I got the notice about writing too much in this thread but I haven’t written today yet. So I will. (A bit too much, it seems, sorry. I have so much on my mind and emotions too.)
@Azi: Congrats! 15lbs is quite nice 
Of course, it matters how much if left, I lost more but my belly still sported its 2 big rolls so I wasn’t exactly pleased. But I was a bit And I felt better than before (on high-carb) and I didn’t need much effort, those were the golden days 
My early low-carb months, I loved them. My body loved them. Now it wants me to be super low with my plant carbs so low-carb just isn’t good enough anymore. It was a nice fallback from keto though.
The weather is chilly but sunny! We had a nice little walk in the wildlife park forest. Yep, it was windy lately… More than I though. We saw MANY broken trees, even a very very big and until now alive one… Wow. It even had some protection, it wasn’t on the hilltop and there were other trees around… But it wasn’t enough. I looked at the very impressive tree with all the tears and breaks in its body and wondered how super strong the wind had to be to do THAT… 
Didn’t bring the camera but now we saw a tree branch covered with thick ice in the river, blooming snowdrops and hellebores! Just the first ones, there will be way, way, way more a bit later.
Maybe the walk had a role in it too but I got super hungry. I felt a small lunch will be fine, it’s normal after a very overeating day (I ate about 1000 kcal over my needs yesterday).
Well I had a lunch that seemed small… I tracked, 94g fat and 137g protein and NO WAY I won’t have another proper sized meal, it’s very early and I am not even satiated with this cute lunch…
So my Hungry Times continue. Oh well.
I had 2 soft-boiled eggs, the leftover stew (Alvaro was a cinnamon roll even more than usual and made sure my share had more hearts than liver 
) with egg crumbles (like scrambled eggs but I make sure it is a bunch of little pieces), a few little bites of fried pork, a duck neck, my usual eggy fluff (no, I won’t make it again until I get gelatine, it’s so much better and feels more that way) and now I have a coffee with a tiny cream, I will try to quit coffee tomorrow, getting stricter isn’t what I can do on weekends… Oh and 4 sponge cakes, 2 was a bit cheesy. And a little of the organ not-sausage, I really don’t know how to call that.
It was a very, very fine meal and now I start to feel satiated too. Nice. I just have no idea what I should eat for dinner when my protein is already too high… It’s not like I have tricks. If I get hungry, I need a lot of fatty protein, no way around that. Sometimes it’s a smaller lot but still, it must be substantial. But I try to avoid eating despite my lunch ended at 13:30 so I very probably will fail. Training is still important. And one can never know 100%…
I just don’t know what to cook tomorrow. I had soup, fowl, organ and pork alike lately, lots of eggs and some cheese too so I don’t want them.
So it will be “this and that” I suppose where nothing has a really big role though I need to keep my 2 base food, pork and eggs. I still have leftover pork shoulder roast (frozen but if I fry it a bit, maybe it will be nicer. not like it’s a problem if I don’t desire it much… it’s still okay for hungry me and if it’s not irresistible, I won’t inhale it in no time, at least). And I have plenty of processed meat items and they help. I still didn’t get bored of cheese though that’s an expensive, not satiating item that I already should stop eating already. Except I very much like to use a little in my sponge cakes. Not enough for them to become really cheesy but it still makes them nicer.
Sustainability is very, very individual. I never could stick to keto for weeks after fat adaptation, not like I saw the point in it, keto was exactly like low-carb just more restrictive, it gave me zero extra benefits as far as I could tell. I just needed fat adaptation but it didn’t disappear off keto.
Carnivore is different, it’s quite wonderful and now I can’t go back to low-carb and feel just right anymore anyway. But I still go off. This time until June is where I try not to. Even now, I can’t do 100% carnivore but I am very, very close and it’s enough.
My circumstances are different than someone who doesn’t live with a high-carber, baking and cooking various foods… But I have my beloved fruit garden too. Vegetables are no problem though I still keep a very small amount that is needed for some of our meat or egg dishes. Normally I like some juicy pickled or raw veg for my richest, fattiest meat dishes but I skip that now, it’s not like it’s needed, it’s just nice.
High-carb items, yep, I love many of them. They aren’t needed so it’s no problem to ignore any of them for a longer time but I definitely enjoy some when I am in the mood. Not always, I learned that something being super delicious doesn’t mean I really enjoy it so it has a chance to be worth it… And I think I never crave them. They are just enjoyable sometimes.
If I crave something, that’s more like a texture. Especially crunchiness. I think I can only really crave 2 food items, eggs and meat. Usually happens to meat as I typically eat eggs galore (I haven’t even any idea how NOT to eat many eggs when I like them… I will try as they add up super easily while I don’t feel I ate much. I blame my egg drinking the most and will try to avoid it) but sometimes my meat consumption seems to be too low to my body’s liking…
I had food boredom in the past where it was simple inevitable to go off even if I didn’t want the carbs. But I could eat them easier than more meat or egg and I was hungry so it couldn’t be helped. At least it seems to be in the past BUT I actually don’t know as I never did carnivore(-ish… or at least close to it) for more than 2 weeks at a time. 2 weeks is a super long time, I am so impressed, I don’t think I did a whole week since last winter… But I have bad memory too regarding these things…
My carni days are fine (except when I am starving and overeat, that’s not nice). I don’t miss anything and love my food. But somehow things always fall apart eventually. it’s the same with OMAD, I have OMAD days and then it just can’t be done longer 
I am pretty sure I need carnivore OMAD or something very, very close most of the time… But I can’t do it.
Alvaro says I just need self control. It seems he doesn’t know me I don’t have that and don’t want to develop it (regarding food), it’s against my core personality.
And I am very, very HUNGRY these days. Of course I don’t force myself to feel I am starving for hours, I don’t agree with that.
I stop when still (not very very much) hungry if I am sure I ate enough, that’s different. But just not eating and being hungry from, like, 5pm to 3am just because I had a too big lunch today… NOPE. Almost anything but that.
But I stop thinking and especially writing about it, it will be fine. Or I just try something. But I trust in normal weekdays if it comes to my ability to start my eating window late.
And I will try to eat according to some plan (oh yeah, fat chances for that. but maybe I can do it partially…?). As I have no proper satiation signs when they should be and I need to stop after I ate a decent amount of food that I know that should be enough (on normal days, at least). I liked when it wasn’t like this. Sigh.
Or I make interesting new experiments… Some food type limitation may be good…? I wanted a higher level of simplicity anyway…
Makes sense… I grow up in a high-fat, high-carb world and I loved both. And protein, of course. I loved all my macros and my numbers surely reflected that… I was aware of this all my life
It’s so lucky that I am very fine with my carb macro being low (most of the time but that’s enough)… I could never do low-protein or low-fat. But going low-carb was the easiest thing ever, easier than high-carb as I felt better. It’s another thing that sometimes, typically on festivals (with plenty of amazing homemade treats) or when we visited a relative (great homemade treats, again) I had my occasional high-carb meal for years to come, I still could be tempted - but I didn’t miss these on low-carb and most of the time I was fine at home. Not always, sometimes we had tasty homemade treats here, after all
Store-bought stuff was way less dangerous. And if I got still tempted, I just read the ingredients list and put back the thing, losing all interest
But I have still a long way to go, I saw that in this December. End of January was different as I was upset that I overeat on my chosen woe and got into my “I just don’t care” state. I still only ate what I find tasty so it was lovely, at least… Hungry and emotional (upset), not an easy combo and I have no quilt or regrets. (I don’t think I ever had guilt about food, why people have that? Weird. Regret happened a few times but extremely rarely. My body handles me well enough most of the time.)
And that’s why I try to behave until June. I imagine that such a long time spent very nearly always very close to carnivore (you can’t expect more from me but it’s plenty) will have a big impact on my eating later when I will be in a less easy environment for carnivore. Not like mine would be actually easy… But easier than in summer or in December.
You totally should figure out how to put photos her then She already looks fabulous in the photos I just saw… Border Collie x German Shepherd, my two fav breeds!!! It’s amazing That fluffy taill, lovely head, fun ears
I hope she is perfect for you, merely didn’t get the right environment and human and it won’t even take much to help her to become the proper her!
Nope. Nada. Not at all 
