The more time passes, the harder for me to have some well defined goals eating wise⌠Probably because itâs not so novel anymore and I stopped tryingâŚ? Oh my I am sleep deprived and my brain doesnât function well right now so why I am here, trying to figure out my goals? 
Well, losing some fat would be nice, yes. I never was much heavier than I am now (I definitely never was heavier since I own a scale), I was quite thinner when I went keto several years ago. Maybe I got a tiny muscle since then, not like it shows⌠And I still carry my stupid stress gain⌠I donât tend to gain much when I go very off for a while but I never lose fat on keto⌠Whatever, I donât care so much about that part, happens what happens.
By the way, I donât know my weight as I always weighed myself in warm clothes in the end of the day, full with food and water. The thought just never crosses my mind earlier. But I am fat, thatâs very obvious and I donât really care about tiny details.
I do want chill, energy, good sleep and even if I track, I want to do it easily and simply. I wonât âaccuratelyâ track my days (unless I easily can) but I will see my food amount in a few days. Just not the fat content as that gets more and more mysterious as time passes, now I have these leanish pork belly pieces sometimes, not just my fatty green ham⌠Maybe I will track both as chuck, sounds good enough⌠As I need to track it somehow, I donât just write down how much meat I ate.
But enough about tracking for now, it was nice not to do it since weeks.
I want to go back to my usual plan. No coffee, skipping lunch if comfortably possible, carnivore-ish (carnivore if thatâs what I want but I wonât say no to half of a leftover pickle if it goes well with my current meat or eggs⌠I know my body has zero problem with that and I donât want a badge. it wonât happen often, my pickle days are over, itâs very occasional)⌠Not trying hard at all, I basically eat whatever I fancy⌠I almost did that before, now it will be even more so. I may eat off on some weekends but if I am good, I merely âbake offâ :D. As I probably still will want to bake. I did it a lot in December (day after day⌠sometimes twice a dayâŚ), I never had such a serious phase⌠But itâs over now. Of course, I bake on carnivore too but thatâs a tad limited.
So, itâs January again, the first month after so many where I have no fruits. Until June! I always get more motivated in this period as carnivore seems not impossible 
(Of course, lots of carni and close to carni days are very very useful and enjoyable in any month but I still have some tiny curiosity about a longer period.)
But I will focus on my IF. I should wait until I get hungry (itâs VERY hard and I donât believe I will be able to do it regularly. but skipping lunch most of the time should be enough. still hard but less so I guess) and then I get a decent sized meal at 4-6pm⌠And I will figure out the rest. Maybe I will need extra fatty items to make it OMAD, maybe a later second dinner will be fine (dinner always means evening meal to me as we have that word and not the complicated dinner/supper meanings of English)⌠Though I still feel I should be wary and avoid eating after 6pm if possible⌠But sometimes it works and OMAD carnivore meals are tricky for me. We will see. Main thing I donât eat lunch just because Alvaro is eating and I am not fully satiated anymore.
I want my diet moderately simple and heavily meat based. I kept my low egg and not too high dairy consumption (I donât think I can call it actually lowâŚ), it seems very good to me.
Less focus on food, I need that too. Food always will be a major enjoyment source for me but I donât need to read, write, think and act about it as much as I usually do (let alone what I did in December, oh my).
I really want to keep most of my personal journey thoughts to myself in 2024. And donât have too much of them to begin with but thatâs even harder to controlâŚ
Writing about food and not overthinking my days is much better for everyone!
Have a nice, successful year! And okay, 2023 wasnât my year at all, in the end but 2024 should be. It will be the Year of the Dragon again!!! 
I donât know when it starts, some time later but it doesnât matter anyway, itâs just a tiny boost and pep talk for myself
I ate fried green ham today, some sponge cakes, cheese whispsâŚetc., the usual. I donât like the pâtĂŠ I have bought, I wonât do it again, I can make my own, not like I am really pleased with that, oh well. I use part of it to feed worm medicine to the cats and it goes way better than last time! 2 cats are fine, 1 will be as Tofu eats everything, she isnât the choosy type⌠Ginger is a foodie who HATES worm medicine even mixed in some good stuff every cats are crazy about (without the medicine). So she is the tricky one but she needs the medicine so I will do my best tomorrow. We just canât get the easy chewy thing, the vet just doesnât order them anymore. He says he does - and then we get the old stuff every cats hates (except Tofu). Canât one buy it in an animal store I wonder, those big onesâŚ? Itâs just worm medicine, I donât think a vet is so very necessary, our vet gives them in bigger amounts to anyone asking, just not the good stuff anymore (he did it once and it was glorious! ONE second instead of stressful days. it was worth the extra money).
Alvaro has food so no bream tomorrow either⌠I got out a small piece of pork belly from the freezer.
Today was no coffee BUT I only drank some after I ate first, itâs something even if I ate super early, maybe at 1pm⌠Sleep deprived me is bad at self-restraint.
eh, ainât about my weight anymore. Lost 55 and feel great, but that darn few extra right? always in my brain but wonât ever go âdietingâ to get them offâŚjust living zc life fine right now.
