I didn’t want to come until it’s Monday considering I am way more… more than relaxed in this weekend, for reasons… But I used my desperate measures so bought some meat in a supermarket (I think it’s between super and hyper but that’s not the point) and it’s a big enough thing for me to share. I still did my best, the whole tiny chicken is allegedly was kept better, I can’t do much about the chicken liver (I like liver and enjoy the variety it offers and I just can’t buy any from the nearby farm that has no fresh meat since ages anyway. and it’s my main, very nearly only source for proper meat. why they stopped sell offal, I can’t imagine. they always did it in the past but when I started to buy things, first they were out then they never sold it. I will ask them next time) and I just had to try bacon again…
This one is a tasty bacon. And insanely fatty… Definitely too fatty for me, I always get a bit surprised when I (ME!!!) find something too fatty but even I have my limits. The scrambled egg was still good… 1 egg, 60g bacon, no idea how others do it, I would use 10g or less very rich, dry, red sausage but that’s special More needed from bacon. I was hungry after a single trout and a lot of other food, we arrived home at 16:15pm and I was already hungry (I ate 3 bites of cheese a bit earlier in the car, my fav, Masdaam warm and soft, it’s fun. Alvaro ate it with cucumber and very good buns, that supermarket is good with buns, it’s the single bread type item I still gladly ate from a shop… I stopped buying bread, like, 20-25 years ago and learned to bake myself. I was a tiny hero but not a big one, had to taste a morsel. seriously, like a pea I almost spit it out, too much wheat or bran to my tastebuds. yay. a tad odd as I can eat the bread I bake. it’s not good, at least Alvaro’s but if I mix in some eggs, that’s nice. and it has way, way more bran in it. whatever, it’s always good to say goodbye to some old fav from a shop that I don’t want to eat because isn’t good to me. using willpower isn’t my thing though I actually listen to reason sometimes. more and more, actually).
The bun thing is totally relevant, I actually use my carni days to get farther from my old ways on off days, useful side effect. I can handle off days just fine but a carby off day is problematic. And less temptation, less off days too!
The bacon I bought is only 86% fat calorie wise, I don’t know why I felt it that fatty… It’s much but it’s not like I never ate pork ribs with even more fat sometimes. Probably sometimes is the key word, I decide when to add some more… And I just went a tad over my preferences. And I ate it right after my fish.
I might have overdone my heavy cream consumption but it’s hard for me when I have an aversion to eggs. But I will behave in the near future.
So, I had 5 okay days (except the very tiny amount of meat, it was the worst ever except when I totally run out in the very beginning. the result was the same: I dislike eggs for quite some days. good as the hens lay less than usual and we almost always use our “we buy whatever you have left” policy at both the houses). I call this “my summer carnivore-ish” now. Just like carnivore-ish but the tiny plant matter contains fruit (and not just a tad lemon juice as that is my condiment, flavoring, whatever so a few drops are allowed in my normal carnivore-ish). Sweeteners and oily seeds are still banned and the other rules still stand as well. It wouldn’t be a good idea to allow just about anything in tiny amounts, that wouldn’t end well The non-important things are banned, the impossible to avoid things are allowed sometimes and in tiny amounts, I always did that as it works well for me. Being super strict is easiest as long as I can do that. Not in summer or when I can’t get enough proper meat for sure, I have both now, and my health-consiousness and hedonism so I am pretty determined not to stray away too much or too long. And this thread helps too a tiny bit and I just am at a place where a tiny bit matters.
I don’t desire my own fruits now, I just need to taste them sometimes. But no real season now, only blackberries and I am not into them (and tasted them already anyway). Williams pears are kind of here though. Lovely and way too sugary things. Just like my grapes. No real danger until next June (unless my love for apples flares up but my body dislike them since years so I don’t think it would cause much problems) and I will be a different one then, not eating more than what feels nice. Stupid compulsions. So I focus on my carnivore-ish again, the summer part won’t be used often.
And when I will have enough meat and winter, I plan to be super strict for long! I am curious.
IF wise… I am all over the place if the circumstances are like that but TMAD is my normal. I can’t eat big very low-carb OMAD meals so multiple OMAD days are unrealistic. I had that with keto too. TMAD was too much on keto but often works well if my carbs are very low. Sometimes I have snacks but those aren’t really snacks for joy just “I will eat a bit later so shut up” bites (like a hard-boiled egg). Good for cases when I am not really hungry yet but well, antsy Want to eat but not really. A proper meal can’t work.
At least my weekend carbs boosted my calories, I needed them. Still no overeating. Maybe because I ate after 6pm and about as much meat on Saturday than in the previous 5 days together… Fish is strange, I feel I could eat a lot in no time. Never could try out how much would satiate me (with something fatty with it).
So I had a high protein day but nothing extreme as it was fatty too and due to my egg aversion, that wasn’t present in big amounts (it’s borderline impossible not to eat eggs if someone is me, much meat and disliking eggs notwithstanding).
I feel pretty okay now, definitely more energetic but my sleep and the weather may play a role too. But it’s nice to have meat in my fridge again, I am sure there are that mental/emotional part too. And not even fish… I feel I ate more fish in the last month than in the last year and that was close to the last decade… I never was into fish. Nice variety but problematic as a major source of protein. And I still think tuna is borderline inedible unless mixed with some good, fatty stuff… Even so, I eat 10-40g a day (if I don’t have anything better at that point). Maybe I come up with some nice recipes later.