Finally out of bed and able to sit upright without feeling too queasy. Sat in garden ad read books with first cup of black tea… it was disgusting so i left it… don’t fancy coffee as yet. It felt too warm for me outside, i think i was taking a bit of a feverish turn. I have been sitting in the cool kitchen since so thats progress … i am fed up with being in bed sleeping! Never thought i would hear that coming from my lips!
Forced myself to make something to eat… just a small omelette with a morsel of cheese inside, it was horrid, i made the mistake of using olive oil to grease the pan and definitely should have used lard… why don’t we ever learn our lessons? Concentration is very hard, reading is hard, writing this is hard so is taking me some time. I read up how strokes and covid don’t mix and it is quite scary, glad i didn’t read that when i first found out i had it as since eating that horrid omelette i feel i have picked up a bit, i don’t feel so queasy and light headed. I may try a beef burger later. The lamb went in the freezer, i don’t mind wasting a beef burger but not my precious lamb 
I had to send proof of this meal to Sian
she should know me by now, i don’t intentionally starve myself.
you know i really can’t understand why anyone voluntarily fasts
Nothing forceful. It’s a bliss being satiated and not force-feeding ourselves… But then I get hungry or weak and it totally changes. But sometimes one pushes themselves a bit, it may have benefits. Once I was curious and fasted for 5 days but I wasn’t particularly hungry… The “being strong” and forcing a fast when hungry, that’s not me. That was the fasters on reddit, they told everyone that they should be strong and be happy when suffering horrible hunger as it means they do it right, it was sooo bad to read… Being miserable and in pain? Biting off the head of the boss at work due to being hangry? No problem, fasting must continue! And I was the only one advising the opposite… As I understand many things but there are limits…
i have come to the conclusion that anything plant based has a metallic taste which i have to push through (didnt push hard enough for a 2nd cup !) I had a bit of mint sauce with two lidl burgers last night and took a lick off the fork i had taken it out of the jar with and 
Yet eating it with the burger it wasn’t too bad. Also tried a spoon of mayo and yep same thing. I am sure 
fortunately it was just because that was what my tummy was shouting for this morning not that i had nothing to eat.
won’t be long before your hot weather is with you … temp dropped a little today … no rain in sight yet. The bank holiday weekend had beautiful weather… i know 'cos i peeked out my window on and off inbetween sleeping 
When it gets really bad, I tell Alvaro NOT to open the freezer door or else a box may jump and a lil plastic thing almost never survives the big fall (another reason I want my freezer in the bottom)… But he just never opens it anymore as it’s usually very full, might be dangerous and he wouldn’t find anything anyway. He isn’t good with food behind other food, I need to help him out in the normal fridge part too.
i can’t get it from the GP. I have to get prescibed it through a private clinic or if i get taken in to hospital. Given a different timescale of 14 days! I felt a bit weepy and put phone down and slapped myself in the face … get a flipping grip Karen! I have absolute faith in prayer and i was tip top fitness when i contracted it and if i can get through a Stroke because i was ‘fit’ then i can get through this. Been reading too much doom and gloom about covid and now i need my positivity back … along with my taste buds and regulated sense of smell, it’s really heightened at the mo. 
