40kg! Wow! That’s a lot of weight lost. Congratulations.
I am still big and always will be. I once wanted to buy a t-shirt to match my (at the time) weight lifting obsession, that said EAT CLEAN… TRAIN DIRTY and then I realized that fat people wearing clothes that advertise anything – a diet plan or a workout philosophy or anything – would surely make onlookers like in stores want to sneer. I also once avoided something about lowcarb on a shirt because I realized it would make lowcarb look bad if someone huge were wearing it lol – and I feel like that’s a life and death thing for a lot of people, I don’t want to be responsible for helping put someone off it. Anyway, so… I understand. I’m sorry about the sitch with your mom. It must be very frustrating.