So, I crashed and burned last night, i think it has been coming though, and I’ve managed the blip process as well as I can without too much self loathing.
I started a new job on Monday, and ended up with a crazy location and travel itinerary that I wasn’t expecting - basically a 80 mile commute every day, work inductions, theory testing, multiple choice scenario tests, early mornings, and a lot of new faces and new surroundings. I’m also car sharing with my parents, and thank god they have my back currently with regards to me getting to work.
I didn’t manage any exercise this week, primarily because I’ve been out of the door before 7am, and back home after 5pm, doing some additional study, eating dinner, then collapsing into bed.
Although I’ve enjoyed some of this week, it was a big change, and the stress button has been firmly pressed at times, my new job doesn’t allow for drinking, and definitely not drugs, so I was thinking about sweet things from about Thursday onwards when the emotional cruxes were firing at me.
I actually had been preparing my keto lunches all week and not having them until 1pm, so I believe my body was nicely ticking along IF style, however…
Last night, after 8 hours of driving/transport online theory tests, I went straight for the jam jar, peanut butter jar, and ate some porridge out of a mug! I also had some of my dad’s apple crumble prior!
Sugar fest! fks sake!!
I don’t feel too bad this morning, stomach is slightly tender, but I’m actually patting myself on the back for not caving into wine, or something stronger.
I’ve done an epsom salt flush today, and I’ve had plenty of coffee, MCT Oil, it’s 10am, I’m thinking of making today a fat fast and keeping the rest of today food free, and then heading back into IF style eating tomorrow, leafy green salads, chicken and avocado oil etc.
Need to get on the scales tomorrow though and pay attention to the readings…
Tough old process this! this has been the first real week in ages where I felt like I MISSED sugar. Just reminded what daily life does to us.