@E_P: Gorgeous photo as always!
I never feel a need for lean day, my body always want lots of protein, lots of fat. My tastes always want them too. My needs are less fatty but I need to choose some less tempting food to meet it, usually. Sigh. I don’t thing it ever will get balanced. I always will low-key desire too much food and especially too much fat. I start to get used to my lean pork though (if it’s not too lean) and I actually find very fatty meat a bit too fatty now. Progress!
I feel if I lack protein or fat in the end of the day but when I am about to eat, I basically always want the same thing: fatty, protein rich food. Sometimes just food, I do plan to start with leaner things whenever possible as it makes perfect sense to me, I mostly ensure my protein and meat intake will be met 
I probably need that less so nowadays but in the past I often got hungry for meat at night with a very high fat intake (that I made worse with eating, inevitably) and without any hunger. I just lacked something. Never again. And the less nice lean meat is easier to eat when hungry.
But on OMAD I am better with some fattier meat. Or rather mixing the two, lean and fatty meat.
I need to use my brain or else I will get wrong macros. Not wrong for maintaining my quite fatty, close to heaviest ever body but if I want to lose fat, I can’t overeat fat. That never worked on any diet…
I heard the odd though familiar thing again yesterday in a supermarket. They encouraged people to eat some nice pork hock roast before summer hits. I heard about this many times, people want fatty meats and heavy food in winter and light stuff in summer. I talked about it with Alvaro several times and we both want the same food all year round (with some minor differences involving fresh produce): some nice and quite substantial, fatty, protein rich meal. We function about the same all year, our body needs the same nutrients and amount of energy… (I do tend to be less active in summer as it’s too hot but I do try not to make it significant and there is the garden work too…) I kind of understand people have this odd thing where hot weather affects their tastes? Desires? Well we don’t have that at all. Fatty roasts are perfect on the hottest summer day just like in the middle of winter… The temperature is about the same in the kitchen where we partake of our food anyway… But I don’t think I would cry “no, not fatty meat” on some grill party outside in hot weather and jump juicy light salads. I am pretty sure my hard-working peasant anchestors ate substantial meals in summer as well. And I don’t get how the extreme ones (who talk about how they only manage to eat some watery fruit all day when it’s hot) function without nutrients…
Yesterday was very off. I forgot my food at home and Alvaro’s Mom baked, kind of… It’s a thing that isn’t made from scratch. One basic ingredient changed and not for the better, I didn’t feel the yolk taste (stupid new tasteless eggs 
we bought supermarket eggs again, well it’s protein and it was an irresistible sale! not normal caged eggs, we don’t buy those but there is no info about the diet and that affects the taste)… It wasn’t worth it and I already planned to make mine if I ever want it (I don’t really… never did) but after this time? I don’t plan to touch it again Things got together as I knew I can’t last long due to the incoming bananas, it was weekend and I didn’t consider setting and breaking my record right now that important. It might not have the best decision but not much harm was done. I do need some training for city shopping/visit days as I basically always go off, not much experience with not to. But at this point of my journey it’s time to focus on that too.
The mentioned thing (at least it wasn’t something very sugary. quite starchy though. with lots of eggs. and I didn’t eat nearly as much as usual as it wasn’t so good) was the dessert, I ate chicken/pork soup (with almost all the meat… 
it wasn’t much, just some bones with a little meat) and 2 chicken drumsticks before. And 6(?) tiny bananas. We bought many That’s fine but I should have waited for the spots. Sigh.
Carbs are so weird, I forgot they make gas. I felt my body didn’t want more carbs but I obviously felt fine, I am not very sensitive. If carbs would make me unwell, I wouldn’t eat them as I am a hedonist. (Theoretically I can go too far but that takes a lot and I just don’t have the desire or compulsion to do that anymore.)
So carni day #1 today. It may be still weekend but I better come back especially because I am a hedonist and my average carni days is tastier than yesterday was (I hope my inner rebel/freedom fighter got something out of it. I do like to forgo tracking and rules sometimes, feels nice as long as I don’t do stupid things) - but now I have a bigger slab (3 pounds) of very tasty, very fatty pork. I will be careful as I surely ate a bit more than usual yesterday and don’t need a ton of fat. I probably never need that much fat But much lard should have rendered out of it, very fatty meats never can contain it well. Oven this time as it’s big and I want it in 2 pieces, a smaller and a bigger one. I may put the small one into the air fryer in the end. I still have leftover very lean pork.
I am excited but very very very satiated (it’s almost noon here so of course but it’s more serious than normal due to the carbs. I always have this, carbs have some killer long term satiation effect, though part of it is the overeating… and probably only works with my high fat high protein but I always have those, only carbs are the difference). I don’t want to eat too early especially not fatty meat so I simply don’t start cooking in the near future.
Oh, the shopping! We sooo need another cooler bag. I know it already but we didn’t happen to find those and only have a decent sized one, a gift from Alvaro’s mom who doesn’t need it. But when we buy meat and dairy galore… It’s not sufficient. Yesterday it was 3 liters of milk, a 800g bucket of sour cream (very problematic shape), 750g butter (one melted and it was in the bag! yeah, Alvaro was worried, the car was on the sun so we haven’t stayed for very long), LOTS of meat… Well not very much but I get most of my meat locally now, thankfully it’s the same price and quality, we just don’t have more than 1-2 days to have chances at any specific item.
But we got lovely meaty pork bones for soup, chicken breast for Alvaro’s next meat+veg dish, a little slab of green ham (as I run out and it’s my most basic item), 2 big turkey drumsticks, a piece of pork liver… Nice. No normal cheese this time, we still have a lot (and I will drop it anyway) but cream cheese, I am a big fan now and it’s useful when I have something too lean. I got quark too. I need all the few lean ingredients I can stomach… Even if I need to add some fat to them.
And I have the fatty pork. I really should figure out the English term if there is any. But I try to explain anyway. Hmmm… Muscle around the abdominal cavity… Lower pork belly or something? But not the mostly fat part, it’s not THAT fatty though quite fatty (Not like pork belly has some fixed fat percentage, it depends on many things but it’s super fatty here. Pigs often have some very thick fat layer.)
I saw a “green ham” slab that was like 40% fat tissue yesterday too. And that’s why I can’t track It’s supposed to be 5% fat according to databases. But of course it’s not that simple. Still, I never saw such a super fatty one. I did see a super fatty (way too fatty for me) loin while that is normally way too lean for me to even entertain its consumption. Well, for the old me, now I got better at eating lean. And it turned out that lean stuff is great as a roast.
And I talk way too much about meat again but at least it balances out my off talk.
But postponing lunch is a given! We bought 4 items today: meat, meat, meat and kohlrabi (I wrote “3 items” first, my bad, poor kolhrabi, it is a pretty little thing but yeah, times change). No green ham this time but I got… No idea how it is in English and a quick search didn’t help. But it’s a very fatty pork cut with a wonderful flavor! 
And anyway, I shouldn’t eat up everything unnecessarily just because I like them.)
But these don’t seem to be irresistible. I mean, her soup is that but some clear liquid is fine for me even if it had vegs cooked in it. She always get out all the vegs and meat and the dumplings are separated too. So I can eat the liquid and the meat, good enough. And I bring a nice selection of food: boiled eggs, lean pork, smoked ham, dry sausage, cheese. So I won’t be there, hungry, without options.
