I’m not planning on stopping my trial. I figure after three months my microbiome and enzymes are most likely adapted to carnivore. I worry that eating other foods would not agree with my digestive tract: I don’t want to spend the holiday feeling crummy or on the toilet due to eating a treat or two.
Twelve Days of Carnivore!
Shinita
#182
No sunshine. Weather forecast promised me sunshine. I don’t have the mental strength to walk 2 hours without my sunshine. Eggs aren’t that important to me now.
Alvaro is waiting for a doctor for the paperwork. The doctor does a surgery. So hopefully it won’t take forever that he comes home but I had enough. The roasted chicken legs in the fridge had enough.
It’s not good my mental health, yesterday I baked vegan cookies, don’t ask why, one thing brought the another… They have oats so Alvaro probably eats them. I hate oats. My strong long term belief just got stronger. Vegan cookies suck. Well they are edible, kind of. I wouldn’t need a whole week without food to eat them. That’s for other dishes. I am smart enough to make a small amount only. Even Alvaro can’t eat everything.
But I looked at a carnivore blog (wow, interesting… but don’t call meat stuff french fries, seriously) and my forever favorite, egg videos… 
Well I watch some YT channels that includes cooking but I don’t watch them for the cooking, it’s just fun.
Real cooking videos are often pretty to look at… And overly complicated to do those things myself but it’s fine 
Sometimes I get some simple ideas though.
But I really miss baking already so I bake this week a lot. Some cheesy sticks, it should be doable even in carni version but I do other versions as well. And the usual sponge cakes, of course if I will have eggs.
I should make a cheesy sticks recipe for Alvaro too. My usual smoked cheese changed. I used it to put into Alvaro’s bread sticks. But it comes out now, no matter what I do. So I need to mix it into the dough but then it’s not bread anymore and that’s good as I always like to make lower-carb things for him, I have this instinct and general attitude. The less carbs, the better. He seems to thrive on high-carb and he probably will always eat high-carb but still. He responds so well to cheesy low-carb things… And they sound nice to me as well but I want crunch (it’s a cruel fate, loving crunch and wanting to make everything eggy. these 2 things don’t mix. I love creamy and soft things too, eggs shine there so it’s not all bad). So I will experiment.
Absolutely nothing is festive in my life now. Except the Christmas lights on the wall, that’s pretty. But it’s noon now (not like it helps, the weather is so gloomy, it’s almost dark) so I don’t even use those.
I ate very little meat yesterday (mostly liver) and probably little food in general (it’s good, I had a very strong day before. my still climbing protein intake starts to scare me. not really scare but surely more then twice my need, day after day… I don’t want that). Joy and appetite is low now. I want Alvaro back. And my carnivore OMAD/TMAD already, at least for today, what’s so hard with one day? I keep ruining things lately.
My activity is low and I am tired. It’s a vicious circle. I didn’t do any weightlifting since the accident, due to various reasons. I should do it now. Lack of activity affects my mood too.
And that I write here (not as much as yesterday, that was serious even from me) without doing carni. I plan it but baking lifted my bad mood so I don’t regret baking itself. I thought about baking bread as I like that too and I saw some pretty dough shaping ideas in videos and I need to be a bit more creative… But the timing isn’t right with Alvaro in hospital, I already cooked his rice after soaking it for 3 days… He can’t eat meat alone or with vegetables (or with cheese or other meat like me. I always think of Fangs when I use meat as a side dish It was funny back then but makes perfect sense now). Stupid hospital. Oh well, they saved him But they play with our feelings being uncertain about releasing dates. And with our food. Thankfully our food isn’t very sensitive.
I drink coffee. Black. I stop when there will be sunshine of Alvaro. I cling to it now. Weak, I know but it’s easier. I never wanted to be “strong” in the meaning forced fasters or forced dieters…etc. are. I put effort into the more important things.
Coffee is enjoyable now. It isn’t always, far from it.
SecondBreakfast
#183
So yesterday was a chicken and butter kind of day. Don’t think I ate any cheese at all. Today, I have a huge rump roast going in the crock pot, thawed a couple of sirloin steaks, and for breakfast, got 2 ribeyes out thawing- to have with a couple of eggs. I love steak and eggs. Work is 10-630 today, then have to meet a customer right after work to drop off an order from my workshop.
It will be a long busy day. But, I’m thinking steak and eggs is a good way to start it off! Leftovers will go to work for lunch.
@Ketodaisy … A lot of folks I know get SAD (Seasonal Affective Disorder) around here due to the lack of sunlight. Several doctors have been recommending higher doses of Vitamin D3 to help them through it. My BIL started that regimen and it makes all the difference! I( need to increase my dose a bit as well.)
Well, the puppy is trying to notify me it is time to go out and do her thing, so I best get moving here. Have a blessed day, all - and thank you for your support and encouragement!!! SB
Ketodaisy
(Daisy)
#184
I’ve tried a couple forms of supplemental vitamin D and have been allergic to each. I would love to find one, but they’re not cheap enough to buy a bottle, try one or two days of it, and discover I’m allergic…
Fangs
#185
yes I understand why this is a very hard reminder and tough to remember but in the end it was such in life that gives us a new path and new goals also. I think alot of us need to keep our mojo reasons in the forefront no matter what pain comes with them, out of pain hopefully comes all good things healing!! Great post SB and thanks for singing happy b day to me LOL
I feel ya on this one KD. I am not a cold person and winter has started to irk the heck out of me truly and it is tough all the ‘what ifs’ out there flying around. Very unsettling for sure!! I find strength and a good routine and calming in my eating plan, like something I can count on ya know. You will be ok!! You hang in there, eat any and all zc ways you need to eat thru Dec!! I always say around holidays or any other stressful time don’t tackle anything on your eating plan other than just stay on it and eat any time ya need, no matter what, and ALLOW that for yourself ya know…it works for me that way best and everyone does have to find their own coping mechanism to make it thru the weirdo times we face every now and then! You got strength, you will hold strong!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FB! You are Dec. 8, so cool!! and you got more lamb ribs, you lucky duck you 
omgosh the way you are writing your posts I am singing the 12 days like crazy over and over.
you said: At the start of the 12 days of Carnivormas I was down in the dumps, carbodehydrated cravings crazy and not seeing how I could get up----------------we got ya and will throw support at you at all times, and if ya don’t catch it sometimes, hopefully it will slam ya in the chops and wake ya up HAHA joking, but any and all times you feel like you are gonna go sweet and off plan, come chat it out. We all have been there on the hamster wheel ya know. We all get it and might chat ya down off the ledge.
you know I learned to do that for myself. I didn’t eat my steak first thing, not hungry and nibbled and in the end of the day, I started to go batsh** crazy on cravings. I walked this kitchen checking to eat it all. But nothing was in the house I liked enough to justify eating it LOL cause I buy junk ‘they’ love and nothing I like. I almost got in the car and went for a pizza or fast food even. But luckily I was just too lazy to truly do that LOL I even thought if I make my famous mac and cheese and eat the whole damn thing…know what saved me on that…I already put the milk into the RV fridge cause we leave on a trip tomorrow and I was not going out in the cold to get the milk from that fridge and bring it into the house…yea saved by milk location on that one!!! All the while I said that is not good to eat, why bother eating that, I talked to me the whole time saying why allowing any of that junk into me was useless against every good and good benefits I receive on a zc plan so in the end…I had nothing. Not one nibble off plan but I tell you it was the most wild time (just like KD from her post) of about 15-20 mins in this kitchen I felt uncontrollable. I don’t like that feeling at all. I then took the time to fry some chicken late at night and ate it all and I evened out ok. But I tell ya we all have crazy times to work around but damn if we can’t do it and shine thru the other side
I was gonna write the above in my post of the day but heck I wrote it here HAHA
8 days in is FAB FB!! Hold onto it. Make that the focus…your winning streak. 8 days, don’t break it now…you got 22 more to hit 30 days all in carnivore and you will do it!
Same. I think we put so much into our transition, cause heck it ain’t super duper easy to change to this plan, why go back in an uncontrolled carb manner ya know…you are working your path great VE~!
@Shinita, are they releasing Alvaro today or is he still stuck for a few more days? Waiting on paperwork means hopefully they can get him signed out today? Hope so for you guys!!! All will be festive for you again S!
THANKS ALL for the well wishes. I am stopping at 59 now…no more birthdays for this ol’ gal LOL
Fangs
#186
food yesterday was
2 sausage patties
few slices bacon stolen from hubby
few slices salami, small hunk of cheddar
2 leftover pork ribs stolen from hubbys stash
small burger patty I found in the freezer all alone so I flash fried that thing and ate it
1.5 chicken breast later in day
all…just enough crap food til I went mad in the kitchen on an epic ‘walkabout’ almost binge…but I did not do it! I held firm and in the end, I did have some chicken breast in the fridge and I cooked it and ate that and I was ok
and you can see how bad this eating is for me. This is not me. Small carnivore type junk food doesn’t cut it for me at all. I am a steak/chop/roast person and let me have at it LOL
I need a 1 lb steak first thing to ‘set my’ day. I had none defrosted.
Since I am leaving this morn on a 4 day mountain camping trip (yea gonna freeze my buns off for sure) I didn’t defrost so I wasn’t caught with alot of defrosted meat before I leave so as not to waste…caught me in the end. I screwed up and had everything frozen like a rock so I ‘winged it’ thru the day on eating.
omg I should know better ya know. I should defrost more and just cook them if needed and eat them cold then to try to play the ‘don’t defrost’ too much damn game and get caught in bad form.
OH WELL that stupid day is over HAHA
Leaving around 11…only 2 hr drive into mountains to goof off for 4 days, see some xmas lights in the mountain town decked out, wander around and see what is there and just sight see, but with covid out there alot of stuff is closed or cancelled, but we will find some fun in there at some point. Love the rv, our own virus free hotel on wheels HAHA
I have 3 monster NY strip steaks defrosting in the rv fridge for when we get to the campsite I will be hounding down 2 and hubby can have one and kid can eat whatever crap she wants…no one will get between me and my steaks!!
I am one that must have very regular set zc menu days. I will be eating very big today to compensate for yesterday, get me back on track and in good form. Low junky zc eating as I know will not hold me…key to me is eat well and alot of it and then I do very well LOL So yea, back to focus on me and zc and what I require and put that emphasis right on that as I must.
Redrobins
(Heather)
#187
Yes! I learned that from you . Over the past week, I have been working very hard to listen to my body and eat when hungry (until satiated) as often as I need to. Right now, that means 3 meals a day. I feel great and my pants are looser! I LOVE IT!
Fangs
#188
I know! right? how great is it to eat til full and happy and any time you need it AND we get looser pants LOL happy it is going well for you.
every now and then I hit a ‘screwed up off’ version of my eating, and oh boy I feel it, it manifests fast that I am off my game and I correct fast or boy would I be in trouble!!
Shinita
#190
I underestimated Alvaro (who came home today! yay!)… He ate the whole chicken leg with some part of the torso. I wanted to show my pretty roasted chicken legs (just because my photo isn’t so awesome, the chicken was pretty enough to me) but the CF card leader ate the CF card (the camera uses that)… Well I shot it with the tablet too, maybe that’s easier than taking apart the card reader… But now I am chilling. It was a very late lunch or very early dinner, whatever, my first and Alvaro’s 3rd meal of the day. It was a nice meal and he surely didn’t get nearly as much meat for a day until now! About 330g chicken (raw weight), by the way. Mine was a tad bigger and I ate liver too (while he ate his carbs, obviously).
He is full, I am not but I baked cheesy biscuits! I used a normal recipe, just skipped the flour. I wonder why people put it in, it already has tasty flour called grated cheese :D. Okay, it became a tad too fatty (even the non-carni but very keto pieces, those are mostly lard and cheese too) so my second bunch had less lard.
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We fixed the card reader. I never will be a gastrophotographer and the spices got dark, oh well. It was nice I never used fancy spices but it’s my favorite, sausage spice mix (with lots of paprika, obviously). I used little here. But it’s just some store-bought chicken, it can use some extra flavor.
Today I accidentally found some pants I misplaced ages ago. Not like it matters, I bought it 15 years ago or something, it was very small then and it’s very small now. But if I ever fit into it, I will be slim enough.
I found other pants, I can button and zip them but still very tight, that’s my next goal.
Alvaro lost 3 kg so he weighs 5 kg less than me now. And he is 13cm/5 inches taller (and more muscular and still has a little extra fat). I don’t say I feel fat but I definitely have some to lose. Its priority is very low at the moment though.
[…]
I made new shots and tasted my new bunch of cheesy biscuits… Crackers…
They are slightly crunchy, probably don’t need the spice (well, slightly aged Gouda and this tastier lard from the pig farm shop are flavorful enough indeed) and proudly flaunt their 85% fat content calorie wise. I like to be around 70% at most so they are a bit too fatty to me… But good
My second carni cracker experiment is a success. But I try to something about the fat.
It’s insanely cheesy too. The same cheese made into cheese whisps (100% cheese) aren’t this cheesy according to my tastebuds! And if I take away some lard, it probably will be cheesier… Maybe if I add some boiled egg yolks…
But it IS crunchy and I am glad.
And I will see what my satiation says to my menu. A very big part of it was chicken. And added fat. They tend not to satiate me well.
Polly1
(Polly)
#192
Thank you for your suggestion. In other seasons I would be right there with you, shouting no time like the present and let me crack on with this now. In England now it is cold, dark and miserable and Christmas has been pretty much cancelled. I still have to produce some cheerful christmas food for the few members of the immediate family who will be able to join us and for me going keto rather than carnivore makes things just a bit more doable.
I have been having leafy greens and an occasional potato with my meat or fish rather than going completely mad and stuffing down processed carbohydrate and seed oil laden foods. Sorry if I misled you by referring to them as carbs.
My heart just isn’t in it at the moment and I am taking a bit of a break until I feel ready to commit again. I have been mostly low carb for so long that eating that way remains a given.
Shinita
#193
Thank you. It’s nice I finally will be able to rest properly. I slept a lot in the last days but I just didn’t feel right.
But tomorrow I go out to do my shopping and to buy medicine and injections.
For some reason, I never can jump back to my eggy days. I get used to spare them and even if I have them galore again, I just slowly raise my egg intake.
My focus is towards meat now. I have options.
Eggs will replace most of my cheese. I definitely overcheesed my life lately. It was fine but I had enough already.
No idea what I will eat tomorrow. Liver and something.
Karen18
(Karen)
#194
A visit to the Butcher was in order today. Picked up
1 ribeye steak
2 massive beef ribs ( they were quite small last time )
2 breast of lamb rings
2 beef steak burgers
2 pork sausages with garlic and spice
Also picked up
2 minted lamb burgers
And lamb shank
As a treat for my friend
Thought about cooking both sausages and both burgers for my dinner but changed my mind and only cooked 1 of each and blooming glad I did too. They were so gorgeous but after cooking them with 2 very large eggs and bacon I was pretty stuffed.
Followed by a couple of small slices of petit grey cheese. First time I have had that and it is quite nice.
Brunch was chicken breast sautèd in butter with melted cheddar and was as tasty as per usual.
Done my stair runs first thing followed by an hour at CrossFit so all in all a great day.
. I love how you worded that!
Fangs
#196
guys LOL I am just a tad further along then you guys and GOT ALL my info from veterans that were further along then me on plan
got to our campsite…omg SO COLD we had to disconnect water etc and living on tanks and I am freezing but we are loving it and having fun! Kid put a toe into the river and damn near froze it off but she ‘wanted to test it’ and she did HA
off 'for pizza pick up with lasagna, pizza, giant beer cheese pretzels and other pasta stuff and you would think we were 12 in this camper…I am getting 12 chicken wings and will scarp some scraps from the top of the pizza but ‘this is where I see gross overeating and ordering’ of food ya know…makes me icky in a way with the ‘just want it attitude’ of my family but they do them, I do me!
HOORAY! I bet he is thrilled to be home to heal and with you taking care of him he is guaranteed a good recovery!!!
@KellynP, how ya doing, what’s doing just checking on ya, missing your posts and hoping all good!!!
Shinita
#197
Yeah I thought the same, well not due to me only but the whole effect being at home instead of at a hospital, it should make healing faster 
He went to bed around half past 9 but it’s not 7 at least as in the hospital… It’s not nice to wake up at 2am in the hospital due to enough sleep.
Meanwhile I feel a bit nauseous. I am very sure it’s due to the extra fat from the crackers, the first bunch had much more lard than what I eat on any day… It’s so stupid and unfair, if I ate a bunch of sugar, I would feel better… I didn’t have this feeling since my first carni trial (and almost never before that, surely not on low-carb), I thought I handle fat better. But I usually very much avoid added fat, never could test it and I ate my fatty crackers all alone, I started with a fatty ones and finished with the less fatty ones with my perfectly okay food in the middle.
My total fat intake was fine but I am sensitive to the ratio especially on carni. Or it’s not the ratio only. I felt those crackers nice but too fatty. I don’t feel fat alone too fatty when I happen to eat it alone (it was long ago when I did that). I don’t find cream alone too fatty. But fatty cheese mixed with lard… Maybe I shouldn’t think about it. My poor insides.
They were 90% fat calorie wise and my whole day ended at 75%, unusually high for me (it was a very simple and unusual day so I tracked. it can’t be precise but good enough for me). I like my food around 70% at most, I noticed I really, really don’t like to go higher. Once I did 80% without much added fat and it went well, I just had to focus as eating that fatty meat doesn’t come naturally but if I choose well, I still like it (probably not for longer term).
How people stand more negative effects than nausea, it’s bad enough for me. It’s as bad as a somewhat severe carb poisoning just a very different feeling and I got no warnings.
It’s super hard for me to get unwell from fat but now I managed it.
I will improve my crackers but not tomorrow.
And never will eat up something noticeably too fatty to my liking.
SecondBreakfast
#198
Eats today…
5 eggs
4 ribeye steaks
a handful of cheese pearls
coffee
water
and few cashews just because I needed a snacky snack. =)
Ketodaisy
(Daisy)
#199
@Shinita I’m so glad he’s home!
Today was meal 1: buttery hollandaise eggs, halloumi, the other half of the tuna steak, broth, liver pâté, and Amish butter.
Meal 2 was ground lamb and kerrygold butter
FrankoBear
#200
Ah, I understand. Phew. I was worried that you were being sucked into a Christmas candy cane spiral Polly. 
Stepping back to keto is an excellent fallback.