I am not used to cold, this was a pretty mild winter
But yep, I am in winter mode still. I wouldn’t feel warm in this temp after 30-40C hot weather… Even though I never can used to that horrible inferno. Above 25-26C I start dying.
How people can use Fahrenheit I can’t imagine… At least 0C is where water freezes and 100C where it becomes steam, that makes sense 
Sometimes I am cute and convert things but it’s the worst with temperatures for some reason so I do that rarely.
My body really, really wants food when evening comes if not earlier. I may not feel hunger, I may be determined to wait but I feel more and more AWFUL… I obviously stop when it’s unpleasant and my brain gets useless but even waiting for that “broke” me last time on the monthly fast. I had to regenerate with some super relaxed times and I only now start to find my way again. So even if I can try hard sometimes, I mustn’t. It’s so difficult
Why is this so difficult? Especially lately. I experiment and learn about my body and then it just changes.
Maybe I would give up at this point, I always was fat, I can handle it for 70-80 more years I suppose, it’s hardly health-damaging on my level but I am a human and I need to eat
A lot. And that’s so hard sometimes.
We have compost
As always when we had the option. It eventually gets into my tiny vegetable patch, poor soil is horrible there, well it was horrible 10 years ago (the soil in general isn’t great but that part was the old pool filled with the worst soil…), we managed to bring it up quite a bit but most vegetables are still impossible to grow in it. We surely never could save any money (the fruit garden is another matter entirely :D), it’s not for that. It’s for getting better tomatoes than what is possible in greengrocery, those are tasteless.
And it’s nice to grow plants anyway. I have theoretically edible plants (I always hated leafy greens) I keep only for decoration 
My precious garden! Spring is near here, warm weather, blooming snowdrops! The carnivores get them but I bring one photo here too, okay? At least I bring something nice too, not just whining and using every excuse to go on tangents. Sorry if my English is worse than usual right now.
