Haven’t posted on this thread in at least 2 weeks, but have been working my way through. Kinda stalled out, so planning a longer fast to get things moving again.
Stuff that’s happened…
Went on a 4 day trip with hubby. Ate a steak with butter at every.single.restaurant. we stopped at. Eggs, butter and salt for brekkie. Cofffee, then water and iced tea all day. Felt freaking amazing.
I think I had mentioned about traveling to pick up some of my brother’s belongings, which we did on this trip, as well. None of my brother’s wife’s family said a word, but they looked me up and down several times, but said nothing. Unfortunately, my brother’s widow has gained quite a bit. I was so hoping his death might have served as more of a wake-up call - but it seems to have had the opposite effect. Now, my nephews on the other hand, are doing great. The older one has slimmed down, and looks way healthier. Could just be that he grew alot taller. IDK. Just glad I got to spend some time with them, and maybe just be an example of better health. No emotional fall out from it, either. I really really thought it was going to be a huge emotional struggle for me, but since coming to terms with his death and accepting it, I just have not experienced issues I had before. So, that was cool.
The last couple of days have been incredibly weird. Not cheating - but having some very weird, massively powerful cravings for real waffles. WTF??? I don’t even like waffles! Yes, they puffy, and act as a rather considerate form of a pancake- holding juicy plops of syrup or butter in the little square indentations, and all. But, its just not my thing. And then cereal. I quit cereal long, long ago. It got tossed out to the chickens, but alas…there is more in the pantry. Guess we’ll see if the doggies or chickens like Golden Grahams or Frosted Flakes.
Eats of late include stew meat cooked in the crock pot. Its nice and fatty, has some connective tissue, fat, can be tough. Cooked long enough—its wonderful. I slathered it in butter, and ate a bowl for brekkie. I feel completely satisfied, not craving anything currently. I just found it weird that all of a sudden I such a powerful urge to eat carbs.
I didn’t sleep well at all last night, woke up to 6 inches of snow, and now I am ready for a short nap. So, ta ta for now -