Hi guys. I was sooo good at staying away this far
I so don’t do carnivore lately but now I will get very close again I think. I do Zornfast now, not the foggiest idea what it means this time. I probably will eat today as I have a weightlifting day and I never ever didn’t eat afterwards. But Zornfast is very very flexible, that’s why I do it. It just helps me not eating without a good reason. Enough meat helps even more but that’s for November.
I dropped moral things, chicken is dirt cheap and I realized it’s tasty enough even from not good source. I keep this at a minimum and not for long I guess but well, I had to choose something and it seems the best idea for now.
It was so frightening to see what I wrote in quotes
I truly had very little animal protein at some point but that never lasts for long. Just a few days before we get eggs again and go shopping other stuff. But it’s still uncomfortable. Even though I know I can get something very soon. I like to have lots of food and like to be able to eat as many eggs as I may desire. And variety is important too.
My supplies aren’t so well now but better and it will change in the beginning of November.
The beef farm butchers only veal now so I still didn’t buy anything there. And we dropped the emu idea. But we will make a big chicken stew… Alvaro says 3kg fits our pot. It’s definitely something. He loves filling our biggest pot with food and it’s fine and dandy in many situations. And a bit unlucky when he cooks 3 kg green peas (the dish is not fit for freezing)… I totally enjoy when he makes food for himself that lasts for 4 days but this amount is more than that. We needed very lucky circumstances to avoid throwing out much (hopefully any but he should be ready for a big portion today). He rarely did that before (that 2 kg mushroom stew years ago was interesting too but freezing works in that case. it was for 2 people and I didn’t want much of it) and I could help more in the past anyway. But he will learn.
Fasting is a cool thing. I love eating, I spend lots of time in the kitchen, I am addicted and eat with zero hunger and appetite too - but I love fasting as well (short, natural ones. like 20-26 hours. sometimes 48 but that’s rare. not getting hungry for that long probably wouldn’t be rare but I rarely wait for hunger. it would be interesting to try and I did try and failed. I just can’t wait for hunger). Balance is important and we need to eat and need to fast. It’s just longer for some people than for others.
Fasting and forced fasting are two very very different things. I never do the latter, not even when I am very curious. My body appreciates my determination and doesn’t want food but it was my single longer fast and it was only 120 hours anyway, nothing special. It was fun but I am fine with my tiny fasts.
I am against forced eating too. That’s why I fast and dislike people who want others to eat all day. That’s unnatural, not hedonistic and very very unhealthy for me. It should be free and natural and proper. Listening to the body, it knows best, probably.
We don’t really have waste problems with our vegetables. We simply eat them all. Yeah, sometimes even we throw out some spoiled tomato but it’s a very tiny amount and it often happens when Alvaro’s Mom gifts it to us, not when we actually buy it because we know we will eat it in the next days.
But I dislike being forced to make and eat vegetables just because they will spoil. Well, good luck for that now, even my mind can’t force my body to eat vegetables… But it’s a bit fuzzy what is my body and my mind as they are connected.
But it’s the same with animal products, I need to be careful what kind of stuff with a short shelf life I buy. That’s why we have mostly dry plant matter as they don’t spoil or it takes years (the same is true for my canned things). It’s trickier with animal products but canning, freezing helps - and nothing stops us from shopping regularly. If I had to stay alive without shopping for half a year, I would eat plants most of the time, what else? Especially that I still don’t have the mini freezer (that is still much bigger than my freezer in my fridge).
I so would hate it, I could give up meat, that’s easy if I can have plants but not my eggs
(HOW I lived without eggs for 1-2 years as a vegetarian, I can’t imagine and don’t remember at all.)
I often think of November. Yep, the chicken was a good idea, I would have huge difficulties without it for sure. The beef farm surely will offer something not veal or guinea fowl too, I get some little allegedly farm pork again… And livers and turkey! I must try turkey.
As for October, I mostly stick to my general plan, I mean what I decided for even off days.
I don’t drink alcohol (I totally forgot and put whisky into my little ice cream - I had leftover yolks and had no better idea. and success! it’s not too alcoholic but it didn’t become hard!) and I don’t eat peanuts (except a few wasabi ones but I stopped those too). My first month since forever that I resist the salted, roasted peanuts. My carnivore(-ish) times stopped my addiction but on off days they still happened. My desire pretty much stopped but I see the jar many times a day, after all and they ARE tasty… I consumed very very little but still. And now only the wasabi ones. November is carni so it will be totally zero. And I expect it will be practically zero afterwards, no matter what.
I wrote before my big goal is making my off days better. As they will happen anyway, if not in November, in December for sure. And I am so not the type who says oh it’s holiday, why not to be super crazy. Super crazy isn’t hedonistic to me, I don’t feel optimal that way. And I was a slave of my habits and whims for too long. I still won’t resist temptation but I except my temptations and desires target the right things. At least most of the time.
And it’s idiotic to eat something just because it tastes good and we survive it just fine. I have good proper food, I am choosy about the carbier ones, they must be worthy.
5 fruit seasons at the moment, not “dangerous” ones but I will make lots of jam in October (mostly from already canned fruit). Because it’s the unfortunate time when I am cold in the house but it’s not cold enough to heat yet. So I bake and make jam (I think quince-pear is good for little Christmas gifts too. I don’t feel bad about it at all but yeah, my thoughts are different than they were before when I think of fruits), jam is better as it takes several hours in the oven and warms the kitchen very nicely. And our rooms are upstairs so the warmth comes up.
It’s an exceptionally cold, rainy October now
The house gets colder very quickly. 18 Celsius now. It’s borderline okay for us but I am still used to warm days and miss sunshine anyway. So I am cold a bit.
Congrats for everyone who wrote good news 
I still can’t control my comments, at least they are rare now. I try to be scarce until November and I will be around a lot then I guess (hopefully with smaller walls of texts and I will be so relevant… I will merely announce the beginning of my last fruit season at some point. I am so proud of my fruits especially when I have fresh fruit in December. but it starts in November. I will have a few tests but easy ones. visiting Alvaro’s Mom without eating plants there, that’s serious. the fruit can wait until December. oh and I will be surrounded with zillion apples all November too). It’s my big, planned since long carni month, after all!
best wishes to everyone ~