thank you for the feedback, guys. I am just feeling very discouraged.
I actually stopped avoiding carbs about 2 weeks ago. my weight didn’t really change adding them back in (not eating garbage)
but, it just feels like keto will get me to lose a little for a bit, but then my body just gets used to being on keto and goes right back to the weight I was.
I have been 160-170 since 2015. Every attempt to lower it either has no effect, or only temporarily brings it down. I am female/33/5’4"
before i joined the military I was 115 easy all the time, joined the army gained a bunch of mass and was up to about 130-140. Stayed there for almost the entire time i was in the Army. When I came home from deployment I had gone through a lot of really traumatic events, both on deployment and after, that left me with severe depression. I went through surgery and gained about 10-20 pounds during recovery. putting me at about 150-155. I stayed there for my last year in the military and was constantly told I was fat and needed to lose weight.
which is when I started trying to lose weight. I did the typical eat less move more. I worked out really hard and ate healthy food, all I could do was maintain my weight. So when I got out of the army, my weight slowly just crept up till I hit about 175-180. that was my heaviest, after I gave up on even trying anymore and was doing and eating whatever I wanted.
I said I would get my life together and I started moving more and eating less. again it just stalled the weight but never actually brought it down. I found hte only way to lower my weight was to starve myself. So I did and it worked. I got down to about 165 by not eating for 9 days straight. I have since then juggled with keto cycles to try and keep it there and potentially bring it lower.
I spent a lot of time fixing my matab and accepting that my weight would go back up, and it did. I brought it back down “the right way” “the Keto way” and for the first year I did that, it worked. But whenever I got to about 155-160 the weight loss would jsut stop. I would stall for months at a time, never breaking the stall and losing anything for more than a few days. I tried everything from 0 carb to intermittent fasting, and extended fasting.
The only way i was able to break that stall was the extended fasts(starving myself again) which would get me down a little bit lower about 150. Then the cycle of calorie reduction and gaining weight would start to happen.
I am at wits end, I am so depressed and unhappy with my body. I have had my thyroid checked and all that is normal. I honestly have gotten to the point of becoming suicidal and starve myself out of self hate to just lose anything. I am at the point where I would accept losing muscle mass and water just to see the scale under 160 again.
the weight causes joint pain, problems with my feet, problems with my self image and self value. The Army taught me being fat is not acceptable. When i was 150 my Sgt told me I was a “skinny fat person” because I held my weight in the right places so i could always pass tape but that I didn’t deserve to.
Even when I was a Keto zealot when I was in school I stalled and I stayed stalled for 6 months. I finally caved and ate carbs and I didn’t see a weight reversal for over 4 weeks eating garbage. slowly then it came back and then when i tried to turn back to keto again, it didn’t work that time (this time)