So I bought some fruit tick tacks near the start of June; they are essentially the only sweets of any kind I had in my food regime apart from a few bars of 90% chocolate.
I know I shouldn’t have them, but I was to keep them in my office draw for ‘emergencies’. I also admit I have some dry fruit (which is also a bad idea and plays into this mistake).
A month in I felt I was doing pretty well with no refined carbs at all and they caught my eye. I thought I could just have say 5 after lunch (in my eating window), and for a couple of weeks I did keep to that happily even knowing it wasn’t ideal (but I was also on 24 hour fasts and losing weight is my priority so I felt a few Tic Tacs every now and again would be manageable).
Anyhow; last Tuesday I decided to have some fruit at work in the morning (free fruit 2x per week) and had a banana and nectarine at the same time. Honestly that nectarine tasted like pure gold it heightened my senses for sure but I didn’t think much of it as I felt it was good fibre and whatever other good stuff fruit is supposed to provide.
So lunch rolls around; I have my usual spinach based HF salad but come back to the desk still feeling quite unsatisfied; which was actually quite unusual at that point because I was happy with my pre-prepared lunch.
I then had small handful of dry fruit after sitting back at my desk, and my brain become like a metaphorical Mere Cat and my addictive senses came on full force; I being to justify a few Tic Tacs and said 10 maximum, but as you can guess I popped the lid off and just began popping them in without looking; my body and my sugar addiction really felt out of control there was no way it was not going to let me finish the pack off; which I estimate was about 25-30 Tic Tacs.
It was like an out of body experience, my brain almost blurred out what I knew it had done and made me get on with work. Back at home that evening I had planned to have a very light meal but instead without thinking I decided to skip dinner and said “I would have a few macadamia nuts”; but with my nuts I had dry raisins and cranberry’s! Honestly it was a blur of mouth stuffing; my body addiction wanted the sugars back and as much as possible; the whole day was virtually a blur of my addictive nature taking over.
I had been running smooth and feeling great the day before; I can honestly say I did feel like a bit of a junky the next day; I was off the smooth Keto ride that Wednesday both mentally and physically and knew I was back in the grip of the sugar/glucose cycle. No doubt I may have also hot a huge insulin dump which made me feel awful and possibly also stalled any weight loss progress for a couple of days.
So a warning; that sugar monster is only a few mouthfuls from getting you back entrapped in it’s cycle. Avoid Fruit Tic Tacs at all costs!
