Awake at 3 again this morning but this lack of sleep doesn’t affect my productivity during the day and I’m not a napper so 4 hours it is I guess, until and unless I suddenly get 8 a couple times a week.
I find I work 5 or 6 days a week now but the days aren’t long. Seems there’s always a moment to put my feet up.
Lastnight I snacked on pork rinds (the big light ones rather than the small hard ones) and sour cream. Took bile and lipase prior and had no issues. This morning I’m comfortably empty, not hungry at all.
I think it’s just taking me longer to fat adapt at 69 than it used to. But the arthritis pain is lessening and I’ve tightened my belt 4 notches since the first of the year. Hubby was worried yesterday, wondered if maybe I should stop this, I said yes I want to lose weight but mainly I need to reverse inflammation. I don’t want to be unable to walk at 80! And I have found no other way to get rid of the inflammation.
I read one time that if we could get rid of inflammation we’d all live to be 150.
I asked him how he can sit there and eat those mountains of starch and veggies while I eat 2 hamburger patties and he said “I really need to eat even more plants. I’m eating for two now.” 
Ferocious Fix February - Carnivore Challenge (Fit it In - Fit in It! ) Feb 2022
Really appreciate this response, thanks @Fangs - I will keep calm and keep carrying on! Appreciate hearing your experiences too @Shinita
Curiously, I do feel a little thinner again this week.
Foody pics looking great and yummy.
Bit of a crappy night last night. I took a beta blocker (they are lowest strength and as and when going to work) I thought perhaps they would help ease any anxiety or business in my head about getting up at silly o’clock for work. Not sure they whether they worked or not, I don’t recall feeling anxious and seemed to drop off fairly quickly but it was a very restless night.
So 4.45am alarm call, up and straight on with stair runs, bath and off to work. BP was elevated this morning before going to work and when I arrived and retook the readings it was about the same barring a digit or two. No anxiety issues or attacks on way in like Monday which is why the readings were similar I suppose. Still high but no significant spike. I have been given job listening to the moaning and groaning prisoners on the phones to their friends and family which is fine and no stress related to it which is good. Its like going back 18 years as my first job at the prison before becoming an officer was split between listening to the pin phones and assisting the dog handler. Loved my job back then but we move on through needs must don’t we?. I will be doing this job for time being until they start getting paperwork in order for medical retirement… and possibly longer if the new Number 1 Gov doesn’t agree to it! It isn’t an overnight thing and may take a number of weeks. If I end up staying in the job till I retire in the normal manner thats only 17 months away I can handle that.
Home by 1130am and was ready to eat so brunch was cold roast pork and cold roast chicken. Just a drum/thigh and half the pork in the pic cos it was an end bit and getting too dry for my liking. Also a bit of cheddar.
The other pic is last nights meal of 2 big lamb ribs. They could have been cooked better which would have meant slower and I was in too much of a hurry and pan fried them. Could only get through 1 and as I started the 2nd I just wasn’t able to eat it so horror of horrors it went in the bin. TThis is 2 days on the run I have thrown away some food but it is once (or twice on this occasion) in a blue moon. I just don’t really like cold lamb.
No idea what i fancy for later, may have chicken wings or perhaps scrambled eggs.
Nearly forgot to take the photo of the lamb ribs so had already eaten one by time I remembered lol.
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Staying on plan. But ate breakfast at 10;30am. 3 pasture fed chook eggs with 3 rashers of middle bacon, and potassium-rich salt. 2 x morning coffees, separated by 3 hours, one with controlled dose cream frozen as ice cube aliquots. Last 2 nights have been dinner mirrors with a big rib-eye sat on some butter and baked under a scarf of middle rasher bacon. Tonight I added a thin slice of sheep milk halloumi cheese pan-fried with 4 ribbons of squid (surf&turf wins again!). 2MAD.
Still taking prednisone and it allows for pain-reduced physical activity. Out in the sunshine, shirt off and in shorts, doing homestead chores to get natural Vitamin D. Tanned. I read about 3 pages of a novel per night. Sleeping 7 to 9 hours per night, and woken by the full bladder nature-calling alarm. Fasting blood glucose is remaining unacceptably high due to the cortisone dose in the morning on waking; 120mg/dl (6.6mmol/l) with 0.2 mmol/l blood ketones. It will be interesting to see my HbA1c next month. I really want to get back to medication-free (and surfing).
10 days ago tight clothes are less snug.
I painted my cat looking out the window from a photo reference. I have traded any ‘van life’ urges for 3 acres of trees, a pretty-good* wife, and pets.
*Mrs. Bear actually is awesome.
@Karen18
so cool you ARE walking toward job change or sticking it out but I am sure your medical will come thru I think and new changes and new adventures will be coming…but so nice you are just ‘waiting in good form’ for it all to go down 
I also never get pics of my meat cooked HAHA I always take pics raw before cooking, cause once cooked my brain IS not on a picture, it is on inhaling that thing LOL too funny!
@FrankoBear
that cat rules the roost, not one doubt in my mind with that expression on his kitty face, as in, I am King, hear me Roar! I loved my cats! I loved the devil may care attitude they own and boy do they own it, oneo of the best things about them but many find offputting, I find wonderful about them.
WEEEE…your tighter clothes are less tight…I am loving that for ya FB!
remember this I just posted and read and LISTEN WHY…your new life shows totally NEW issues with blood sugar truly…a new you, a new changed you with balanced hormones and healing and vitality won’t ever ‘equal’ that other blood sugar info kinda out there
means we are not still conforming to old controls ya know, we aren’t ‘using’ or driven by a kinda low carb eating way of life info out there, WE ARE now new and NEED truly to understand our newness thru our health on what zc gives us.
darn if you aren’t doing good. Your van life, yes I still have it!! With my rv when I get the chance I am selling the mini farm, last of it, house and barns and all and gonzo and travel. Kid in college and gonzo. THEN later when I ‘hit our location’ we love in our coastal adventure we will find a place and settle and let me tell ya, your homestead location, to me, personally, is the TOPS and it would be an area of beauty and inspiration I would just eat up Enjoy your homestead FB! ALL YOU can get out of it!!
Fingers crossed for earlier retirement for you. Imagine no alarm clock! That alone is a game changer.
Maybe I will read back later…
Well. After I looked at that wonderful pic here, I realized I have pork shoulder roast… And I actually can eat… And managed to eat a ton of it, sometimes I tried to stopped but resumed it… I didn’t feel hungry, per se but eating it felt right. I never got a stop sign this time, I just stopped when my pork shoulder consumption for yesterday reached about 1000g and I went to bed anyway…
Not a huge surprise, actually, me and pork shoulder roasts after very low-meat times triggered such things before though I only ate this amount once. The problem was that the roast got ready in the evening, after I already ate some other meat but not enough after this extremely low-meat period (with a week without any or something)… Oh well. I will make sure I stick to early dinner OMAD if possible in the foreseeable future!
It’s a nice roast. I ate better meat before so I didn’t eat because it was irresistibly tasty. It was simply irresistible. I am sure my body knows what it is doing.
Problem is… I almost run out of meat and we won’t visit the city yet. Only a bigger town (well, it has supermarkets. it’s actually small where I am came from, the village my family is from isn’t soooo much smaller. and it’s town now but it was a village with a population of 15-17 thousands my village has a population of 2000, it’s a tiny one but there are tinier ones nearby). on Saturday so we surely will find something.
My tiny (but quite fatty, even for a shoulder) meat today:
I had to spare the rest for tomorrow… Then I ate some of that too… But I really had to stop. Oh well, I ate some more eggs (I had 3 before the meat) and quark too and it was surely enough. I am a bit too full more but it’s fine and I am positive I won’t eat this night for a change…
So I am fine now but I need to get some proper meat. If possible, a tad leaner but I can handle shoulder as long as I stay away from added fat and sausages and the like.
Fat is way too easy to eat, it’s a struggle to keep it low enough (a struggle I usually lose but it should be fine on OMAD).
Of course. It’s probably very familiar to many of us. I could show my roast as I still had 2 pieces after I ate half of it… Okay, I originally wanted to shot it before and it was realistic as I was already satiated when my roast got ready but it was cold at that point, solidified fat stuck to it and I thought oh, I just will warm it next time and it will be shiny and pretty and make a photo then… But I jumped it cold at night. It happens. It was good cold and it was good warm (today).
When I have other pics, it’s usually because I prepare my food along with Alvaro’s when I am still satiated from the previous day… So I make a photo and wait for him to come home
But I ate up my food before a photo zillion times even when I actually planned to do it - but it wasn’t THAT important while eating when hungry is important.
My food is often the same anyway. Except not 2 piece or roast is the same 
It’s like flowers… OH I have those too!
The first snowdrops are in full bloom, others are close but the flower is there, the hellebores need more time.
I will check if the pasqueflowers showed their (totally furry as their flowers) leaves yet. I looked them up in my notes and Alvaro remembered them in the end of February so it seems they are blooming mostly in March but sometimes they start in February. Snowdrops started their show weeks earlier than in 2019 so I better check the pasqueflower hill! The view is pretty from there anyway, I wasn’t there ages ago…
And things will just get prettier!
Hopefully on my woe too. I tracked because I am strong and can handle my numbers. AND I collect odd numbers! This was a record breaking among tracked days!
Guesstimation is 2150 kcal for me, I ate a bit more in the end (how I can do it when I really was full a bit before? whatever) but still in a small eating window, significantly below 3 hours. Good enough for me nowadays.
Just over a pound pork shoulder (as I was so modest today :D)… 140g protein.
For yesterday… 4100 kcal (probably less as I have rendered out fat left. but it’s not so much. and it’s possible this pork shoulder is fattier than what the data uses. who knows?), 250g protein… Wow. I remember 220-225g but that’s it. So it’s a new record for me!
326g fat, says guesstimation but this is the value that we can’t trust. Fatty meat is impossible to track.
Whatever real numbers are, no one can accuse me of being shy if it’s about eating fat.
It’s nice a eat a substantial amount of fat now and then. My 250-280g days gave me a tiny comfort for a while but it was still not MUCH fat, just higher than usual and higher than what I should eat. I consider 300+ g much
But I still find it best to eat little fat (like 100-150g) and being happy with it. I only need a fatty day now and then. And I could even afford more if I just could stop eating for days but I can’t do that without a lot of carbs, apparently. Oh well.
Don’t mind me, I just try to handle my numbers. Wow. I only did 4000 kcal on my TMAD off days after I went low-carb. They were RARE. I barely ever did 3000 on keto. Wow.
But I noticed this with me + low-meat past days + fresh (1-2 days old cold is fine) pork shoulder roast. Things get wild there.
I STILL don’t know what happens if it’s the same combo except chuck. Stupid and tasty fatty shoulder is what I can do in big packages and cheap most of the time. And it may work if I just avoid fat like the plague otherwise. Yeah, fat chance. I bought 850g sour cream today… It was on sale, okay? And it’s sour cream. And the brand is what I only tried for milk and it was the best milk ever except the one time when I get some freshly milked warm foamy wonder from the neighbour.
But I will be modest. Fortunately I am not used to eat much of it anymore, my training was successful! I ate 20g today only because my quark needed some creaminess, it’s a crumbly, drier quark.
And NOW I should stop thinking of food for a looooooong time. Like tomorrow evening. Except I will cook and bake food for Alvaro as usual but that’s fine.
Well 4000 kcal isn’t THAT much. Once in a blue moon. After several super low-meat days. I still shouldn’t do it with pork shoulder if possible. I am sure my body wanted meat, not allllll that fat with it. Though it was nice to have much fat. Oh whatever.
My weight was crazy and it went up to 77kg but it’s 76 again (this morning, I even undressed and everything and I rarely do that, I am not that curious) and I am waiting for my usual 75. It’s supposed to be my real weight, after all… I totally can’t use other measurements as I have no fitting pants. I barely have any pants (trousers if you are in that country), I keep postponing the shopping as I HATE clothes shopping with a passion. And I have pants, it’s just not so pretty and it has NO POCKETS. Outrageous. It’s winter so I just have a jacket on me outside but it’s often too warm for a jacket now (so it’s on my waist, with my phone in it. I am a super addict of listening to music all the time. except while sleeping, talking but I usually have music. I barely ever talk).
Why I can’t stop?
meal one was a small tbone and beef liver. Meal two was country style ribs. Meal three was another tbone. High stress day. So glad I stress eat with t-bones instead of Reese’s cups these days! Sleep last night was pretty good. In bed at 9:40. Fell asleep instantly. Woke at midnight to pee. Then my husband woke me with his snoring at 1:23. I tried to just put an earplug in and go back to sleep, but went ahead and used the restroom. Then I woke up at 4:45 and struggled to get comfortable. Finally got up to pee and reset my alarm from 5:10 to 5:30. I didn’t think I’d fall back asleep but I did and woke with the alarm. But when I was sleeping, it was very restful sleep. I am still taking the cortisol manager that is just ashwaganda and l-theonine (the one I got from Walmart) and one magnesium tablet. I also got my @redmondrelyte yesterday afternoon. I put one in my glass water bottle and it was way too much since I haven’t eaten salt in over a year. I kept diluting it until I got it to a bearable level. Drank probably half a packet yesterday afternoon. Drank the other half this morning and another half a packet. Will probably drink part of the other half this evening. It has made my mouth and lips dry and my fingers a little puffy. I’ll see if it makes much of a difference in my sleep.
Great to read your stories. I feel centered and stable in this woe but how much is me and how much is you? Would I be saying “maybe a little bit of mustard and lemon in my mayo wouldn’t be out of line” and before ya knew it I’d be adding a little salad, a little BBQ sauce, and I’d be right back where I started. The fb group for Carni women over 60 allows keto or whatever they want, and it’s a mucking fess so to speak.
Anyway so we went to the steak place and yuck. 10 oz ribeye for $30, gristly and they charged Xtra for the included sides that I only got for John as they were included!
So we came home and I opened a 93% ground beef and started nibbling. Better then, but too much fat and pretty soon I was running to the bathroom again. No bile or lipase today.
So tonight I had canned tuna with baconnaise, which interested the puppy greatly! Lower fat for me, I’ll be fine now.
@FrankoBear love your cartoons and that crazy video was great! “Don’t eat that salad! Are you trying to kill yourself??” loved it! Also your paintings, Photoshop? Wonderful!
Today was the other half of yesterdays lamb rack and 4slices of bacon dinner was a lamb hock/shank.
Went shopping today spent way to much on meat but sirloin was on sale 5 dollars off per packet at samWednesday… couldn’t let that go by without buying half a dozen packs… rib roasts were under 10 dollars packs… so had to get one of those and I saw a rib eye steak for. Valentines I bought for my husband in a heart shape pan…its huge … also grabbed some scallops and flounder to throw in freezer …
Well looks like the house in nebraska is sold its supposed to close next wednesday…
going off beef water for a day here cause, well, I wanna LOL and it is all carnivore.
chicken wings, big ol’ mess of them and having leftover country pork ribs that fam didn’t finish.
back on beef steaks tomorrow.
enjoying zc for sure as always
One last dip before lights out.
Work from home day saw me out in the sunshine in surf boardshorts planting some pumpkin seedlings for Mrs. Bear to roast in the woodfire oven in winter.
NoFUN breakfast 3 pasture fed chicken eggs and 3 rashers smoked middle bacon. 2 morning coffees, 3 hours apart with an ice-cube measure of cream in each. Worked on the computer doing administrative forms and emails. Then a 2.5hr Zoom meeting with a manager, which was stressful. They might try to promote me, but I was not having it. I ate about 80g of blue cheese (like a Stilton) in response to corporate ladders being placed in front of me. Then took Billie to the beach for a long evening walk. Home to a baked rib eye steak with a middle bacon rasher. That’s ribeyes 3 nights in a row.
@FrankoBear photo and painting … beautiful. You’re very talented … words and art 
@Fangs had to say this although it isn’t this thread but I just wonder why people comment when they can just scroll if they don’t like what one has said. I saw the funny side lol… just saying!
@robintemplin … no alarm sounds awesome but I will still have yo set it for my Saturday morning CrossFit class cos its an hour earlier than mid-week and I still have to stair run beforehand!
@Shinita really lovely photos of the crocuses my daughter took a photo of a great big patch of them on her walk yesterday, they looked so nice.
@Ketodaisy an invite to help you eat that T-bone? Thank you I will be right over 
@JJFiddle it is always so disappointing when a restaurant over charges for a crappy steak. I look forward to it being cooked by a professional and if the piece of meat is below par I usually send it back.
@Azi well done selling your nebraska house, that will be a lot of stress off your shoulders and easier on the mind. I generally don’t like the bigger steaks unless they’re cooked for me in a restaurant as I can never guage how long to cook them for. I always opt for smaller when cooking them myself. If I am still hungry after eating the smaller ones I can always cook another or get something else to follow. When I eat a bigger steak in a restaurant I can generally get through the whole thing as I probably haven’t eaten all day in prep for the ‘Big One’ 
Up at silly o’clock again this morning for my shift. Stair runs done at 4.45am , bath and off to work. Everything okay until my line manager gave me a letter. He was very sweet and said he was very angry and had fought against Gov not to issue it but had been forced to give me the letter. Well prison showing its contradictory true colours. I was surprised at how supportive they had been and the number 1 Gov last week telling me the prison had to make sure they looked after me and if my BP spikes before work then I wasn’t to go in and it wouldn’t go on my sick record … the letter this morning was an absence warning letter because I have had more than 5 days off in the last 12 months! Hmmm was i suppose to discharge myself from hospital after my stroke and get myself in for my shift the next day? I just laughed at it but my line manager said he was dreading giving me it as he thought I would be so angry, as he was, and my BP would surely spike! He was so sweet and kind though that that set me off emotionally 
took me ages to compose myself 
i know when my daughter reads the letter she will be so cross! She can’t wait for me to leave the prison service.
Very hungry when I got home about 11.45. Should have left work sooner but I wanted to finish my task in hand before leaving which set me back a good half hour plus. Silly cos I don’t owe them anything but finishing a job is in my make-up and I can’t change that. So I tucked in to some cheese for brunch while Chicken wings were heating up in the oven. Left them a bit too long and they were charred by the time I got them out but oh oh oh they were so nice. I definitely prefer the skin baked to a crisp.
@Fangs I read your last post and laughed cos I was reading it and looking at the bones left on my plate . I have another packet in fridge and may have those later and I think I will get distracted again and oh dear they may end up charred!
I received a “rules are rules” Written Reprimand once that really shook me up! I was known as the hardest and happiest worker, the biggest seller, etc etc…. But rules are rules and no apology for the insult was offered.
That’s when I realized I was a great employee with excellent work ethics for my own self and pride. Plus I loved my job. That’s what stung the most. I gave my all because I loved it there.
this is smart. I did it with cream also to make my alfredo cause I only needed a small amt and ended up throwing out the rest of the carton, so I thought, freeze it and stop wasting money but you got great portion control thru it~
yea. In life we hit a boundary. work harder with tons more stress and responsibility or ARE WE OK where we are and living good…don’t follow the almighty dollar for some works best at some stage, I so feel ya on this!!! Let the stress go, you stated your point of view on it, let the chips fly after that as they will in that you can’t truly control anything after giving your response…smile cause ya gave that response that suited you
I am super happy you have ‘real humans’ dealing with real med issues for our working environment…it is a real plus you truly have this happening to work for you cause so much work out there is take take and dump, you got real humanity going down as it should be
I appreciate that but it was a tad off color LOL and it wasn’t typed out as I laughed about it in my head 
Thing being my stress levels are thru the roof right now, my 94 yr old mom with the dementia now kicking in, handling retirement home issues and letting go of her now I think? and I guess being so close as we are I am in a new zone I can’t comprehend actually…for a lack of a better way to say it…grieving the loss and death of a living parent? UGH…I am kinda in a dark space, a reflective space and more right now, emotions flying everywhere and I don’t think a damn plant is ‘gonna save anyone’ ever HAHA so my joke went by the wayside for sure so will send apologies if it all came out in a wrong way 
But life is what it is and I should stay off threads as I get ‘me under control’ a tad more 
-------------I need time to come around to a real normal gain…I guess?