I’m a self taught artist plus I went to art school for a year in Dawson creek.
Art is therapeutic for me.same for my dogs. I’m not academic tho and being 49 makes me nervous about going back to school.I’m going to see if I can do it online.as I’m still raising my son by myself.well my mom helps with food etc.
CONFESSION: My fat has been my protection
Lisambc
(Lisa marie t)
#42
Lisambc
(Lisa marie t)
#43
Oh I hear ya. I felt same way…my ex hub was my first real love. I trusted him.he destroyed me with smallest words like calling me a fat f-en lazy b****
When I was 5 months pregnant with OUR only child he said when I first met u …u only had 1 chin.in my defence I said when I first met u…ur d**k looked bigger…he had gotten a beer belly .
I don’t trust guys or ppl much anymore I don’t think …and I’m being totally honest …that I’m capable of loving a guy.
Capnbob
(Rob)
#44
Nothing small about that (except maybe letter count…) not subtle, not accidental, just being a f’n pr!ck for life!
Lisambc
(Lisa marie t)
#45
He hit me a few times.I tried hard for our son to stay together.I joined alanon. .saw a shrink.got us marriage couciling sent him to rehab for month.but honestly I don’t think he loved me.those wee mild things he’d say.
I had a guy friend I trusted…he accused me of stealing his ex gf dimond earrings I was stunned.5 yrs of triendship I told him off n blocked him.it’s been 3 or so years.
I’m content on being alone.
And being successful I hope a losing weight on keto.
dustinsherrill
(Dustin Sherrill)
#46
Dawson’s Creek like the TV show? My daughter is going to go to school for art. I had considered going back to college to finish my degree in accounting but I don’t know if it would be worth it at my age.
Keto6468
(Karen)
#48
I spent a lot of very sad time after all my kids left. I missed them, but most of all I missed the little kids they no longer were.
K
dustinsherrill
(Dustin Sherrill)
#49
The way some people treat others makes me wonder if I am even the same species as these people. I certainly don’t understand how some people can be so cruel.
Tovan_Nhsh
(Tovan Nhsh)
#50
Although I don’t have a similar background to yours, still wanted to say “way to go” on your achievements so far & to wish you luck going forward!
Saphire
#51
I love the age they are now I am certain I did not enjoy the younger years enough but I had a lot of kids in car seats and booster seats at one time and I was never a baby person. I was so focused on getting through each day. It was not until the youngest were about 5 or 6 that I could relax a little . I really am enjoying the early teen years and will try to enjoy them more this time but I realize from my older ones who are in college that 13 turns into 18 in a blink and then it will be over
Keto6468
(Karen)
#52
Ten year olds are sooo wonderful. Toddlers pretty cute too. Babies… Not my gig.
K
Renee1
(Renee)
#55
Yeah, but I think society as a whole needs to change. The way we see relationships in movies, the way we view body image, the way we talk about sex (or don’t talk about it) in the US. It all plays a role. Hopefully we are moving to a body positive, sex positive, open society, where men don’t have to be placed in the masculinity box. Where consent is a topic for discussion and all genders understand it. Then maybe all of us can say “no” and it will be treated as a “no” and not a “yes” in disguise. Then we won’t even contemplate the need for fat shields! 
At least for this particular reason.
TeresaCoffman
(Teresa Coffman)
#56
Yes, I can relate. I have used fat to hide most of my life as my weight has gone up and down. I HATE getting attention from men when I walk down the street. It makes me feel unsafe. I hate being looked up and down. Suggestive comments from men make my blood boil. It seemed easier for me to make myself hidden by loading on the fat. Now that I’m 54 I hope I can lose and not receive that sort of attention. Like you I’m trying to confront the underlying emotional reasons for overeating. Keto has resolved my physical issues with food but so much of this is emotional/mental. Thanks for starting a great thread. This is an important component for lots of women.
Lisambc
(Lisa marie t)
#57
I can feel myself starting to self sabatoge.it’s driving me nuts.m not going to quit tho.I’m going to hopefully get it out of my head n done with.
Lisambc
(Lisa marie t)
#59
Thanks…I’ve been doing exercises everyday from calendar me n my friends are doing only missed 2 days due to carpal surgery n next day was pain.
I’m drinking 4 to 6 water…I’m fine during the day…then at night…8 to 10 pm or 11.
I want to enjoy being thinner one day my heart is happy but my mind she’s just a ol b**** the angel vs devil sides of my brain.
Lisambc
(Lisa marie t)
#60
I tried dating a guy.polar opposite of ex hub…so I thought…til he drank n didn’t stop all night to morning.then the accusation’s started because I wanted to go home.I was only weekend gf because I actually put my son 1st over a guy.then verbal abuse after 5 months…see ya I’m 49 single total 9 yrs minus the 5 month dipshit
I have aniexty over things but not men.
I decided F-em I’m doing this for me.
I do struggle with self sabatoge every night. .
kib
(karen)
#61
Funny, I was raised with a different kind of abuse, the hyper-attentive, hyper-critical, hyper-perfectionistic, never let up kind. “You are great! But you are not great enough!! EVER!!!” And paradoxically, I despised male attention 99% of the time too, even when I looked reasonably nice. If I’m not satisfied with myself, then that attention just feels … insulting? Like, “I’m assuming you’ll be open to my predation, because you’re a dog and what other chance do you have.”
That can be very unfair to men who happened to like me just the way I am, but being older and married is a huge relief - a flash of the wedding ring and I know whether it’s the “friends” part or the “benefits” part someone’s after. I highly recommend getting one - with or without the husband.