So one thing I held to myself a lot was my hatred of running. I just never understood how people could torment themselves in that way and enjoy it. I’ve done a bit of running in my life that was mainly from PE and involved sweaty angst and treadmills. But with that being said, I always low-key wished I was able to run long distance or fast. Every sports day I felt left out and subconscious and very out of breath and I wanted to improve my stamina. And yet my hatred of running always got in the way.
But lately my school held a 5k sponsored run for cancer research and I didn’t participate, I hung amongst the supporters and watched that actual fit and active kids run it. This saddened me, I wanted to participate but to be frank I was just embarrassed and knew I wouldn’t be able to. So I decided to do something I never thought I would. I decided to try a couch to 5k program. I first ran with my sister a week or so ago and lasted 5 mins before giving up and going home. Yesterday I went out with the difference that I was using Zombie Run 5k, an app that had an engaging story line and made me a runner in an apocalyptic universe. I honestly didn’t expect to get engaged and was doubtful on the app but what the heck, it’s free anyway. I was wrong, I ended up very engaged and although I didn’t run as much as I speed walked, I ended up enjoying myself and when I returned home after half an hour, I felt a euphoric rush of happiness which was very relieving as I was stuck in a rut of a depressive episode that pretty much sucked big time. I managed to run almost 3km in half an hour. I’m incredibly proud of myself and actually can’t wait to improve onwards. Who knows, if I end up running frequently, maybe I’ll be able to participate in a sponsored run or charity run for cancer or epilepsy or other causes I’m equally passionate about.