At least my high-cvalorie dinner was effective 
It’s 4pm and I am so perfectly satiated It seems carnivore satiation kicked in and I will have an easier time again Not like eating a lot of fatty meat was so hard but it was odd I ate that much. I know I am prone to eat much when I have such a fatty cut and it would be actually fine but I had such a super long overeating period (almost all my life? and I suspect it was very serious. I never could gain quickly while people can gain something noticeable during the holidays! I needed a year to see any change on the scale - that I didn’t even own most of my life but my relatives had so I checked it sometimes. I never go to a doctor so that wasn’t an option) that I am a tad afraid my body realized how it can do it even on carnivore, all the time and I will be doomed (well maybe not doomed just staying this fat. I suppose I am healthy enough and I never was beatiful. oh but I wanna see my growing muscles I am working on! and finishing fat-loss. I was so much lighter before the stress gain, my only quick gain - without even eating a ton - and a bit leaner too). I am an optimist and I am not very much or actually afraid, I am hopeful but it still caused some uncomfortable feelings. Especially my 3300 kcal day that doesn’t even count as it wasn’t a proper carnivore-ish day after proper carnivore-ish days. But I so wanna lose this fat already. So it’s up to my body to be cooperative…
Oh it will be fine 
Apropos meat. I still have phases. Sometimes I wonder if a time will come when I just can’t imagine eating meat. Maybe but no way it will last long. I think. It would be problematic to eat extreme low-carb without meat. I don’t feel meat is something I necessarily want but what could I eat without it? So I need it.
21 hours, stomach growls. Not perfectly but still definitely satiated. Negative appetite. No compulsion (or is it a bad kind of appetite?).
And now that I write it down, I suddenly got hungry with appetite. Stupid mind. My body is surely smart
Oh I have drippings and I like cream, it sounds nice! I will try it out. Not like I need it… My fatty meat is fine all alone. Usually. Sometimes when it’s not day 1 or 2, it’s more interesting with something with it… I guess the gravy is good with the leaner cuts, those need some fatty addition more. I already wondered how I will eat all the pork chops, we have so much. It’s actually Alvaro’s kind of meat but if I have no fattier option at the moment, I eat it too. Thanks for the tip! I have read about keto and probably carnivore gravy before but never was very attentive…
I never would buy packet gravy even if I ate gravy to begin with, I had no idea it existed… But KetoKoala can’t send me real gravy, I didn’t even see her cooking that. She just fries up everything. That’s nice, I always was a big frier myself but a big slab of meat needs the oven. It’s more convenient too.
I make everything I can since I went low-carb. I didn’t even ever buy coconut milk, I made it myself… It seems almost another life, I dislike it now. I make everything I can myself. Some condiments are just too good and I buy those but it’s minimal. Especially now that I don’t eat boiled eggs so I don’t use mustard, that was a frequently though sparingly used stuff. The others make some appearance once in a blue moon.
Oh I am fine with my tiny freezer (not forever, I imagine a richer life with half sheeps in my freezer well ONE half sheep fits, rackas aren’t that huge after butchered but what about my other meats? even if we started with a big stew so only part of the half sheep would go into the freezer), I get good enough (for now) meat with good enough prices in the village and a monthly city visit is enough for getting a decent amount of meat too…
And our fridge gets old, buying a new one isn’t so far away and it will have a significantly bigger freezer. I can’t buy huge amounts of meat for cheaper anyway and there are farms nearby. Though some kinds of meat are sold rarely… Like the wonderful mutton. Or certain breeds of beef. Piglets are sold once a year. Still, my house isn’t big enough for me wishing for a big freezer. The tallest fridge I can find will do 
And a simple fridge, not those 2 door ones or what. I would rather learn to can meat, I don’t want spending much on keeping it cold. Yeah, the fridge will be the most effective one that is worth it, we are big on it, we spent a small fortune on making our house close to a passive one but it’s a principle, why to store a ton of frozen meat all the time when it’s mostly for me and not really needed.
Yeah I changed my mind about that too. 1 pound a day was so excessive for many months, whenever I tried it, I experienced that and now I so easily go way higher without a problem or actually, effort…
I always could eat big. I still can’t imagine eating only meat but 20oz for a meal sounds quite okay now (with my current bigger meals).
I still drink coffees btw. With milk now. Yesterday I drank all my coffees until dinner (just until dinner, I obviously didn’t stop, that’s not my style) using 10ml milk in total, I am impressed. Still dislike milk in coffee but black is worse and no coffee is only in my future (between two far apart coffee drinking, I don’t want to give it up completely. maybe I will though, who knows? if I break this close relationship, I may realize I am fine alone).
I love (my) pancakes and I can handle some carbs here and there but well, the thing people call pancake… I never liked those. They aren’t worthy for sure and Alvaro’s Mom makes such things. They contain a ton of flour!!! Eww. My Mom started my heavily eggy pancake journey My baseline was already good, well tasty enough back then… And then I progressed.
Alvaro can eat my almost-okay pancakes. He calls mine omelets. But they aren’t… They contain dairy… Just not flour… Whatever. I put 10g flour for 2-4 eggs if it’s for him and he is happy. It’s still not the very starchy, flour tasting thing people call pancake… (I looked it up. 60-200g flour per egg. Oh my god. 12 ingredients. I use 3.)
Erm sorry but pancakes and me, it’s a love story even if they had to change with me No idea what I do if I stop eating dairy but no sour cream, that sounds impossible for me at the moment.
I rarely eat pancakes nowadays anyway. They trigger my sweets eating when it’s summer so fruits are around me and I am way less disciplined (and it gets worse when I can’t eat my normal food but am hungry. as I always can eat pancakes. I don’t always enjoy them but I always can eat them when hungry. usually even if I am not)…
I feel only safe if I have head cheese as they are so, so good together. And I probably will have that soon. Not sure, I can’t know in advance how much food I will need.
I would look forward to beef ribs myself. I rarely eat beef but ribs? Never. It’s not the cheapest cut. But I don’t have much memories about the farm beef I started with either. We struggled with finding a nice and not super expensive cut. Ribs were too fatty, Alvaro complained. We both are happier with leg stews. But we couldn’t even do things right back then and surely ribs aren’t the same. Just like I have fond memories of pork ribs in my childhood and when I made them in the last years, it wasn’t so good.
I love it.
) But I do what I can 