I am starting keto again today for probably the 20th or 30th time. In 2015, I lost 50 pounds on keto and was able to achieve my goal weight of 135 pounds. It was truly life changing for me and I felt so confident and free. Unfortunately, I was fired from my dream job about 6 months later. My identity was completely wrapped up in my work, as was my circle of friends. I lost all of that and wound up alone and thoroughly ashamed of myself. Life spiraled downward for me as I became depressed. I’ve always had problems with alcohol and they were exacerbated to such an extent that I figured I’d wind up hospitalized or dead, and I was truly ambivalent toward either outcome.
In a year I gained back all of the weight I had lost. I’ve only in the past few months decided that I need to get back up and make some changes and focus on positive outcomes. I am working on trying to be hopeful, but frustrated that I keep stopping and starting again. I was keto the entire month of February and lost 20 pounds. I gained that all back in March.
I am setting my intention of taking care of myself and getting healthy again through this way of eating. At this point in time, I have stage 2 hypertension and an obese BMI. With a history of early heart attacks and heart disease in my family, I know this struggle goes deeper than my vanity. I seek to lower my blood pressure, reduce my symptoms of depression and, of course, to get to a healthy weight. I am hoping to find other like minded folks and that we can motivate and encourage one another!