Fangs said this is the one so fine, I will post here!
The sun just came out, yay! I need some sunshine. I had some horrid nightmare with sweets I wouldn’t even touch. I don’t know why I get food dreams sometimes. I almost never do but when I do,
- I don’t taste anything (is it normal? I do dream in vivid colors, that part is fine and needed as I am a very visual type. the candies were rainbow colored as they often are)
- it’s always some stupid sweets dream. the worst kind, not what I actually like, not home-made either or anything.
I don’t even have a struggle when I get those dreams so it’s not that. Odd. But I totally and lengthly(?) felt the failure. I never feel quilty just because I eat something, it’s not that bad but it was my first day in my dream too, I did well otherwise but the sweets happened too for some reason. I never know I am dreaming and I felt a bit bad. For LONG. And then I wake up and see nothing happened but it’s not a relief as the damage is done and I don’t feel good
STUPID brain.
I had some coffee, I was miserable with a slight headache, could have said no but after some deliberation I went to the easiest route. Just today
Not tomorrow. Definitely not tomorrow.
Hmmm… My carni days changed too. Just because I go off a lot, I do evolve and change.
I eat leaner meat now but it can’t be the base, that would be super boring to me and I would quit. Even short term, I would add too much eggs and dairy as only meat is really satiating. And I would miss meat at midnight… So nope, I mix leaner and fattier meat, I enjoy that the best
Nothing is wrong with a little lean meat. Only with much lean meat, for me.
Cheese almost disappeared from my life too and I could reduce my dairy consumption. Need much more work as it very easily raise again (and then I get the vast majority of my energy need from eggs and dairy… I don’t say my calories as I just overeat when I start to miss meat… It’s strange, I don’t need food or macros, just meat. maybe some nutrient but can’t it wait until the next day?! so it’s not the nutrients, I would think. my body merely wants some proper amount of meat nearly every day. sometimes I can pull off a 300g meat day, after all. not often but sometimes)…
And you saw my dairy items part 1… I have things to eat.
Oh I go and shot part 2 soon!
I remember, it wasn’t long ago 
I never was into bacon. I do love the idea but getting good bacon… Not too salty… Not for a very high price… That’s tricky. I do buy bacon ends on sale whenever I see them, those are nice and very affordable too. Not in slices but who cares? I can slice them if I want! They aren’t even as salty as the slices ones, those are horrible, I need many eggs or much lean meat with them.
But processed meats… It’s going down for me too. I don’t even have sausage now and I am fine with that. I do keep some smoked pork around as it’s nice and useful (necessary in peasant’s breakfast!), Alvaro likes to put smoked pork hock into his legumes and I make meatballs with the skin… So I like to have these items for variety and for emergencies - but the amount seriously dropped. And I am choosy and don’t buy certain ones due to their ingredients list. I am somewhat choosy since I went low-carb but it got more serious lately. I can buy processed meats with nice ingredient lists, I can make my own if I really want so why to accept inferior ones? Health usually isn’t my reason as the amount would be very tiny and my body can handle a lot. Sometimes water is my problem in the ingredients list, in first place. I don’t buy such pâté even if it surprisingly lacks sugar and MSG (and even has meat. meaty pâté is the best!).
I am still sticking to pork but what else? It’s the only satiating meat I can afford - and thankfully, one of my biggest favs
I would like to eat ruminant meat more often (months pass without any) but the availability is so bad, I can’t just go and buy some around here, there is none at all. And I just don’t want it enough when I visit the city and anyway, I would like deer or mutton and I eat it so very rarely that I am willing to wait for a sale… Didn’t see any lately. But I do like to eat ruminant meat like 4 times a year. Preferably more often but it’s not important to me. But it’s really tricky so next time I see some nice stuff, I will buy a lot! So it won’t be just for one tiny stew.
Our stews are always tiny. They never last long. Even the curry made outside (so it wasn’t on the bigger side, that is a lengthy process with constant work as we burn various woods we can’t do anything else with. it still amazes me how much wood a tiny garden produces and of course, we will NEVER burn the wood from the rebuilding of the house… what was is, 12 years? we have so, so, so very much still and I made some basic furniture with some) with the lot of vegs in it that I didn’t even eat much of, lasted just for 3 meals for Alvaro.
And it was turkey, not something satiating anyway. Ruminant feels the most substantial, pork next.
I eat less eggs now but I still need them very much. But… I had enough of the scrambled eggs like bottom of my sponge cakes. And it’s work to whip the eggs, cleaning and it produces so little… I need some better stuff. I still will make sponge cakes now and then but rarely. Or I need to fix them. I so love the fluffy upper part. It makes perfect sandwiches. Sigh. I know they can be fixed on keto but on carnivore, it’s trickier. Making them into quiche is nice but they lose their bread role. I don’t want to add cheese, I never liked that (cheese mixed into something else. I liked cheese on top of things) and I didn’t made cheese almost disappear from my diet to bring it back for such a vital role.
And of course, I tried to fix them with egg powder (homemade as I don’t accept eggs from not even remotely proper sources) but my egg powder wasn’t fine enough…
I thought about bringing back my pancakes. They can have an almost bread role (they can be filled with spreads or cheese and rolled up) and I used to love them. I almost forgot about them as I always strongly favored sweet/dessert pancakes (my forever favs for filling are walnut and jam) and those led to off eating. But I do love savory fillings too, I just never had many options as the only traditional one was a veg. And quark and sour cream is nice but only for one (and it makes me think of the sweet version. I have this problem with quark too, not just pancakes, it is primarily dessert to me. not necessarily a problem though), just like cheese and what do I do with the rest of the pancakes? I can’t eat 2 of them, I am the 4-6 pancakes type (I eat a lot beforehand but I still can’t stop so early. maybe with some epic meaty filling…).
We will see. I wrote more than enough, my goals will come next time.