Oh my, I had to clear my mums house when my Mum went into care. The house sold and me and my sister went and spent a week sorting through the memories and the crap she had hoarded. We did a big clear put. 8 may have mentioned this before. It was hard aifting through her personal things and we spent the week laughing one minute and crying the next! Then I had to go down to clear the furniture out ready for the completion/handover. It was so strange going into an empty house. We had some very happy memories there even though I never actually lived in the house. Then came 3 months of not knowing whether or not we should say it was sold as she always used to say ‘when I’m better it will be nice to go back home’ listening to her saying that and knowing it wasn’t ever going to be was so sad. Keep your chin up and stay positive. If you’re like me it will creep up on you when you least expect it some weeks or months down the line and that’s okay xx
Carnivores March into March :)
Oh how I would love to clear everything out and just keep what I need … but I am always so sure I need everything … just in case. I swore after clearing mums house that I would clear out mine but I have a lot of my mums stuff that I am still struggling to part with! I think I may be a lost cause!
I did it (going over the stuff in the apartman and the house) in small bites as we lived across the country. And we only had a motorbike (two but we used one). Whenever I think of those times, I remember trying to survive in 3C rain, for hours… That’s 37F. What can I say? In the early times my physical state suited my emotional one.
I still admire myself but especially Alvaro that I survived those times. I don’t know how I did it. I didn’t even cry all the time in the apartman. I acted like a stable human being and stuff.
Sorry. I better go and do something useful. It was enough. I actually deleted some deeper stuff. I never can get closure.
For some years I was dreaming with Mom coming back and demanding her house and apartman I sold… I was happy to see her but it was still quite disturbing as you can imagine, even after waking.
I really go and try to be scarce as usual. It’s my plan, I just can’t seem to realize it. Especially when I get determined and focus on my woe again.
Familiar, very familiar…
I am super bad at throwing out things to begin with… But we had a motorbike and once a small car with 3 persons inside so I didn’t bring much. Mostly books and books are great.
Hi Guys, just checking in. I have been on and off here and usually too slack to write anything.
Today I will have eggs again for the first time in like a month i was sick of them for ages but now I look forward to scrambled eggs. I try to do keto as best as I can though i have slip ups sometimes. It’s hard cos I have stomach problems and after I eat I get pains. So I do a tame keto 6 days a week and then I might have carbs, though yesterday I felt horrendous after eating bread. I don’t know if carbs are worth it. Whenever I eat I get a gurgling stomach and pain. The last two days have been very bad. I have an ultrasound on the 23rd and had a blood test yesterday… I just want a day without pain. @Fangs My deep sympathies are with you, that must be so hard, clearing stuff out of your Mums house 
. I am sad for anyone that has ever had to go through that. I never had to go through that, but I did have to help Mum clear out my Brothers room after he died. If was heartbreaking and I could still smell his scent and even the dog was nested up in a pile of his clothes. Grief is a bitch and time does help make it easier but it is such a process. I think it’s the hardest thing to have to deal with in life. I am sending you a big hug anyway 
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It’s good you felt horrendous after eating bread. Listen to your body. You’ll get there!
I tried something different today. I ate very small portions and ate whenever I was hungry. I’m trying to get more in tune with actual hunger. Meal one was a dessert plate of lamb and some bone broth jello. Meal two was Parmesan butter chicken bites and yogurt. Meal three was more Parmesan butter chicken. Dessert was more yogurt. I really didn’t need that second yogurt but I wanted it.
Yesterday was omad plus a egg coffee…
Today was another ribeye and egg coffee, but at midnight i was hungry so cooked and ate two burger patties. Ugg the grabbed 2,handfuls of pork rinds
@Azi When I started keto (about a year before carni) I stopped eating after dinner, and was so happy to say goodbye to gert and reflux etc.
Now, having been Carnivore for several months, I still don’t “plan” to eat late. But if my body sends hunger signals, I’ll eat whatever meat is in the fridge (often cold) until satisfied. Then head straight to bed. Zero issues.
Again… seems too good to be true.
I always eat as little as I can… (By the way, I am sure I could put 2000 kcal meat on a dessert plate, very easily. Well, define dessert plate, first of all. I have normal sized ones and small ones but I can build fatty meat towers anyway. I just can’t normally eat only one type of food for a meal. But it’s a fun idea, I will use my small dessert plate for my next meals at the wrong time 
And we will see. Just for fun as I can’t control my consumption, if I gotta eat, I gotta eat until I chase away hunger.)
Not exactly this was my very early first meal (as it turned out my 2 remaining pieces of pork are lean and too fatty so I combine them) but close. I ate a bit more.
5 eggs, a little sausage and about half pound of pork chuck. I actually ate some sour cream, coffee with cream and lots of soup too.
It could satiate me, kind of (my hunger was about the same as before my meal so almost zero. I had a tiny hunger before and I made my scrambled eggs so I didn’t want not to eat then). Lasted 2 hours.
My next meal was more soup, meat from the soup (I used the pork chuck bone for the soup), more pork roast, more sponge cake, a yolk, some quark, more coffee with cream. A tiny meal, really.
I am at 1600 kcal according to my less realiable as usual tracking (how do you track meat from a bone? pretty much impossible but as the fat content of my meat is unknown too, it’s not a big difference at being exact… it’s far, far away either way but I still can use the info). I am satiated enough for now.
(1600 kcal for 2 meals… It has a chance but not a big one. We will see.)
Why I have bought crumbly quark? I only can eat it for sweet desserts 
Alvaro will help to consume it but I better figure out something. Not the best in sponge cake (it stays in crumbles) but kinda works? I am not in the mood to eat it with sour cream and a tiny bit of dried dill (I have a very small contained half with it and it lasts for years I think. dill is powerful)… Even if I mix it with sour cream, it’s nothing like creamy quark, I can eat that as dessert all alone!
I just wanted variety but I ALWAYS has problems to eat crumbly, drier and not even sour quark in bigger amounts (it’s 450g). I should remember it next time.
And… I have some sweets problem lately. Carnivore alone isn’t enough to put me completely off, well okay it’s early to say now. I don’t want any fruits though (I don’t say I don’t get ideas when looking at our spectacular flower bowl but it’s just knowing they are great tasting and juicy, I still don’t want them). Hopefully it gets better, not like it’s bad now. It’s just annoying to get those thoughts at the end of a meal. I am super bored with sweet desserts anyway. And now I like meat and eggs so don’t need them, that’s a relief.
Not a good photo but it will do for now, it takes effort and the right sunshine to make as good pics as I want and the flowers started to wilt but it’s not so bad I guess… It’s primarily for @JJFiddle who said nice things to my crocus photos and I felt ancouraged. I just wasn’t in a mood to try harder when the sun was already at the wrong place… Maybe tomorrow but especially when the new, striped yellow ones come out. There are in a way less sunny spot so they will bloom later.
not sure in carnivore context you are truly saying on your eating and how you control it thru your actual intake of foods, this but oh so wrong on ZC point blank
It’s the ideal attitude for me 
I have it since I went low-carb and I need to keep it. I overeat anyway. Sometimes I don’t but I probably would without even trying to eat as little as comfortably possible for me. I HATE overeating with a passion and I am right, it’s wasteful, unhealthy, wrong. I need to mitigate my losses.
But it doesn’t matter. I can’t control my food intake well. It’s just a tiny thing in me that I fail - or maybe not, who knows what would happen without it? Oh yep I would eat a bit more carbs and I would overeat like crazy sometimes. Okay, actually that’s what happens in my life since 11 years. Before that I overeate every day, probably very seriously. Take my current food intake, add a bunch of carbs, a bunch of fat (to balance out carbs)… Not pretty.
I know myself very well, I actually need to limit my food intake way more, I just can’t. Oh well. Maybe I will stay fat forever, it’s not one of my biggest problems, actually. I do my best (not what a proper me could but what this inferior me can) so I am pretty chill about it most of the time.
If I ate as much as I could or wanted, I guess even I would gain fat (but maybe not. one of my hypothesis that I eat the same amount, no matter my attitude. at least on carnivore. it’s vastly different with more carbs, I MUST do OMAD there or else it sucks. I am fine on carnivore without OMAD, a bit mentally unhealthy, unconvenient, wasteful and a burden but I feel fine physically and I don’t really overeat in average, I just eat too much so I stay fat. as far as I can tell this far). And I already has a double chin, I saw it today when Alvaro took a shot of a kitten in my arms and now I am a bit down but I still can’t eat less…
I just can stick to carnivore and hope for the best. And resist when I desire meat at night. I did that yesterday. I already overate so I stayed “strong”… I definitely needed NO food, it was very noticeable and obviously helped a lot.
Maybe it gets better eventually. Maybe not, it’s me and novelty is wore off.
Whatever, personal problems. I do my best to stick to OMAD primarily and carnivore secondary, it’s the best I can do, seriously. Oh and exercise is vital too as I can’t eat tiny enough for my basic energy need. And anyway, muscles and health and energy and mood. I am very dependent on exercise.
this could be the big issue on meat intake which is more not by your control thru your location and purchase of this lifestyle entails plus holding onto old truths about who you think you are on your eating, mind works against us, food intake never will fail us if all in zc and we can eat, so…or does one not truly need to be here?..just observations.
how many years? regular LC into more LC into learning more and now that tight walk between Keto Plan and ZC plan and who are you in this thru how many years you want change?
it is more than one would think coming into zc land, but we are not you and alot of us living the lifstyle and recording benefits only on this zc plan are we so different…we will be unless one goes all in and gives it that total ‘all in’ but that is personal to each of us of course…
not a call out or being mean by any stroke of this keyboard, but isn’t it at some point we know who we should be and where stand?
years into this for many of us and we found our ways and they work, how many years changes on eating lifestyle for you and all the tough work on change and what we deal with day by day thru tho years is all about you? and are ya truly getting ‘anywhere in any of it’ that you feel you need to suit you personally.
Had a fairly good night last night only got up for a wee a couple of times. Stair runs done then off to CrossFit for a heart pumping workout.
My daughter was there when I arrived which I wasn’t expecting… she tells me nothing lol but got a couple of nice hugs from her.
Came straight home had brunch about 1130am of the last 2 pork loin chops from the pack of 6. Nice and tasty and I was ready for them.
Spent the afternoon in the garden. I planted everything out in to containers, 2 magnolias, 2 roddodendrums, 2 camelias, 3 lily’s, the fatsia spiders web and the 4 long troughs with bee bombs. Well that filled some space lol. I was knackered by the end so sat down with a cuppa and dead headed the bedding plants. Carting about the soil and compost was the killer, maybe I should have got the trolley out of the shed and used that… always thinks of these things afterwards lol.
It is always nice sitting down at the end and taking it all in, it was sunny and warm. When the sun went down behind a cloud it suddenly got really cold even though I had put on my thick gardening sweatshirt. I had just had my t shirt on whilst working it was that warm. I got quiet a chill so went back in doors to get fuelled and warmed up! Dinner was a ribeye and 2 fired eggs that look quite mucky on the photo but were very tasty having been cooked in the left over fat from the lamb ribs which I had also cooked the pork chops in earlier and the ribeye before the eggs lol. Lots of fat taste. Yum.
Just got a bit peckish and opened a tin of tuna as nothing g in the fridge. Now I would normally have gone for the cheese now but I haven’t got any … aren’t I doing well??? 
Still feeling a bit empty so will need to eat something else before going to bed. I should have hard boiled some eggs when I ate the last one in the fridge the day before yesterday. Hey ho I have nothing to go off plan with so I will find something within my remit!
My new favourite chicken dish I had last night… chicken thighs and bacon in a cream and bacon juice sauce… Yummo!
Raw round steak, tuna steak, butter Parmesan chicken, and a yogurt. It’s been a stressful day. Last picture (or not depending how it uploads) is a dog who adopted us this evening. Sadly we can’t keep her, as much as I would love to, but if she’s still around tomorrow, I’ll try to find her owner. My girls and I are absolutely in love with her, but hubby said it’s him or the dog. I did have to think about it for a minute 
Someone surely is looking for that lovely dog! Good luck! Nothing better than reuniting humans with their missing pets.
I don’t really understand what you say (my odd brain fog may play a role in it. it’s annoying. I am not used to having that and my woe never had any effect on it either, it’s so odd to me that it’s like that for people but diet affects much so why not?) but my meat supplies are basically perfect now! That is surely no problem. I can eat whatever I want (okay maybe less soup as getting some meaty bones are a chore. I don’t even know what animal would be good for that. though turkey and duck necks and pork chuck bones worked this far… but they disappear in no time, a tasty soup requires a lot and I drink it in no time, it’s a bit of a hassle with the bones, they soil my terrace and the cats put the bones onto the doormat… I don’t want it to do every 2nd day. so even that isn’t a supply problem. but I don’t MISS soups so the frequency may be enough for me).
I am in love with pork chuck roast now and I need to do my very best to stay away from it at night. Well I had a nibble…
I won’t listen to the siren song (and amazingly low price) of pork shoulders, chuck is way better, fat content, fat distribution and taste/texture wise as well. I can eat all I want and it’s not 200g fat yet
Oh you folks get Snugglepie too then. Not right light, I made the photo with a squirming kitten on my lap BUT it got surprisingly okay-ish and it express her personality better…
And this is the nice one made by Alvaro (we wanted her face, she didn’t… but that’s why only her head is sharp. at some points). It’s very hard to shot a cat who wants to come super close all the time and has a high speed anyway (the adult cats are dignified sluggish old ladies compared to the hyperactive kitty), I almost forgot cats do that as Tofu and Caroline rarely stops chilling when I take a photo… They love my bean bag and bed way too much.
She is almost sure a neighbour’s, we will ask him today. He’s a far neighbour, 2 streets away. There are 3 lived-in houses nearby (including ours) so everyone who lives here is a neighbour to me