I can’t resist to pop in, maybe it will help me to get the hang of things, my August wasn’t so great… Eating wise, creativity wise, feeling right wise… Nothing. There are things hanging above my head but I try not to stress over them so much.
It’s good I am not a stress eater but I tend to be even more indulgent when I am unwell. Food doesn’t help at all so it’s not most apparent there I think.
So, September
I expect it being lower-carb than the summer months. Almost no fruit to tempt me and I had enough of fails and my inner rebel should be sated too.
I am ready for a higher level of simplicity…
But I need fatty pork for all this 
Today we had a tiny shopping, we visited the farmer’s market. There was meat but nothing tempting enough. We will get some proper smoked stuff from the pig farm soon… That’s neat.
If we were in the village already, we visited the greengrocery’s (we bought 40 eggs and a figurine. I already bought 3 animal figurines from the series, they are cheap and HILARIOUS… they looked totally wasted this far, very heavy alcoholics for sure! they inspire me to draw them with bottles but I actually can sculpt such simple things too… but now? they still show some hard past but they definitely are after detox. I got a lion, I already have a zebra and a tiger and gifted an elephant to a friend) and the supermarket. And lo and behold, they had pork shoulder!
So I bought it all (1.3kg). Nice fatty meat. A bit too fatty, it will release some lard I don’t need though but if I roast it, not very much. I will roast it tomorrow along with some leaner pork!
I think I continue diminishing the consumption of processed meat items. I keep the sausages but I don’t feel the need to eat them often. Unlike in the past.
I try to keep my dairy consumption modest too, it’s too easy to eat a ton of those lovelies but they aren’t so very useful for me. Not very satiating and I need to go and buy another if I run out and it’s not so convenient… I will eat those if I really need them.
I have an eggy phase again but I probably rarely will want as many eggs as in the past when I couldn’t eat meat in bigger amounts. I do need it for variety. I don’t miss eggs if it’s low anymore, I think but almost just meat would be quite boring I fear. Maybe not if I had everything, lovely seafood, various processed items, good fowl, good pork, ruminants and whatever other types exist out there… But that’s not my reality, especially on the seafood front as I bemoaned it a few times. The subset of the available items and the ones I find tasty is way too tiny and I haven’t even brought my budget into this whole thing at that point.
(We need that all you can eat Asian restaurant moderately soon, that probably will smooth me a bit, there are some nice seafood options there.)
Alvaro cooked simple today, just a bunch of potatoes and 30 eggs over open fire. Oh it’s so great the hot summer passed, it wasn’t so nice to cook outside then…
We never cook a huge amount of eggs since we did it with 50 once and as I don’t like hard-boiled eggs much, it was a challenge to eat it up. 30 will disappear in no time, Alvaro makes a dish, I make another… And we already ate the few cracked ones, it’s way better when fresh and warm!
But it’s weekend and feels like summer and I have circumstances so I will start my more or less carni September on Monday. I can’t wait, I doubt I will eat much of Alvaro’s dish, it’s way too carby even if only one item is that, the others are carnivore items, actually. I used to love that dish but I think I can mostly pass now. I wouldn’t enjoy it so much. That happens to all my old favs with plants. I enjoyed the hell out of them for decades, I am not sad at all that they belong to the past now. Clinging to them out of nostalgy is annoying but I probably grow out of that quickly, I dislike dietary disappointments.
So my slow evolution continues.
No specific goal, I just try to stick to carni and a tiny eating window - and make some better than ever attempt at ignoring coffee (the bar is shamefully low). August was quite bad at that front. Squeezing a single no coffee day out of me is a feat! (I did much better a few times in the last decade than that.) I think it would be easier with good teas (those or I will drink cocoa if my coffee is hidden… I can’t just swap it with water right away) and I don’t have any now.
I fancy warm liquids in the morning now, it’s probably time to go back to the warm water drinking I learned to like before but stopped when cold times ended.
My “raging” milk phase is over
We still buy a liter per week but that’s it. Cream is more useful anyway and I use it in moderation. I got so much better with my dairy but occasionally I still have a lot of one or two and I have very many dairy items so they may add up. So I am careful. I don’t desire or need them in that amount, they are just so easy and nice to eat… So no one should think I actually restrict myself, against my desires, nope, I just take out the really unnecessary amount.
I don’t think I ate ruminant meat cold before (jerky like things don’t count of course)… I would think it’s chewier that way…?
But some fatty cold pork? I LOVE IT
Much firmer fat but still everything is tender and lovable.
Fowl is a bit meh both cold and warm, I have this loving relationship with fatty pork
I am pretty good at eating things cold anyway but scrambled eggs are way better fresh - let alone pancakes! But some egg dishes are fine cold (or room temp), some are even served cold normally…
I still don’t feel any desire to eat raw meat (besides the cured dried kind) but I really like when things get those changes from heat, it tends to make things tastier, be it meat or many vegs… But there are exceptions. See my drastically dropped interest in cooked salmon since I could try the raw version… Oh that softness and perfection… Something get lost if we fry it.
But that’s fish, most meats benefit from cooking thoroughly if you ask my tastebuds.
But I eat pork, mostly so of course I cook it well. I noticed that beef requires way less frying - cooking is different, it needs a long cooking time, the chewier the more. I usually like fried/roasted things way better and it’s especially true for ruminants even though they make lovely stews.
We don’t have a resident hawk, sadly but I saw a green woodpecker, yay! It’s usually Alvaro with those special sightings but I saw it too 
By the way, today was a good bicycle ride back from the village, we used the scenic route next to the pond, great view, partially bad road but fine enough. We saw a swan, a beautiful egret and the usual gulls and ducks. Nothing special but I don’t always see an egret so it’s better than average. Blue herons make it really good and a kingfisher would be spectacular, I only saw one 2 times! Bee-eaters are even more precious, I just never see any, we only hear their unique voices as there are many around here but they are shy or something.
Have a nice month, everyone! I will really try to behave. Whatever it means… I only have some vague ideas about what is realistic for me in the near future.