I went shopping. 3 different cuts of pork, that was all the fresh meat in the village shop, wow, they run out of even chicken! Not the cut I wanted so I bought no meat. Except tinned fish! Overpriced boring things but you here mentioned sardines and it was so long ago… So I bought some. In tomato sauce but it’s that or sunflower oil. It’s just for emergency. It’s not like I like sardines.
AND! I bought cod liver! I never ever ate it! 0g carbs and very fatty! 
Not as fatty as the pork jowl thing but impressive. Hopefully it’s edible, it was very pricy for a little thing and I thought it will provide some variety and it’s different nutritionally from my usual food too… Though it matters little due to the tiny amount and it’s one occasion… But I have to try!
At least I could bought cheese for Alvaro. Some boring one but good enough for pizza. I wrote about that topic for a while but now, many hours later, I just delete it. Especially that I made some almost-carni pizza for myself today - and in the end, I didn’t even taste it.
I have this super effective thing again but stronger than ever. I barely get hungry, satiation may be easy or not but I can eat a decent sized lunch… But I don’t really care about food. I am still addicted and spend hours on thinking about food, making it etc. but the actual eating… I couldn’t care less right now. It doesn’t help that I am bored with all food in existence again especially meat and eggs but I still could eat enough somehow… Some kind of egg dishes very nearly always work.
I suspect we stop respectfully avoid the beef very soon. I really can use the change and it was too long!
I am stubborn and what else would I eat so I keep doing my best to stay close to carnivore. Even though I think we can’t postpone it anymore and Alvaro will make goulash this weekend… But I cut off some piece for myself and just fry it, I can do it even the whole thing isn’t big… Well that’s why, the whole thing isn’t much enough to make a nice big meaty dish so we must use his mother’s idea about mixing it with pork… It sounds a great idea to me.
We could buy more pork (I don’t want it now) but no more beef without going into a bigger town or city by car. And it’s not planned for this week.
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I realized I can’t eat more today so I tracked. it’s a cute OMAD day, somewhere around 1600 kcal. Protein is below 100g, it happens when I am not into eggs and eat 160g meat in total. Yesterday was 320g, after 630 and 520. The decline is normal, it always happen when I make pork roast and days pass. My protein changed similarly but it’s still 100g today so that’s fine.
So I had 1, 2, maybe 3 and 4 meals in the last 4 days, not in this order at all (4,2,3(4?),1, only the first day had a big eating window, 7.5 hours, the others were small). Hopefully I will stick to 1-2 meals from now on, that’s very convenient. But I am fine with almost anything with a nice small eating window. Eating too early or too late usually just causes trouble for me. Exceptions are rare but I am very flexible. If I need to eat at 3am, I eat but it’s not ideal (and it would be impossible now as I go to bed very early for me, at 1am. I may have problems related to sleep but I don’t wake up until I slept at least vaguely enough under normal circumstances).
I completely lost my night eating, YAY! And didn’t lost the coffee but I make slow progress, more can’t be expected from me.
I wonder how long I will endure not having appetite but it’s quite chill and moderately challenging now to find something to eat. Not stressful, just fun. I need some fun if I lost almost all the joy of eating. I don’t miss it yet. And I just made nice soup, it will get better.
I changed. Egg stew is a fun enough dish (if I didn’t overdo boiled eggs right before) but in the end I pretty much ignored it for the first days and only had some on the last one as it’s unnecessarily carby (next time I make it, I can skip the tomato sauce but Alvaro doesn’t like that so that will be just for me) and I had pork anyway. It was neutral and that’s great when I can’t imagine eating most things so it helped me out.
I am really curious what the near future brings, I already feel in a way that is somewhat familiar but still beyond what I experienced before. Losing interest in eating for a while is pretty cool for me as long as I am still able to eat properly but it seems that’s no problem.
And we had nice weather! A bit too cold and not sunny when I went shopping (16 Celsius) but later it became quite good (20C, sunshine). It’s 8C now. It’s a crazy August but we had too many super hot days. It would be proper to warm up a little though 
It’s like October…
So it seems the hot summer is over. It’s great, it will do great to my spirit and mind. I love autumn.
You reminded me to look up the Covid situation, I skip days sometimes. Whoa, Germany started its new wave too. We still don’t. Hungary has very few cases, only tiny countries have less, at least it was the case yesteday.
As the past can’t be changed, we still have the most deaths per population in Europe but worldwide Peru is the winner (by far), Hungary is merely the second.
If the data has much to do with reality, of course.
But main thing, we are very good, maybe unusually so as we are surrounded with more affected countries (the very serious ones are farther though)… We will see what the future brings.
I really will try to be more concise from now on. I have so many things to do!
And for myself as well and they are a bit more complicated than usual. And made my workout between things.
