Oh I talk a lot if I have an audience but I only have Alvaro. I don’t meet people. And he comes home tired and watch videos and play games in his own room. We spend time together, of course but I could talk way much! 
But I have this place and a chat with a friends. I was a lonely child without friends so I am actually not used to talk at real speed while thinking (let alone have any resources to notice anything from the other person). I am comfortable with writing though, I have my own pace (it’s pretty quick though. if I would want to be perfect, that would take forever but I am usually fine with being as clear as I can be with my too complicated thoughts and things and I try not to butcher poor language I actually use… but it’s English in more than 99% of the cases)…
Writing is a form of thinking for me. I usually think with words anyway.
I ate lunch again… This was my tray… Not my actual lunch. I had a tiny leftover roast so I fried liver too. And the usual scrambled eggs, not so scrambled, I cooked various things at the same time, whatever.
6 PSMF sponge cake bread muffins, all are different, I experimented. And they actually contains fiber but I am sure it can’t change anything for me, the carbs are negligible (not like I ever cared about total) and I have not enough meat so I need something else. Not like I got the firm texture I got the first time… Hmmm…
I didn’t eat it all (just almost) but I ate 6 more sponge cake muffins (they had more yolks) and quark as dessert 
And eggy coffees.
Guesstimation says 1800 kcal but I didn’t ate it all. The food in the pic is about 1480 kcal. A very bad sized lunch, too small for OMAD and tricky for satiation, too big for a proper TMAD… I probably will have a tiny early dinner very soon.
It was an okay lunch. It’s my 3rd good enough carnivore-ish day, I am waiting for the usual carni satiation and chill to kick in, for a few days before I get bored…
But at least I won’t cook in the weekend, today was a bit rough, coooking multiple not extremely simple dishes in the same hour… And ONE of them was my 24 sponge cake muffins and almost every 2 were different from the others… I try to be more careful in the future but such things can happen. It would help if I ate only dinner though I would need 2 cooking sessions a day then. Sigh. I can’t simplify it much more. Well 2 of the more complicated dishes (I didn’t even do one of them) is all because we have vegetables and Alvaro don’t use them. Of course I don’t do it either but eventually I must. Alvaro could have eaten eggs in purgatory or chicken liver, he is fine with both but poor vegetable was in the bottom part of the fridge since too many weeks. Next time I will just pressure can it, that’s easier and the first 2 steps of a future dish is done. Alvaro actually used poor thing, half of it, that’s why he bought it. And the other half can just die or whatever. I can’t let it even if it’s just a (half) vegetable.
Stupid vegetables, only good for making my life harder. I don’t even eat them. Good vegetables are crunchy, juicy and require absolutely no work (maybe peeling if they are that type but it’s done by the one who actually eats them)… And they disappear quickly, basic every day items for Alvaro and occasional joys for me.
My freezer is more than half empty now, tomorrow is shopping day! And we try to get fancy tasty chewy worm medicine for Caroline who refused the normal medicine mixed with eggs, sour cream and some of my own precious grounded pork. Tofu had no problem but Caroline… It’s stressful and the vet doesn’t always keep that thing. Caroline keeps trying to get inside, airing the house is less easy this week. At least the weather is awesome, I walked a lot in the sunshine and in a t-shirt again. Found no pasque flower leaves yet. Or any other flowers.
@Karen18: These are snowdrops and hellebores but crocuses will come later, I obviously have them as they are great One of my favorite flowers. They never multiply, in the contrary 
So I keep planting some as I want more than a few one day but keeping the population at its normal level is the minimum! IDK why they are like that, the tulips and daffodils and the others are quite fine, we have many every year. Well I could use some more fancy tulips, there are sooo many different lovely kinds… And I don’t have very early or late ones either.
I have the spring mood. Weather has the spring mood. And the forest I visited today was so, so bare! Not even snowdrops! Come on, Nature! Show me something!
I’ve read the posts since last time (there are still some unread from before but things are so busy here I almost never get to go back even if plan to) but I just have no words for your difficulties… Our best friend is in a bad place too and she just don’t chat, not to bring us down… We are down enough all by ourselves anyway except I have spring mood and a very good inner hedonist and self-uplifter or something… I have a bright interior (oh. we spell it with e in the beginning so it was a new word for me) most of the time with darker, somewhat suppressed things inside. Alvaro is gloomier but he is still a cinnamon roll. I can’t say it differently, sorry Sometimes I call someone I love (cats included) sugar (we don’t say honey) and I feel off as I don’t LOVE sugar, actually… Oh well.
I usually call everyone vole though (it sounds WAY cuter in Hungarian!). It’s odd for the cats but Tofu has a stupid food name anyway (very good name choice there, she is a silly cat. I love her way more than tofu though. I don’t even understand why tofu exists, it isn’t good for anything IMO. if I was a vegan, I still wouldn’t eat it, I would have so many better ideas).
Sorry, next time I try to avoid non-carnivore food items but it’s pretty hard especially that I cook with such things. I already avoid most of them but some find the way into my comments.
she is quite right though, it’s only me that will end up poorly with high BP and possibly another stroke and where will I be then? I should have learnt this abstaination from the wrong type of energy and emotion along time ago… it is quite liberating 
couldn’t do anything about it at that time so I have been trying to sort it out this morning. It is not very happy but I have used a pair of tights to secure it to the drain pipe and just have to hope the drainpipe doesn’t come down! Fortunately the pot hadn’t tumbled fully but fallen against the sleeper step up and not broken. I think I need to get a bigger container, maybe a half barrel keg will be better. Mustn’t get upset over it.
