Ahoy. I am not fully awake yet (despite drawing the daily painting I do nowadays⌠I am not pleased but thatâs normal, my inner critic feels it can afford being very critical again and the contrast is really not so good, I tried to focus on it but nope. and this is a very limited environment, time wise and otherwise too, I donât even have many colors or opacity but I like challenges and competition and it helped me in various ways) but I didnât write in this topic yet and itâs time.
Itâs already day #2? Yesterday passed quickly and smoothly. Well it could have been better, I had some âwhat should I eat nowâ moments but no real problems.
I got mildly hungry at 2, weekend so I am a tad more relaxed as I should be, I always get hungry earlier then⌠Alvaro got ready to eat (he cooked carbs and not rabbit, oh well, maybe next weekend), making some fried pork chuck sounded a right idea, I had a headache⌠And very soon ready to eat meat I didnât have enough of last timeâŚ
So I ate
And yep, I was hungry, apparently.
Last time 290g pork was sooo little so I fried 490g this time, fattier pieces as it was frying and I donât add fat to chuck.
It was very nice but I stayed hungry. So I ate sponge cake with sausage because I had that. And yogurt for dessert. I wasnât satiated, my food was way too small for that (sometimes it happens with less on carnivore but itâs rare or very very temporal) but I wasnât hungry anymore.
About 2 hours later I felt the need to eat again and I was a bit lost then. As I already ate a decent amount of meat and only had raw meat anyway at that point. Eating eggs was the obvious choice so I had some scrambled eggs and while I didnât really want that, the leftover sponge cake with sausage. It wasnât enough but my protein was high enough so I did my very natural âfat lastâ thing, I always start with my protein and if I still need something after I ate way more protein than my needs (with a lot of fat but still not enough calories), something very fatty sounds best. I ate a little salmon spread (itâs very rich, fatty and flavorful and I had no more sponge cakes left and I had no boiled eggs either), some slices of the super fatty pork jowl⌠But that was too fatty so I balanced it out with a bit of quark. And I ate all my greek yogurt as well but that was before.
Maybe it wasnât the right decision to buy the 330g one instead of the 1 kg one⌠1kg yogurt seemed excessive then. Now I know better⌠But maybe sour cream would work better, it gives much more fat, I am just unsure if that works well longer term. Itâs not so good for immediate satiation as far as I know.
Oh but I can experiment so much in May! I even wanna try the fat first thing if itâs physically possible for me. I am not sure about that. Everything in me is against eating fat first. I have the âeggs firstâ attitude - I did it differently yesterday though and did meat first
I usually consider that risky. Hungry me likes some eggs and meat is exciting afterwards and when I get bored of that, I already ate enough (or there is quark, not like that is significant in calories but my satiation works in interesting ways).
Goals?
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No coffee. I am serious now. I donât even like coffee at this point⌠It goes perfectly this far.
(I still drink tea, I need some variety and I have no carbonated water now
But I mostly drink water.)
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A proper carni month, even with some extra rules like no cheese until I wonât miss it or consider it a too good idea to pass.
Itâs easy, I lost most of my interested in cheese in the last several months. It helps that I get bored of meat way, way harder than before so I donât need cheese for âsomething else when still hungry but canât eat my staplesâ.
But itâs good for certain dishes so I surely will eat some, eventually.
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I try to start my eating window as late as comfortably possible if itâs still before 6pm. I wonât wait any more then, that never works well - unless I am confident I can skip a whole day. But I didnât do that since ages. The less carbs I eat, the worse my fasting abilities become in general, itâs not that simple but basically thatâs the truth.
I donât eat cream either, I mostly used it for coffee and I weaned off already anyway.
I like that I continue doing things in my off times. I honed my new keto habits after I quit keto right after fat adaptation too⌠That was nice. I have my training without bothering with the restrictions of keto. Itâs not like I felt any noticeable benefit when I did keto so I only did it when I fancied itâŚ? Felt the pull? Hence my on/off keto times.
I have found a nice elegant black pair of trousers, I wore it a few times and itâs just a tiny bit tight. Well at least that should get betterâŚ
Today I fry 840g pork chuck and vaguely try not to eat it all⌠No idea if I should start with eggs but probably as I am not interested in them right now so if I donât have some when hungry, I wonât later. And I canât eat just meat, thatâs not me 
And it is a problem if I rapidly deplete my supply⌠Going to the nearby town is a tad harder for me now but my ankle should handle 10km (it would be 5 if Alvaro still would use the car. early morning light is here so he cycles or runs. he crosses the forest in the wildlife park just after 5am so he needs an early light)⌠Of it not now, a bit later. Right now I have plenty of pork (and other meat) in the freezer. But only one small (probably 3 pounds again, it canât even last 3 proper days and only I eat it normally) slab of chuck.
Iâve just read an article about how Hungarians eat, when and what are the favs⌠The top 10 fav dishes list has only one (typically) meatless dish (though our⌠kind of ratatouille doesnât require meat either, I always made it with eggs), pancake 
Why everyone always says breakfast is super important? Itâs one the worst dietary ideas for many of us⌠Maybe we are too few. Oh well. I am fine, I just pity all the people who shouldnât ever eat breakfast and maybe they donât but feel guilty, âKNOWINGâ they totally should. As the presence of breakfast harmed my childhood (and I didnât even feel bad afterwards. some of my acquaintances got bad nausea), I feel very strongly about that topic.
Before I forget, part of my wonderful fried pork, I was hungry but eventually remembered to take a shot, I focused on the meat as my plate was so fatty and no nice presentation at all as it was during a meal⌠But I am into close ups anyway⌠But I didnât use the macro lens as that would mean extra time and I was hungry⌠Oh well.
Yesterday was about⌠1800 kcal and 69% fat. I want to compare similar days but still with something different. Fat first and not fat first with the same amount of fat, for example. If I eat fat first, I wonât have 50-60% so 60-70% sounds good. 50-60% is too much precious protein anyway (unless I manage to eat little but itâs me), I only need 120g for satiation and even less is my actual need as far as I know (as itâs beyond 2g/kg for LBM).
The pork chuck had hard fat again. I got some lard from it and that is very firm too.
- I try to be a bit more concise. Well I try to try. Today I forgot and I didnât even try. Trying and failing is semi-success to me. Itâs me.
Okay I wonât come until sunset then, I have pretty sunshine outside and I am inside, writing⌠Sigh.
And I bring photos!
Oh yep, Alvaro shot these as I didnât go all the way with my ankle, I only found a not blooming yet but almost one!
Orchis, google says. We call it kosbor (ram+wine, no idea why :D).
Even out street has a plant despite someone stealing the only one last year⌠How did it come from? Leftover? It is around the same place.