I had a crazy day but I was starving and it annoyed me…
Now I feel better and came back! Kind of. I still prefer carnivore-ish with my tiny plant matter (I could do without but I would gain nothing with it IMO) and it’s June… Out of question to do proper carnivore anyway. But it seems I can do it with a few off days
Especially after I get my goat meat tomorrow, it will be soooooooo easy in the next week… Until the huge amount of various red fruit (and yellow or pink as the vast majority of my raspberries) overpowers me… But I enjoy them anyway, I picked a lot of beautiful tiny strawberries today and watched my SO to eat them up
I don’t want them at all now.
So I will behave for the rest of the week I am sure. But it will be so good to eat proper meat and not smoked super salty pork, sausage and fish…! Those help but I strongly feel I live on eggs with some other stuff as spice and it’s basically true. It’s some weird hardcore style. I hope the farm will have some other meat soon. Probably.
I don’t know if fat-loss as an only goal is necessarily bad but I have a long list
I had it with vegetarianism too, I had plenty of reasons and most of them didn’t even change… That’s why I can’t buy meat in just any store, I need good farms. Except for fish but I am not into that, it’s not satiating enough, it’s not so substantial…
Today was easy as I needed a smallish meal and I can have that with my very limited resources right now, without getting bored.
Dieting… I am a weird dieter. I eat whatever the hell I want, whenever I want and as much as I fancy, who cares about hunger and satiation, I go beyond such stuff… I can keep myself from being obese with this mindset, I actually tend to hover on the normal/overweight border if I eat to my heart’s content… So it’s not that bad but losing fat from here… Oh my, that’s tough. And I do only easy things if it’s about my food. I like challenges but that has its own reward, it’s fun 
“Eat less, move more” is perfect for me, that is what my family members need to lose fat, always (despite we are totally different, my SO and me. and no idea about his mother but she stays very obese, the usual low-carb diet is quite ineffective… that 160g net carbs doctors advise… I would gain fat eating so insanely much carbs myself, well not into severe obesity but I have good genetics not allowing me to be more than borderline obese). Okay, when I was fat, I didn’t need to move, just eat less. It was so damn easy, I lowered my carbs, ate as little as possible for me - and lost fat without any problem, being more satiated than ever all the time… There was some fight to keep my fat intake low… It regularly went over 200g but I could afford that and I surely didn’t ruin my metabolism with too little food, that’s not my style
Oh, good times. I loved my low-carb woe, I just grew out of it.
But I get it. One can do things very unwell using the same basic advice as me… I never followed any advice, by the way, I just figured out what works for me and what doesn’t. And kept eating whatever I wanted, fat-loss be damned, I am a hedonist with a not very unhealthy weight. ~30lbs extra fat is tiny, my mostly quite healthy body (I mean, there are weak points but where it really matters for long term, I am healthy) would handle it for the remaining 8 decades or something but I trust myself to lose it in a few years (I want it in 2020 but I wanted it in the last several years too so I should be realistic and want it to be done in 1 year :P).
Move more is a great advice to me as I exercise way too little… Not like I do that but I put some effort into it and enjoy the exercise when I have it. Obviously, I wouldn’t do it otherwise, I am not THAT desperate!
And eating less is inevitable for fat-loss as I never will move THAT more and my body doesn’t work in mystical ways. BUT if it does, that’s fine too, it’s not like I force myself into things, I eat when I am hungry and stop when I am perfectly satiated
I think I have my method and eventually I will even follow it most of the time and my tiny miracle happens.
I am very patient, I just want to feel very good and energetic for now 
This small meal felt great. I should enjoy this feeling, I very rarely eat small meals… It probably wasn’t that small but wasn’t big… I didn’t track it yet and I totally suck at guessing even after tracking for quite a few years. Maybe it felt small. It was a decent one…
Nope, it was tiny, barely over 1000 kcal. Okay. I feel very good now.