Okay im ranting…im talking… i have to or else im going to jump ship into a vat of somthing sweet.
I had a consult with the surgeon and this is the conversation that took place:
me: “im having right sided pain that wraps into mu back and feels like i am having a gallbladder attack all day and i am so nausiated i can only tolerate sugar free jello and chicken broth. I am bed ridden daily and it hurts to walk”.
Surgeon: " well we will do the MRI procedure but i gotta tell you…dont think we will find anything. And i likely will never be able to get down to the cause of your pain. There is likely nothing i can do for you."
me: " so what am i going to do cause i cant even eat?"
Surgeon: “Eat good food…healthy food. Get off all your anti nausea drugs and just eat good food and work on losing weight. That is my only concern. You need to lose weight, see a Therapist and get some support”
Me: “but i cant eat…it makes me sick and in more pain”.
Surgeon: “its likely just in your head… you just need to tell your mind your not nauseous and not sick”.
Ohhhhhhmgggod… i literally want to club him over the head. I get that he is a general surgeon who specializes in wls as well but this is rediculous!!! Of course i need to get my weight down. Of course i am on Keto and have lost 12 pounds(according to there scale with my clothes on and in the evening) in one month. And lost a size in my pants and shirt. I was doing all of this but then October hit and somthing is wrong. I got off Keto…didnt help… Went back on Keto…was good for 2 weeks and the pain and nausea got worse. Ive stayed Keto in spite of it. Clearly i am commited to Keto even though any sane person would be eating saltine crackers BUT i stayed Keto. This pain is not in my head. I literally cant eat. If i walk for more than 10 minutes…i am in pain and i feel nausiated!!! I came to him to get help for my pain and instead he says “i likely cant do anything about your pain but i do want to help you with weight loss”. Arghhhhhhhhhh!!!
So now… i have to wait for an appointment for this MRI to be done and i was told im going to wait at least 6 weeks!!! So that puts me into February…
So what do i do?? I am totally at a loss here… Do i stay Keto for another 6-8 weeks living off sugar free jello and chicken tea? Do i quit and live off crackers and gain weight? I dont know what to do… cause this surgeon doesnt seem to want to help me with my pain and nauses.
Arghhhhhhhh
-end rant