Hi all - I don’t post much, but I’ve decided to come to the fold for a bit of support as I need to do something, say something, to anyone who will listen and understand. And maybe someone has been through a similar problem with meds side effects and can suggest something helpful. My partner isn’t keto, so he just doesn’t get it, and his responses of basically ‘just try harder’ aren’t particularly helpful.
Long story short, I’ve suffered from a neurological condition (along the lines of migraine associated vertigo, with a hypersensitive nervous system) for the last 4 years which has been helped by keto, as suggested by my neurologist - I was on no medication (they thought I’d be too sensitive to side effects based on trying various meds in the first couple of years), and was using keto to keep me stable. It helped until one day it just didn’t anymore; I was keto from August 2017 and symptoms were practically non existent until July 2018 when they started creeping back in. They ramped up considerably over a couple of months, and I ended up off work for three months from Nov 2018.
Since then, I’ve stabilised somewhat, and went back to see Neuro in May for advice on how to proceed. A new neurologist said I can’t rely on lifestyle changes such as keto, and I need meds to help keep me stable.
So I’ve started on Nortriptyline in June, and the carb cravings started within a couple of weeks. They are all consuming cravings, I can’t think of anything except whatever it is I’m craving. It drives me insane. It’s usually a sugar strand donut, though the other day porridge popped into my head (I was never really a big porridge eater before…!)
So, I’m not proud, but I’ve started cheating. Regularly. And a cheat isn’t just “I’m craving a donut so I’ll have one and move on” - we’re talking a full on carb binge, I might as well be truly honest. I don’t even feel sick afterwards, and I really should. It’s like my body’s just like “GIMME!!”. I do go back to keto afterwards, but the cheats are probably at least once a week now. I don’t think I’ve made it past a week eating 100% keto in the last month. And I’m at this point now where I’m stuck between and rock and a hard place - I can’t imagine going back to a diet with carbs in (I had been considering dropping keto and reintroducing carbs, but not just a diet of donuts, because I’m that miserable from the cravings) because I also used to get IBS and heartburn (and my dad has type 2 diabetes from a bad diet), and keto helped with ALL of that; I remember how wonderful I felt on it back in the first six months of being on it. I felt like I could do anything. But despite not being able to imagine eating how I used to again because of the consequences, I also feel miserable on keto just now. And I’ve somehow gotten stuck in my repertoire of meal choices, I can’t remember what I used to eat when I was 100% keto and happy.
I’m not sure if I’m making things too complicated with things like Lo Dough (I’m in the UK, it’s a wrap which is practically zero carb) which I thought was handy for work lunches, and I had introduced sweetened bakes as a regular occurrence (usually something from Gnom-Gnom’s website).
I’m lucky that the meds are helping my condition, I do feel supported by them, so the cravings aren’t all for nothing. But I would feel even more supported if I could manage to be on the meds, and also be keto. As soon as I introduce carbs in, I get some minor symptoms, so I know keto is still also supportive for me even though it didn’t keep me stable last year.
I just feel stuck. I know I’m not really stuck, I just need to pick a direction, and move in it. But sometimes even though things look easy, like to my partner, they’re not that easy in practice. I’m not sure how to handle the cravings best (I think my sweetened bakes may be making things worse?), and feel like a bit of a failure right now. (Yes, 100% full of self pity too, but please don’t slap me to bring me round, I’m not sure I could take it just now )
Posting this will hopefully help me recommit and put an end to giving in to food cravings (I mean, it’s just food FFS Come on, brain!!!) even if I don’t hear any words of wisdom back from you.