’s fun now. But my biceps weights dropped that I changed from barbell to dumbbells… Oh well. And I will need to change the weights all the time during my workout unless I figure out something… Good that there are multiple good exercises to choose from…
That’s nice but when I enjoy my food too much, I overeat even more and easier than normal… 
But when I don’t enjoy it, I go off and that’s maybe even worse. It depends.
I haven’t eaten ruminant meat since… IDK, very long. Months? I can’t even afford the pork I eat if I eat it in the amounts I did lately… Good thing I don’t need it either, I just couldn’t resist. Stupid crazy hunger and appetite.
But we will buy some ruminant soon, maybe in the weekend if our webshop order arrives with my gelatin, I miss it… Alvaro want to make a dish with it (ruminant meat, I mean), of course not carnivore but not too carby so I will just eat 1-2 cubes of meat or something.
I should be happy with my pork after these crazy expensive times… Oh well, we do have pretty much money just not as regular income.
But bacon releases fat, it won’t soak up any. Well some butter molecules must stick to it so if it’s for taste… But I like lard so butter has no role there, it just makes it even more expensive…
[12:33am]
I am quite sure I won’t eat more before bed. My biceps are aching. They didn’t even need the night Well I tried out a few exercises today… And searched for core exercises for beginners. The beginners commented that cool, those are always too hard for them but these? No problem. I obviously am miles away being able to do them, even the easier version one had… But I was already tired so let’s hope it has some role.
I want to strengthen my core, it surely will do good to my lower back prone to some tiny pain (it’s not bad since I have exercises to make it better) besides having zillion other benefits.
Ouch my arm. Even typing is a tiny pain
I want to lose fat to show off the muscles I surely will develop in the next years… I take it seriously now.
EDIT:
I forgot. 170g (or 180 or 190, who knows? I ate fatty pork) fat, 93g protein 
Yay!
340g meat for today, it will be a bit higher tomorrow, I wish for a normal (and eggy) day! I had enough of super fatty days for a while. 79% fat, it’s much for me without my darling fatty items (except cream. that was neat). 45g added fat, it’s too much without things soaking it up. I feel off a bit.
I want to chill and not thinking about food much tomorrow. Today I was on a mission and I succeed.
