I’m here in my home office thinking about today and feeling shitty. I’m going over the days events thinking about where I went wrong and what I could’ve done differently. No self pity though. That never works. I don’t have anyone to talk to about struggling with food so I came here to vent a little.
I’ve been on and off keto for a number of years. I’ve never really lost a significant amount of weight, but for the longest time I used a cyclical ketogenic diet from the late 90’s until the late 00’s to help keep my weight from getting too out of control when I was weightlifting.
Fast forward about 12 years and here we are. I’m about 80lbs overweight. Thankfully I don’t have any metabolic diseases that come with being obese, but that’s only today. Tomorrow might be different.
I decided to return to keto because I believe it works, I believe it’s healthy and the food tastes good. I was doing pretty well sticking to a ketogenic diet for about 12 weeks or so. I lost about 10lbs overall including about 5-6lbs of water weight. It’s good that I lost weight, but it sucks that it doesn’t seem to be all that much. I look around this forum and I go on other venues like reddit and see these people posting things like “I dropped 30lbs in 3 weeks!!! Keto is awesome!” Then I look down and see my gut and can’t help but feel just a bit jealous.
When I first started I keto I knew that my weakness was the weekends. I could eat the keto way all week long and then Friday night rolls around and I think to myself “why not? I’ve been good all week. I deserve a break.” This break would usually last until Sunday evening.
This time was different and vowed that I would do whatever it took to just stick with keto foods and keep my carbs under 20g. It worked in a sense. I was no longer straying from the keto diet. If I did get any cravings I would snack on keto approved food. I lost a few lbs doing it this way, but it was not easy.
For the past 2-3 weeks I’ve had a couple of days where I fell off the wagon. This was not just a thing like “Oh I ate the croutons on my Caesar salad.” It was a full on carbfest freak out. It’s like I was trying to make up for lost time. Definitely not my fines moments.
I can’t seem to get back on track for very long. I do see where today went off course though. I am pretty familiar with IF and have been doing it here and there for a while now. I can get through my day ending at 2pm, but I’m pretty hungry at this time. Also, my sleep is not the best, which tends to make the hunger even more prevalent. Today was rough though and if I could do it over again I would bring a small meal to work and eat around 12pm. That would tide me over until I get home and I would eat again around 6-7pm. I know 2 hours doesn’t seem like much, but lack of sleep, stress and fasting don’t work well with me.
Anyway, tomorrow is a chance to try again. Hopefully, I’ve learned something here. Meal prep is my friend and maybe IF isn’t for everyone or at least not all the time.
Any other advice?
Thanks for reading.