To me, the binge-trigger things are clearly to be banned. After years. With exceptions. I am not good at this but the average person is zillion times worse… (In the earlier times, I just made sure the binge only happens occasionally. It worked even with fat-loss, it really was rare. And it took more than that to make me really unwell.) I am quite good with moderation in most cases but some are just hopeless so I try persuade myself about the ban to the extent that I follow it even in my worst, “I don’t CARE” moments.
My worst item like this is coffee. I don’t even enjoy it, it gives me nothing, I am fully aware it comes with zillion negatives but can I stop having it all the time…? Well, sometimes. I am good if determined but I am not in my best shape in the morning (even though I am not a zombie anymore. I like these changes. I need some very serious longer term sleep problem to become one) and if I started, I won’t just stop for the day.
If I am in my right mind, it’s way easier, I can even ask my smart, actually thinking parts… Oh well.
I… Do what I can for now. I have a severe lack of eggs and even meat (I have meat but not my usual, default, leaner one, when it become a necessity for me to do carnivore…?) and an extremely strong baking phase. It could be much worse, I always have a very strong aversion to carby baking but that means that I usually make something from mostly eggs and that’s not an option now 
But my pork chuck was amazing! 
And we had meatballs yesterday, very nice ones, the soft, fatty pork skin always make it something special. It just wasn’t enough alone. Not even with the tiny cheese I allow, I am really fine with little and I am happy I can minimize dairy now (of course I still have milk/cream in my coffees. quitting coffee would do good). I don’t even want many eggs nowadays though it happens on some days, I am REALLY into baked goods and it’s no big deal to eat 10-12 muffins on a day, either sponge cake or quiche… I try not to as I need to bake nearly every day then but last time I just made 24, one sponge cake batch and one quark quiche, partially with sausages. As Alvaro only touches one carnivore baked goods of mine, cheesy fluff (that I am not into much but sometimes eat 1-2), all 24 was eaten by me, in a few days. But then I run out of quark. And mostly from eggs as well.
Tomorrow is shopping day and today I just have a nice carnivore dinner OMAD fat fast day, at least that is the plan.
Duck is on a great sale but the last few times I had any wasn’t so great. My childhood memories are more memorable, IDK if I should give it another shot… It’s really cheap, like chicken. My usual tiny soup hen is a tad cheaper but I really wait for a superb sale (it happens often. I barely buy any carnivore stuff without a sale as most things I eat go on sale regularly. mascarpone never does but I still buy it occasionally as it’s so great. but now ricotta is on sale and people make cheesecake from that too so I will try. I don’t think I ever made a carnivore cheesecake but it’s surely very much possible).
I don’t have plans for the weekend but I want to go back to carnivore on Monday for real now. Today is just a fat fast day, of course it’s carnivore. Carnivore has the best fatty items, after all. And plants love to bring carbs and/or protein and I have a very limited quota for those (and I fill that with sausage, egg and whipped cream. my whipped cream is real sweet now as it’s lactose free. I should have eaten it in desserts and alone, not in my stupid coffees).
So, I was silent (wrote some short comments but deleted them) as I can’t even do carnivore now. But I am closer than before and my diet isn’t too bad now I think. But I still don’t skip lunch (today I will as it’s pretty much inevitable on my fat fast. I stopped having such days specifically because I couldn’t wait until dinnertime for a long while. I loved my fat fast days and they are useful) and I even have some calories with my coffee way before lunchtime. I should change that.
I have a couple of new non-carni but pretty low-carb recipes now, it’s something to appreciate as I will need them in my off times or else I eat something worse.
Oh I don’t really want (much) meat now, that is another possible complication. I don’t know why… I didn’t even want my wonderful fried pork chuck 2 days ago - but when I started to eat, I enjoyed and easily finished it. That works, it’s like eating without any hunger or appetite: maybe not ideal but very easy for me. And I did enjoyed it. It was unusually fatty though (not compared to pork chuck though maybe that too? compared to what pork I usually eat lately), I totally will mix it with the cheaper and way more easily available leaner cut in the future! One is a bit too lean, the other is usually super tasty and unnecessarily fatty (I gladly eat it but it’s no sacrifice to lower the fattiness a little and it does good to my macros - or if they are good, my options, I gladly eat any possible amount of my super fatty favs, it’s not nice to hold back even if I only do it to the extent where it’s still comfortable. but we bought a lot of butter when we finally found some for a good price, someone should eat it slowly, we didn’t buy too much but time passes. Alvaro has special conditions for eating butter for some reason and they are rarely met. I don’t need anything at all, I eat it all alone any time just fine but I often bake my sponge cake buns and they are perfect with butter. and optionally sausage. why I use butter when I eat super fatty sausage on pure egg sponge cakes? because it makes it perfect, apparently. butter is great, it doesn’t count when it’s about my usual ideal fattiness of some food. that helps with fat fast days, 90% fat is a bit over the ideal fattiness even for my tastes, even for one day but using the right items does the trick. butter is the best, I love lard but not alone in bigger amounts… cream is a bit carby, sausage in bigger amounts is too protein rich… I don’t care about the usual fat fast rules but my body can’t handle protein in a certain range. it must be very little or a lot, there is nothing in-between).
I will bring a photo later. With the proper camera so the depth of field will be pitiful Alvaro still didn’t figure out how on earth to get the photos from his phone. Yeah, we can send them from the phone to his FB (chat with ourselves? nice feature), preferably after resizing them and I can download them to my computer but we just couldn’t bother. So maybe you won’t see our chicken liver and heart stew (almost carnivore so maybe okay) and whatever else I shot for a while or ever but the stew wasn’t very photogenic anyway. I made some cute flower photos though and I am curious how they turned out, the new phone has all those lenses and while it is apparent zooming is a pretty useless feature, it’s so ugly even seeing the photos on the phone, the macro lens and the pro settings are promising.
Consistency is huge, even as some of us aren’t always great at it. [ insert embarrassed icon here ]
