Thank you! 
I looked at cake recipes. It’s a very long tradition we broke when I went low-carb, Alvaro always made a specific type of cake for me for my birthday.
Cake recipes are insane. And too complicated, so many things to decide when I obviously can’t bring myself to use the original. Cakes are way too fatty, for one. I don’t think a cake needs any added fat at all, mine usually didn’t have any but cake recipes uses a ton, usually.
Skipping the sugar is obvious, it would taste AWFUL with it too, people are weird…
And flour. Me and flour, that doesn’t work well. I mean, I have serious difficulties to USE flour except when I bake bread for Alvaro. I always bake low-carb cakes for him… Cakes really don’t need much carbs unlike breads so I can’t justify the use…
I was so tired after the hiking, I slept for long and we skipped the village visit. There was rain anyway. Now it’s hot.
I have a slice of pork in my freezer if my other food (mostly eggs, of course) won’t be enough (I better get it out, it wouldn’t end well without some proper meat. the little heart in my scrambled eggs isn’t enough. I still didn’t eat that, just partially).
And then I go strict. With IF too. I really need to lose fat (I don’t fit well my favorite summer pants. I use some comfy thing but it’s not as pretty! and anyway, it’s high time already) and convenience is important as well.
I make strict Mondays, that day is the best for it. Fast if possible but I doubt I could pull it off… Still, I wait for some proper hunger and avoid even dairy (except a few drops of cream in my coffee if I must but I only want it with my meal, not all day)… I like when I have a bit different days anyway… I can’t be always strict but I can do it occasionally and it’s forming a good habit if I do it regularly. Sometimes I get loose and being in that state for several days in row isn’t ideal. Yeah, I don’t go too wild anymore but still. I need my stricter times.
I keep my dairy on the other days, I have my limits and I am still so much in love with sour cream. I am pleased I am very used to keeping my consumption quite low. I almost never eat cheese, though. And with more meat I could make more changes. But dairy is fine in small amounts. I just don’t want to depend on it. Egg and meat are the two big pillars in my woe.
A strict August sounds good too. My garden barely produces any fruits in that month (while it had MANY kinds in July), I can pull it off then. Ice cream doesn’t interest me since ages. Normal one doesn’t since a decade (it’s so lacking, not nearly fatty enough! mine is way better) and mine has the single tiny role to provide variety when I am particularly choosy but I have easier to make, better things for that.
So I try to get used to stricter times again, without forcing myself, of course. It will be good.
I will talk about non-carni things way less too, I hope…
My supplies are fine, Monday will be mostly about eggs and fasting, I roast the next big slab of pork on Tuesday but I can grab that super fatty pork thing in a pinch. That’s very very useful. It’s not nice if I am hungry and have no proper food. And while it’s not proper meat (and Alvaro think it’s not even meat… it looks like meat at some parts and it has 3g protein per 100g, it’s kinda meat, just very fatty :D), it’s very satiating.
So these are my plans for the rest of July, getting back to a stricter but even more enjoyable style. My end goal is harmony between my inner selves or whatever pulls me in directions. Sometimes one of them runs into a not so good direction and that’s bad. I should be a true hedonist, doing whatever is best for me (at least roughly) and that’s ONE thing. It goes well, I am way better than a year ago.
yuk … is all I can say and I used to love it and swear by it for poorly throats and coughs! I went back downstairs and got some warm salted water to gargle with and it immediately soothed the ickiness. So I have been gargle several times since.
But it’s not for him 
I need me a sale on those things and grab up some when I can.
glad to see the tail end of it!
