I am still hanging around here, it’s a good distraction on an almost useless day even if food itself can’t really charm me.
Thanks, everyone. I probably go back to some very proper carni today as the last thing I desire right now is carbs. Yesterday I desired some milk but I had none and I made the nicest egg milk (with a generous amount of butter) in my life. And I didn’t even add coffee to it. I almost made a no coffee day but I had a black one at 8:30pm… Good enough.
I slept unwell, more like not at all in most of the night but I can’t skip sleep so I had it in the morning. Alvaro woke up in his morning, saw I am up so he let me sleep late (he has the job to wake me awake in the weekend as I am so bad at it).
My appetite is its lowest all time so despite my finally arriving hunger (at 2pm), I don’t want to eat. When it gets painful, I surely will, I thawed out my pork roast, a little liver and I have eggs, it should be enough for a single meal. I can’t focus on my food while eating, it’s super odd but my head is full with thoughts, I only get some peace if I read or watch something captivating but I start to find other methods so I can actually do something useful too. Things still didn’t sink it, IDK why this delayed reaction now.
I planned to make not-quite-buffalo turkey wings but I am not in the mood and I ate turkey not so long ago anyway. So I just eat leftovers, I still have a pig’s tongue in the freezer. I will shop for some meat in a few days but maybe Alvaro can find something for me, he regularly checks the lil town supermarket for one of his carby staples anyway, the price is best there but they often run out of it.
We planned a city shopping next weekend but maybe the funeral will be then, IDK how quick things go and when the priest will be free… We are waiting for feedback about the ash transfer and priest so it’s very uncertain now. But we can shop on the way back I suppose. We will cross the country twice on the same day, fortunately the gas situation isn’t as bad as it was some time ago (a refinement factory or what is it called was out for a while, foreigners came to buy our cheaper gas too, these are solved for now).
Alvaro says the price cap on the food items (like pork butts that they sell as “thigh”) stays until December. I don’t even care, I just want my precious pork butts in proper amounts. And cat food. Our cats aren’t very choosy but they still don’t just accept any of them… They like one from LIDL but we rarely find it there lately. There is another option and that’s it.
That’s nice… I haven’t eaten hocks lately for reasons but I would buy it again if that wins…
I won’t promise ANYTHING, October is too fruity anyway but considering how my body and mind and taste buds and other parts respond to a single carbier day… I am all for having lots of carnivore days in October, I just need proper supplies. Without the usual amount of city shopping in my last several weeks, my freezer is pretty empty.
And I still need to do something with the days when I happen to be bored of my pork but I have ideas. But when I am not, I have no excuse, those days are very good eating wise.
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Some pork shoulder roast, a bite of liver, a few eggs (half of them in my egg milks along with some butter), quark with sour cream and tinned herring. Eating isn’t as easy as usual with my super low appetite but I think I got enough nutrients to keep me kind of strong. TMAD IF 22/2, no mood for tracking and I might get hungry later anyway. Near carnivore (the herring had sauce and the quark was more edible with 2g xylitol and I probably needed my protein. oddly I am really turned off by fruits now but that’s a fine thing just unusual. normally I find them nice even if I can live without them for some more days or weeks. in winter, surely months, not having them around all the time - only a few kinds I can handle - makes things easier even now that actual desire/craving almost never happens).
Meanwhile I changed. My various thoughts in my mind slowed down, I am merely sad and a bit lost.
It doesn’t seem nearly as a wild idea to me as, say, 5 years ago… I can imagine why one chooses this woe. Or eat such meals often, at least. There is some expertly cooked good meat, why would it need vegs and sauces and (very pretty) duchess potatoes?
Oh and I keep forgetting to show the naked ladies. Not a good photo but the flowers are usually problematic too, not standing properly, sometimes wilted (but I definitely didn’t put much care into my shot either):
It’s a rainy day today, no walk, it’s good I did it a lot lately so I don’t miss it yet. Alvaro’s photo, he was inspired by the view (it seems the lowish light affected quality…):