First Intentional Fast Has Begun

(Misty Torrey) #1

Hi all! I probably should add some trigger warnings about pregnancy loss…

I am embarking on my first intentional extended fast. I have been keto since Jan 5, 2018. I fasted 3 days in April after my 6th pregnancy loss. I was 9 weeks along on that one. After my d&c I just didn’t want to eat, so I didn’t. I did not set out to fast.

Wednesday I learned that I was facing my 7th pregnancy loss. I was only 4 weeks this time. I knew super early bc I was doing fertility treatments and they made me test at 14 days past my IUI. If I hadn’t been doing treatments I would just think my period was 2 days late.

My period is ending as is my fertility journey. I am 41. I have been trying for a 3rd child since 2014 at age 37. I got pregnant easily then. My baby died at birth at full term. I also lost a baby at 18 weeks plus several early ones. We can’t afford to continue and my soul is tired.

I feel like total garbage. I am off all the fertility meds, steroids and supplements. My anxiety is high. My energy is low. My heart is lost. I have spent 4 years pursuing and dream and now I have to let go.

I guess I am just looking for some encouragement. I am hoping fasting will make me feel less like garbage. I am going to fast from 10 am on 10/24 until sometime in the evening of 10/26. Maybe 53 hours? I thought maybe I would document here. I feel like perhaps my lot is not to bring home a baby but to be an example that one can survive?

#2

oh, Misty, I’m so sorry… I started crying as I read your post. Hugs (for whatever they’re worth from a stranger on the internet!).

I think that as long as you’re really paying attention to how you’re feeling (physically) fasting can be a time of clearing and renewal. It sounds like you’re starting a new phase, and I would think that a fast might be a wonderful transition into that.

Best of luck to you, and I look forward to seeing your updates.

(Omar) #3

very sorry to hear your suffering.

when fasting more than 2 days I noticed that I am less sensitive to bad news . I have more tolerance to stressful incidents.

#5

I am so terribly sorry to hear of your losses and the pain and emotional exhaustion that you are suffering. I hope that the fasting helps to cleanse some of that and bring you in touch with your inner spirit and peace.

If it helps to know that someone else is fasting, I am also on an extended fast until the weekend.

(Joanna Parszyk ) #6

I’m so sorry for all your suffering darling. I’ll keep my fingers crossed for you. I’m sending you lots of hugs and positive vibes :heart::heart::heart:
Also thank you for sharing. I’m also considering starting a fast to work on my physical and mental pain.
Take care and please let us know how it goes!

(Misty Torrey) #7

Thank you so much for the support! I made it to 48 hours and then I felt awful. I felt sick to my stomach and was seeing migraine aura. Pretty sure my body said enough. So, I broke my fast with some coffee and a good amount of heavy cream bc that is all I have here at work.

I feel better overall. I am ready to face the days ahead. I think I will make 48 hour fasting something I do more often.