Day 21 of 20. I’m enjoying a cup of coffee with some heavy cream and 2 TSP of kerry gold butter. I am done. I looked at my wife last night and said that I might go longer, she said “oh no, you are eating…”.
The last few days I’ve been short tempered (but who wouldn’t be when your contractor keeps showing up randomly and takes 2 hours to do a 30 minute job? If this guy wasn’t so cheap…).
I’ve also been freezing cold, it’s in the high 70s here, but I’m cold all the time, energy level is in the pits unless I’m constantly moving, then it picks up and stays ok while moving but as soon as I sit down, I could sit all day, something I never do unless I’m sick.
So, I’m taking it slow and easing into eating today, I made the goal of 20 days and I will have this to look back on when times are tough, what could be harder than this in life? (I know, many/many/many things, but what will I run into in my future that might top this? I’m a privileged white male in a capitalist society enjoying decent financial status, how rough is my life gonna get…).
I still have lots of lipomas on my body and they are too deep to really get a good measure on (maybe a future scan followed by a 7 day fast, then another scan, who knows…) but, the process of doing without and learning to live without, that was one of my main goals, I re-learned many of the lessons I’ve learned before:
We don’t have to eat every 20 minutes to prevent death, we can miss a few meals, no matter what the fast food companies/grocery stores/supplement manufacturers would have us believe
Food is energy, we should consider it energy first, then, maybe pleasure, but it should be de-coupled from Love, from reward, from joy. Yes, it’s AWESOME to sit down and have a meal as a family but the purpose of that meal is the family time, not the food. We’ve attached too much meaning to that piece of cake at a birthday party, the smiles on the kids faces because they are running around in the sunshine, that’s the value, not the cheetos/juice boxes/bullshit we hand out.
-As a society (in the US) we are too fixated on food and the odds are against us. There is so much money being spent on getting us to eat, and then more being spent of helping us lose the weight that we gain from eating the wrong crap, and then more on the meds and supplements etc. When you are “outside looking in” it’s so clear, when you are a fish in the water, you don’t know you’re in the water. Clearing the mind of simple glucose and the insulin spikes makes it easier to think and see the challenges against healthy eating and living a healthy lifestyle.
-We can live/exercise/thrive on a lot fewer calories than we think. We don’t have to fast to enjoy the benefits of low insulin and lowered insulin response, I think we can go hyper-low calories and enjoy some of the same benefits without metabolic slow-down, but it’s a VERY thin line, where it lies, I’m not sure, maybe that’s the next experiment, how low can I keep calories, and be able to exercise in the manner I like, and not get depressed and not be cold all the time, and not lower metabolism… the next frontier! I am considering fasting for 3-5 days and then running a 32 mile race next February. I’ve ran that distance before, after a 12 hour fast, and ate nothing during the run, maybe this time I push the boundary harder.
Ok, I’ve got blabber mouth, I didn’t sleep well last night so I’m all over the place… sorry if this was rambling. Time for a second cup of coffee, then out to cut the grass!