Hey everyone!
I am sorry that my first post on this forum will be such negativity, but you have a very supportive and non-judgmental community here, maybe somebody’s gone through something similar or has some advice for me. And I am also sorry for my crappy English.
So the title speaks for itself, but I’ll describe the situation chronologically.
- I have been on Keto since Oct 2018, felt great and happy, almost reached my goal weight in April, but stalled big time. I was not bothered by it too much because I was really-really close and those 1,5 kg would not have made much difference anyway.
- Mid June the big heat came and there it started: namely BP drops or panic attacks, I don’t know what those were exactly (dizziness, weakness, and breathlessness, fear to pass out or suffocate) followed by carb binge attacks. Those were really serious; I just ate (cakes, ice-cream, chocolate…) and couldn’t stop even as my stomach was hurting.
- I tried to get back on track after every binge (1 or 2 days of it), but couldn’t last more than 2 or 3 days. Last binge was this Tuesday.
- Now some female stuff: at the beginning of July my PMS has started, just on time. But the period never came. It is almost the end of the month and it is just not here yet, so I am still PMS-ing, almost for a month now, you can imagine how it feels: physically and mentally.
I haven’t weighted myself, because I am afraid to do it at this point. But I have to put on my pre-Keto clothes, so almost everything I lost since – 17 kg – came back just in one month as it seems. I didn’t know it was even humanly possible.
Naturally I feel like shit and I look like shit now. I am on a day 3 of my recent try to get back on Keto and on my way back home from work I wanted to go to the store and buy a cake again to feel better somehow as this weight gain (I’ve seen my fat again reflection in the train and wanted to cry then and there) and the long pms are killing me mentally, everything seems pointless – the hormones whatever is wrong with them now, won’t let me lose weight anyway. I constantly feel tired, angry and depressed like hell.
I didn’t buy any carbage though, so I am safe at least for today.
I have an appointment with a gyn on the 05th of August, if the hormones will have to be checked I’ll get the results only in September. I don’t know what has happened, how it can be dealt with and how/if I’ll be able to hold on any longer.