I weighed myself this morning. 75kg, obviously… It could be a tad more but I didn’t eat much lately, in average at least.
I baked things for Alvaro and it requires grill cheese since the only cheese that didn’t flow out of the cheesy sticks changed and it flows out now.
We bought some abomination with flour and whatnot in it a few times, it was tasty, apparently, Alvaro had no problem and it was cheap for a grill cheese (more expensive than our normal, good, proper cheese but life is like that and I even understand).
But now we forgot to pick it up at the right supermarket and the other one had only the more expensive, fancy one. On a nice sale! So we bought 3 packets (it lasts almost forever but we still don’t buy too many at once) and it turned out flour and other such things aren’t needed to make it firm enough. At least I suppose it won’t flow out, we will see soon, the sticks are baking.
So I ate 4g of it. Not my style, I like slightly aged half-hard tasty cheeses (and some special soft ones) and this is white and rubbery too (the other grillcheese was firm but not rubbery. good spices, slight flour taste, I am sensitive to that).
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It’s 3:30pm and I had lunch. My satiation ended around noon. I never got hungry.
I am over 2 liter water already and I wasn’t even outside except a few minutes in the garden.
I had half of my usual workout, it didn’t went so well as every repetition made my originally tiny headache much worse. But I did what I could and now I wait to get better.
The beginning of my lunch (okay, most of it):
It was much better than yesterday 
The not very appetizing thing on the small plate was good too, it’s a big double-yolk egg (70g. it happens quite a few times every year but still a rarity considering we go through 3500 eggs a year) fried with the liquid part of my pork slab. I don’t throw out stuff and it’s not bad. Maybe I am too trusting (more like not thinking about it and I am the opposite of a hypochonder anyway except if it’s about raw pork - usually any raw meat - , I avoid that as the plague. just more actively. I have little chance for the plague) but I never wash meat. I use what I get, with the liquid.
So… The star of my lunch was some (340g) fried pork. I found some unusually fatty pieces, I just fried them with salt. The normal, lean pieces were a bit marinated (no way I spend more than one minute on such a normally pointless thing… not my style. but I have great spice, too lean pork, some leftover lard so why not?), the spice mix was awesome as usual but well, lack of fat can’t be helped. It doesn’t soak up fat, no matter how I would like that. But it was still okay and I could spare some fat from the fatty parts, even better. But the leanest bites were a bit miserable and we have wonderful ripe tomatoes now so I ate a tiny bit. I am pleased and indeed, carnivore-ish is the best. But I truly don’t need anything with fatty meat, just salt (and frying/roasting it well).
I can show my sausages (yes, I will call them like that. they aren’t meatBALLs anyway and frikadeller is as a foreign name for you as quark, right? too bad I can’t do much with quark. I could call it in Hungarian, túró but I would need to switch between the English and Hungarian keyboard settings or learn another 2 ASCII codes. I have that enough for pâté!) but I didn’t put them on a separate clean plate:
Alvaro liked them and was fine with having it again tomorrow. After 3 rabbity days… I don’t remember multiple vegetarian days in a row lately, maybe he stopped that thing.
It’s sooo convenient to eat the same main dish. Even if it’s a tad more complicated than fried pork. But if I make the machine doing the chopping and mixing totally dirty (and fat and paprika is a quite serious attack to transparent/white plastic), I make sure I get multiple batches. In the end, it’s only 2 as I couldn’t resist and fried some pork normally and how good of an idea it was.
Then I had a tiny dessert. I finished my Greek yogurt (26g) and had my quark mixed with mascarpone. Oh yeah, I never ever want to buy low-fat quark accidentally. It’s SUPER sour. And I don’t use sweeteners now (I basically try not to ever but I am not that rigid normally as walnut pancakes are among the best things ever. they are for days when I don’t have some proper kinds of amounts of meat, I don’t just eat them whenever the thought crosses my mind. it’s very, very important in my self-training that they may and usually do happen all the time, even on my off days. back then when my stricter woe was my <40g net carbs keto and my fallback one was my old <80g net carbs one I practiced my new keto habits off keto just the same except my most wild days).
So, the fortunately tiny quark dessert. It was’t bad just a bit dry and super sour. I had it with sponge cakes (still too sour) and ended my meal with some nice meat.
I just hope I will be able to think less about my food soon. I am quite focused, determined and hopeful now and measure everything and plan and stuff and that’s too much. I want to chill but it’s not so easy…
But now I am nicely satiated and satisfied and tomorrow will be fine too.
@Fangs: Hungary has a serious “dental tourism” around the western borders. People came for cheaper gas too but gas stations ask for a Hungarian… automobil registration, says a dictionary… now. Not like it’s very serious, they didn’t even looked properly at Alvaro’s last time.
Gas is problematic now here as from the few oil refinement factories 3 is out (or will be soon) and it’s summer with its high demand… One can’t buy unlimited amounts anymore (or even a full tank for a car with a big one). Or it will happen in 1-2 months. I don’t know the details, only that Alvaro was scared and wanted to travel to my Aunt by train/bus if it’s not too complicated. It is. We need to switch lines 3-4 times so nope.
@Fangs: I am glad Bolt is better! Oh being loopy, that can be expected I guess, IDK what exactly happened with him but the cats were off after their neutering too, some shake it off quickly but some were dizzy for days. And they are cats so they keep trying to jump and walk even if they can’t. But only Pie was really “active”, I cared for her for long, it was tiresome but in the end I had to lock her into the cat transport cage, IDK the term. As I wanted to sleep and not to be with her every minute in general…
But these things pass quickly. And hopefully the other problems get better too… But a loopy pet is scary, I was very well aware every time that they are healthy and it will be okay in no time but seeing the cats in that very much not cat-like state was a bit hard on me, and poor cats can’t even understand what is happening…
Fortunately it’s over and hopefully the girls stay with us for many more years. They are so young, the oldest is maybe 6 years old? 7? Even for outside cats, it’s not much.
Baby turtles 
@VirginiaEdie: 
RIP Snowflake. I hope she had a healthy life in her earlier years and you surely have plenty of nice memories to remember her. Sigh.
where I do best. Simple ZC is me.
i found that the big sausage is not as bad when cut very thinly, added salt too, just had a tiny amount prior to going to pick Raymond up.
A new person, normally full with life but it’s still fragile, not having the proper defenses yet.