Sorry, brain dump again. It helps me think. Not even anything about my pretty garden this time. The weather is super warm though, I suffered from the hot in both of my walks in the weekend. I need less clothes outside. I used my thinnest t-shirt, nope, too much. 23-25C?! I am not used to it yet! It will be lovely later, sure but not now, walking uphill…
Yesterday I got food boredom again and while I stopped and was fine for a while, eventually I had to eat something again as I got hungry. And again. And I overate a bit. Oh well, just a bit, it’s still great but I am glad I track as I saw what the culprit was. Of course too much dairy… I barely ate any but it was still 700 kcal and that’s mostly just extra fat and some unnecessary protein piling up on top of my normal food as they don’t satiate me.
The copious amount of cream was lovely though 
I liked the cheese as well but oh my, cheese is super calorie dense and not satiating so I go back to trying to ignore it. I am not into it so much anyway, just liked the crunch and the help with my too lean pork chuck.
It’s fine, one (slightly! nothing like my 3000 or 4000 kcal carni days from the past!) higher-cal day is okay, I always had those, I just don’t like that dairy sneaks in without me noticing. I mean, I notice I eat it, I just don’t know I eat more than I can afford… So I keep being careful with dairy but it must be in some chill way. I finish this sliced Edam cheese and then I mostly ignore cheese. Except the opened cream cheese box… Alvaro doesn’t eat it. Maybe if I made some sweets with it… That is a good way to fed him anything (that can go into sweets, at least). It just shouldn’t be too fatty, I never will forget the few small cocoa balls he ate soon after his biggish fatty lunch. I TOLD HIM it contained 100g fat but did he listen? Nope. And then he got unwell. I wouldn’t have, probably though 10-12 years ago I managed to feel queasy after 150g fat at once (with protein and carbs, of course, it was a big but normal lunch). I doubt I could manage it again. But even I rarely have that much fat for a meal I remember 150g protein on OMAD once but fat? I am too careful for that, most of the time. Even my 250g fat was split into too on my monster carni day. But carnivore is different as I don’t have the ballast of vegs anymore, I had to eat leaner in the first days. Very quickly adapted though…
OMAD would solve so much problems like seeing one meal macros often, I am curious. Could I go below my minimum protein intake again? How would I feel with less and more fat if my protein is enough? Could I do it on carnivore to begin with and with which items? Probably not with the lean pork I will cook today. Not very exciting but it’s green ham day again. But I mix some of it with the chicken liver and butter, making pâté. I hope it will be fine. And I totally forgot I am frozen pâté in the freezer when I was a bit hungry and didn’t want my other food. I could have eaten that, I like the one not made by me 
It’s so sad, usually I prefer my own stuff but I can’t make good pâté or mustard yet. The latter isn’t that important anymore but the former… Nice stuff, different from my normal fare and creamy… Easier to eat than some less fatty solid food. Goes well with sponge cakes and pancake.
By the way sponge cakes I made 2 little proper (with flour and everything. lots of flour like the original, classic, less floury, super eggy sponge cake recipes say. maybe a bit less) sponge cake buns for him as we had a tiny fruit he couldn’t imagine what to do with. And it’s the best fruit for sponge cake. I talked with him about before as he told me several times he doesn’t like sponge cake.
And it turned out he didn’t even know sponge cake supposed to have flour, not only eggs Well he can’t bake but still I am a bit proud of us both 
I always had the power to influence him even if he can’t leave high-carb due to his individual reasons. But my default diet always influence his in some form. He eats WAY less veggie dishes and WAY more meat since I tried out carnivore and decided it’s the thing for me, somehow (still can’t fully wrap my head around it, I am in such a love with certain carbs and I don’t resist temptation. but I can change. pretty quickly on carnivore compared to keto, for example. lack of things have this extra power. and meat is good).
He still didn’t have a vegetarian day, too bad I don’t know when it started but he had none last week. I wonder about today. He has a veggie dish and no smoked pork left (anyway, that is usually his breakfast and he made oatmeal for his work breakfast as nearly always. even if I ever could consider oatmeal food, I surely would have enough after eating it 4 times a week sometimes 3. but it’s much at once! 1kg or it was in the past…? now he watches his figure more as losing fat may be very quick and simple for him but he must go hungry too much and he hates it. better avoid it).
I will have lean pork to give him if he doesn’t want eggs as his protein again…
I should track some of his days again. Oatmeal for breakfast, veggie dish (vegs with vegs and roux, that’s it) with a few eggs or a not big piece of meat, carby dessert and whatever he will eat in the evening… It doesn’t sound it has much protein. May be okay for him sometimes, he has much more protein rich breakfasts (he had scrambled eggs with smoked pork for Saturday and Sunday) and he never had protein problems, apparently, he could get muscular legs on his normal diet and donated blood plasma too (if often, that brought down his protein though but no wonder)… And he may eat more protein now than on a super veggie rich vegetarian high-carb. He never ate nearly as many eggs as I did and I only had 7-8 on average. It’s less now but IDK how much as I don’t use that pretty smart spreadsheet I made. Too lazy. Taking notes is enough trouble. I need a simpler, less dairy rich diet I know but it’s hard to realize. Keep trying! I do made progress, I eat less eggs and less dairy now. But I easily go high with them under certain circumstances…
I watch nutrition videos lately, not by from experts, more like some more popular, easier stuff but they seem good… I am not normally influenced and I know everything has a deadly dose even water but whatever they said about spinach was so, so bad. Now I am glad Alvaro basically can’t eat spinach since I try to stay to close to carnivore and there is no place in the freezer for it… I am bad with time, he says he eats is 2 times a year. I doubt he ate any in the last half year… So he is probably okay from the real dangers of spinach He is planning to buy some since months but he always sees some other tempting green leaves or other vegs on sale when he is ready to cook a huge veggie dish. And we need a city shopping for that (about once a month but if we visit a bigger town, that often works too) and one or maybe 2 kinds of vegs are okay only. As spinach is frozen, he must cook it right away as my freezer is for meat especially after a big shopping. I won’t store 2-2-3kg vegs in it, my first carnivore trial made it impossible for ever (probably) and he didn’t complain. Alvaro means business when he cooks vegs. And they aren’t satiating anyway. So he usually chickens out.
By the way, I hope we buy a fridge soon. We should. We do things slowly though… But it will happen in this year. My freezer barely have any order but I can’t with those 2 small, hard to reach open shelves. I have zillion little boxes there, those are plants, mostly. Some egg white too. They prone to be suicidal. Simple plastic boxes with frozen stuff inside rarely survive the nearly 2m fall… But I just can’t rummage there safely. Even when I can. they are annoying and I keep most of them in the back. But I have enough problem with my meat packages too. I need more, bigger shelves.
It will be GLORIOUS. This thing is so rusty and the door can’t close by themselves since years (we have pretty strong magnets, it’s no problem) But buying a big machine is such a chore… At least I have chosen one already, we probably will ask the store this Saturday about details. If we are very lucky, they even have that one there, not just online. Or its sibling, it will be enough. Maybe we will get impulsive and buy it real soon…
So. New week! Week one went well though I realized I still can get bored of pork. Not for days just for the actual day… I really need my other items but variety too. I only had pork and some chicken liver I didn’t like this time if I remember correctly. Smoked pork and a bit of sausage helped but it could be better. I blame the low fat content of my pork, even the chuck sometimes!
I plan eating fish and chicken this week, mostly pork though, obviously. No smoked pork left (just the fat part) but I make scratchings and pâté. If I do this week, I will have 2 weeks carni for the 2nd time in my life and if I go further, that will be my personal record.
I am below 78kg now, apparently. I don’t know unrealistically looking big changes in bodyweight as mine always was SUPER stubborn (see me weighing about the same every morning for years, no matter how I eat. I mean whatever I do by myself, not forced carby overeating or even more forced low-cal eating, those could change it). Or my scale was, who knows? I don’t trust it
And I had 2 sudden changes that confused me and maybe I can go down unrealistically quickly due for reasons. I want my 75kg back soon first (and how tragic is that? it’s so much. I was fat when I went keto ages ago with 69kg that quickly became 67 due to water weight loss. by the way, is it possible I just have my more or less full glycogen reserves with all that 2kg water due to my fat adaptation?). This extra is very new, maybe it’s not fully real, needing infinite patience to lose it?
I can’t realistically expect more than a pound of loss per week and that requires eating less than I am able to, every day. My fat tissue still have a certain amount of energy, I can’t help that and my body hates both wasting energy when it’s not about maintenance and lowering my metabolism, it always behaved that way.
But I am open for sudden miracles, I just don’t believe in them. But I can’t say I firmly believe they definitely can’t happen…
Might try to waggle my way into a nice steakhouse later, yea that could be a nice mission to attempt while out and about.
But hubby got grilled shrimp as appetizer and I took his melted butter he didn’t use and slathered it on the ribs. Made it bearable but only ate a bit more than 1/2 and at that point I said screw it, I would rather go home and eat a can of tuna later 
