Hi guys, just a quickie (I think… you can never know if it’s me… and a nice topic - edit: I almost knew it will be long. It seemed certain but I am quite open and allows small miracles if I think about probabilities).
I don’t start carnivore yet, I want my mutton goulash 
and there are some problems, I couldn’t buy pork and what’s a bigger problem, lard yet. Maybe it’s not that bad to do almost carnivore with coconut oil but still 
I try to skip added fat and I bought super expensive butter in a little shop but it’s not so good. Oh well. I think I don’t care, I will have my “who knows, how long and what kind of fast” thing too next week. And a visit at a relative (I doubt I have the strength to stick to carnivore there when I don’t consider that very needed for me. It actually pretty much overlaps with the fast as well but I won’t fast for 3-4 days anyway, probably. My hunger is a strange one, I can’t predict when it will arrive). The visit was planned for now but we had to postpone it.
So… I got my mutton! Note for self, I should order MORE than what I planned if that’s not really much to begin with as they totally gave me less. I understand they can’t give me exactly 2kg but 1.45 is way lower, I would be happier with 2.8kg or something 
(Okay, maybe some people wouldn’t be glad to pay more, I get that.) I don’t even have pork just some leftover fish now. Oh well, again.
BUT the mutton is great!!! I just tasted the neck (the 1.45kg) today. A little bit.
Mutton is something very traditional in Hungary but many people dislike it. Because it has some special flavor and it’s strong and seemingly off-putting for them. It’s known it’s the fat and we need to cut most of the fat out. There must be some left for the flavor but most of them must gone. My SO seemed to believe this, I am the skeptical person who tastes anything to see if it’s good, just most people are weirdos. (As I wrote before, I don’t remember if I ever ate mutton. Probably but I have no memory of it.)
But the fat was really hard (especially at some places), who knows, they might be really not the best tasting? I was very open though. So I prepared some meat, quickly cut off most of the fatty parts and using some spice and coconut oil (what could I do? meat fried in coconut oil, it doesn’t sit well with me. even though it tastes fine), I fried some of the meat and of course, some of the fat.
And both were pretty nice. I don’t understand people but I am quite happy that I probably only need to throw away the bones in the ribs and some tiny, hard things in the fat (the cats probably will consider it quite edible).
I barely ate a little but it was so good, it’s obvious it will be a great goulash! The recipes call for some other piece, not neck but we have this. It will be good.
And the meat is much more tender than beef… And I like the flavor better.
The sheep breed is called racka, it’s a Hungarian breed, both ewes and rams has long, spiral-shaped horns. And half a sheep is so little! I totally can buy that option next time and fit into my little freezer except the parts we prepare first. The guy said they are new at butchering sheep, I hope they will have them regularly from now on.
Next month there will be beef again, this time a Hungarian Grey. I want liver and heart, finally.
My insatiable hunger stopped after I wrote so pitifully here. Oh I start to run out of cheese too but it’s fine until I have meat and I always will. I ate more than usual from that, still not too much, that’s not my style. But I eat pretty much for every meal (well it’s normal) so I usually have a single meal or maybe some bites later. Or a bit more, eating is nice and I just can’t get completely satiated for almost a day without meat, it seems.
I ate various plants of course (not the very carby ones of course) and I have a good idea what I am able to desire at this point.
I still have nice emotions regarding chocolate but it’s not as rewarding as before to eat some. I don’t desire sweets at all (chocolate is chocolate, not exactly sweets. just like fruits are different too). I love green peas but they are fine once in a blue moon just like before. Except that, I don’t want vegetable dishes (but I ate them rarely before too). I like some raw vegetables and some fruits but their importance is very low, once in a blue moon or just a thin slice of radish is fine. And not needed, just nice. Their most tempting part is water, I like juicy things and I drink very much.
I don’t want oily seeds. I have no idea about peanuts (the things I was quite addicted not long ago) as I don’t have any since 3-4 weeks and I usually don’t even think about them since. It’s promising but I better don’t even touch those for a long time. I usually don’t have problems with not eating something I don’t have (it seems it’s true for all plants now, at least for some weeks. except coffee and tea), it doesn’t mean much.
I don’t like coconut oil (it’s neutral as it’s tasteless and doesn’t cause problems), I want my lard back. I don’t want butter either, lard is better. Oh well. I have my sheep fat, I guess, I just don’t dare to extrapolate from eating a tiny bit of it…
So I am quite ready. The last months were useful. And years. I started forming new habits ages ago. Green peas (one of my favorite vegetables all my life. nevermind I have many favs, it’s some special fav) disappeared on keto pretty quickly except in tiny amounts in soup so that happened years ago (the other legumes pretty much diappeared on the very beginning of low-carb, about 9 years ago). I needed time as I don’t resist temptation, I eat whatever I want and can, basically. Some conscious choice is involved, of course but my other desires can overrule that (but they aren’t completely independent).
I feel this all a little less surreal and dreamy now. Still odd but well, I can used to this. Whatever is “this” is, I still don’t know about my final woe. But it will be closer to carnivore I ever thought to be possible.
Coffee will be another battle but I do what I can on that front too. It definitely lost some of its importance.
Oh I made a pretty good almost carnivore (one can say it has “condiments” I guess, I only use this word since months, I still don’t know if I clearly know what exactly it means. I say it has vegetables. some onions and tomato puree, I am okay with spices, mustard and some condiments I use a tiny bit of but these two were “too much”) “pizza”. A vegetarian one as I only like those even if they aren’t real pizza, it seems. So it has egg, cheese and condiments in a wide sense. I actually put a tiny tomato on it as well, it’s from my garden. It was sitting in my kitchen for months and it was green in the first one at least… I ate the bigger half of it as my SO tasted my creation too. He liked it (and ate it with rice, obviously. Poor guy may feel pressure just because I eat differently and borderline apologized for the rice. But of course he can’t eat anything low-carb except if it based on oily seeds. Not even ice cream is possible, it must come with some simple cake. Hmmm I never made him eat some cake made with eggs as flour too, did I?).
I will make a pizza with a garlic/sour cream base on day, still not perfect but less vegetables. And we love sour cream. It’s hard to imagine countries without lots of sour cream, red pepper and soups. I already can imagine them without walnuts and poppy seeds galore but they are quite important here.
Unlike mutton. That isn’t as popular despite it’s so good :).
Should I just use a few throat lozenges and not worry about it? 
just today’s thought! Now it’s steak and eggs time!
