I have a bellyache since last night and it’s so very unusual that I can’t blame some past carbs, they never linger this long anyway. I seriously suspect my milky coffees, I noticed before that my non-black coffees feel somewhat off sometimes. So it’s not the milk, I didn’t even consume much and don’t seem to be sensitive to it considering I was fine after 1 liter in a few hours several months ago - but that makes it worse. But who knows? Maybe it’s some other factor or most probably multiple ones, whatever, I want it to go away. When I start to eat pretty well again, I typically feel pretty good right away but not now. It isn’t even some baby bellyache, it was quite bad last night (according to my standards. it wasn’t torture but it was real pain, not just some discomfort).
Today I will continue to eat my lean pork (still dunno how to call it, I think green ham will do now). The not so nice slab, I already fed some to Pie but the rest seems okay. I quickly sear the fattier, nicer looking slices (they are very thin so it will be super quick but poor things are so pale, I need them to be fried a bit) and make sausage balls too 
Lean sausage, only a yolk and the little lard I fried it in will raise its fattiness a little bit but it will be good I hope. I use my super good sausage spice mix I mixed myself, after all
I try to stay away from cheese now and I still don’t fancy eggs, I probably will just eat my leftover sponge cakes. I never find them boring but they are just the base anyway, I can eat them with so many things, pâté, cheese, too fatty meat dishes (didn’t have such things lately), too salty stews, salmon spread… They are good with non-carni sweet things as well but I try to avoid that normally Egg only sponge cakes have a fun texture, a nice taste (it’s eggs, after all) and they are super versatile! No wonder I eat about 42 per week. I try to keep the amount low as it’s some work to make them, not much and it’s a joy (I LOVE seeing creamy, fluffy “doughs”) but still. I can’t ever doing the dishes anyway (I want to figure out how much bowls and whatnots I use per day/week but I never could took a single note as I just forget. it’s like tracking my water drinking, totally impossible, I can’t even start) and I don’t hate that at all but it’s too much and I only have 5 dish drier or whatever they are called. We are 2 people eating kind of simple so it’s mysterious… I know I easily use 5 spoons and 8 knives in 1-2 hours sometimes but I have some reason for it 
Well Alvaro produces dessert bowls at a high speed sometimes… His main dessert (the one he eats like 15-20 times a week) doesn’t need any cleaning though…
I am really curious, I need to find a way to figure out why I need to do the dishes multiple times a day and still never can finish it… I can go pretty low, I can make clean everything near to the kitchen sink but something always remains somewhere or get produced in a few mins later. I am a big glasses and cups collector too despite my efforts… But I bring them down eventually (pretty soon as it would be our full collections in my room in a week and I have a nice collection).
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I had a tiny lunch after getting a bit hungry I couldn’t finish this:
But now I am not fully satiated and wonder what else could I eat… But I am not in a hurry. I should eat my lean protein before everything else so that will happen.
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I should stop tracking, I will just focus on timing and whatnot. I apparently have hungry times even if it’s not noticeable at my very first meal. I barely exercise (I mean my walks, I do my lifting and I am stronger than in the last few weeks), this is odd and should end now… But I need more food to get satiated, even way more protein, apparently. I go over 180g every day and I don’t even notice it without tracking, my food doesn’t seem much and I consume it in 2-3 hours (and may or may not eat at night as well)… I have my phases. This is my hungry and protein hungry phase, apparently. I will do my best to eat way less in November, I have some ideas.
I won’t make another roast until Sunday, I better take a break, the question is only what on earth will I eat then? I totally reached the point where I am pretty much doomed without a significant amount of meat. I don’t even want eggs lately, it’s somewhat disturbing though I still love my sponge cakes and I find it good that I stopped eating many eggs a day as it just isn’t the most satisfying way for me. Oh well, I will eat some processed meat for a little while, I have tinned fish and tomorrow I will fry chicken liver. And I can eat up my leftover pork chuck roast as well. It will be fine.
I don’t even want any kind of pancakes now. I always could eat pancakes in the past.
Some colorful garden photos. I hope my medlar tree is fine, it’s purely decorative now.
Aren’t the colors beautiful
One goal for November will be no coffee on most days. I drink coffee all the time now, I couldn’t even handle running out of milk without opening a box of cream. SOOO much better, richer even though I use 1/10th of the amount (and I used very little milk per coffee).
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All of my photos are here (my CF cards don’t always find their ways into my comments in a few hours…) and I probably still will make a roast, I can’t handle life for 4 days with the tiny meat I have now. Pork chop, Alvaro’s cut but these slabs I bought (looks tiny but 1.77kg each. I can’t get used to how very dense meat is even when raw) are so unusually fatty and I am used to leanish pork that it surely will be nice for me as well.
I planned an okay day for tomorrow, we will see what will happen.
My bellyache stopped several hours ago, hopefully it won’t come back. If it will, I will behave like it was early November Super strictness should help eventually.
I ate some pâté today, I really want to make a very good own recipe already… Mine is very different from the store-bought one as it has no added water, little fat and I add meat too… Maybe I should change it a bit (or much), mine is fine but it’s good to have various versions. I will experiment tomorrow.
so today I mentioned it to the nurse and she said she will get my lovely practise pharmacist David to phone me and advise what I can take in this situation. Crazy that I have to check everything I take now but c’est la vie! I can get through this i have strong faith and it could be so much worse, I trust in God to answers my prayers 
hey good luck on clearing MIL’s house, no easy task as I have commented on my experience on past posts! Just have to bide the time till you can completely focus on it and then get stuck in. I usually get better focused on things when I suddenly have a deadline put in front of me!
mount Kilimanjaro was about the 2nd virtual mount I ran up and down during lockdown before doing them descending height. I will pray he has a good trek back down the mountain.
but I have my moments when it’s not true).
5 wing bases would be superb), I am probably not well as I neglected my usual walks, only did my lifting… I want to get over the inheritance thing, it’s so very simple in this case (oh I read some horrible things while searching for info) but I find a way to stress over it sometimes… I tried to figure out the life insurance papers too, not easy but I think I have some better idea about them now. Now I try to FORGET for a while. Being here is therapeutic now.
