Hi Jennie, I hope you don’t find this reply as being judgmental, condescending, etc. … But reading you post, I have to be honest and say, there’s really only one person who can answer this, and that would be yourself. Personally, I think if you went back and re-read your initial post, you would probably already know the answer.
You first mention some of the issues you have had and possibly are still dealing with, followed by the success and accomplishments you have seen since. (And as others have mentioned, success you should indeed be proud of) - But I think it’s the actual question you asked itself, that might be somewhat misleading to some? … You didn’t ask ‘Could I go out and enjoy some drinks, or Do some social drinking?’ You asked “Can I get wasted?” So some might misconstrue this statement as possibly being indicative of a previous problem? - So though there have been many great suggestions about ways you could go about this, more sensibly. (i.e., lower carb, etc.) To be honest, if the end-game is to simply ‘get wasted’, does it really matter what vise is used to accomplish this task?
I think the better questions you may want to ask yourself are; ‘Would it be worth it to you, regardless of the outcome?’ and/or ‘What is your real need to get to this state in the first place?’ … For the record, I’m in no way a therapist, counselor, etc. but my personal opinion after reading your post would simply be; That first off, if this were truly indeed a necessity on your part, you wouldn’t have posted the question in the first place, but simply went out and did it. - But what I really got from reading of all the post above (Which I did) is that there were a lot responses by folks who just want to make sure you truly understand the possible consequences that an act of this nature could bring. Meaning a domino effect of sorts, leading to an even bigger or possibly repetitive issues later.
So in the end, no one can say for sure just what might come from performing an action such as this. Maybe not even yourself? … Most can only speculate, and possibly provide the best guidance/advice they can. But my guess is that the advice already provided, at least some of it, probably comes from personal experience. (Whether directly or indirectly) but was provided with the best of intentions.