When emotions ALMOST side swipe you

(Carolyn aka stokies) #1

CW: grief, loss

As many of you know - I lost my parents nearly back to back, and I find myself back in this house. Sitting here, I feel like I am in the belly of an abandoned ship. If the house was underwater, this would feel like a sunken ship of sorts. Everything is lingering, suspended in time. And gods, I miss them.

And the tears flowed unexpectedly. My mom passed 1.5 yrs ago and my father 2.5 yrs before that. I was planning on fasting for 2-3 days, but between the sadness and stress of driving 5 hours, I decided to break it at 24 hours. Self-care - and with keto/healthy foods…

That’s major progress and a victory to not succumb to emotional eating…

Bonus? Had to buy new pants and down 2 more sizes, and a running total of 95 pounds gone. Hoping to lose these last 5 before July 1 in time for my one yr keto-versary…

Here’s hoping!

(Paul H) #2

You go girl! You’re doing great and you are strong! Think of the good times…that’s what they would want… you’re lucky to have it… so many don’t. It’s gonna be Ok Carolyn… I am proud of you!

(Carolyn aka stokies) #3

Thank you :slight_smile: You keep at it too :smile:

(John) #4

You are doing so, so well. It’s a long process, recovering from loss. Your parents would be so proud of you.

#5

I think you need to be kind to yourself right now. I really feel for you and dread the time it may happen to me.

Keep going, treat yourself by looking after yourself. High quality healthy food, reach out to friends and family that will understand how you feel. Maybe book into a spa for the weekend to allow yourself time to mull things over.

As a parent, I want my children to be happy but also healthy so they can take advantage of all life has to offer and feel good inside.

Hope you start feeling better soon :kissing_heart:

(Carl Keller) #6

Stokies, fill the hole in your heart with your parents memories and wishes. Honor them by being happy because that’s what they would have wanted. They deserve this and you deserve this. :wink:

(squirrel-kissing paper tamer) #7

That’s a true testament to how caring for yourself has become a real part of your life, when you automatically defer to it during tough times. You’ve spoken about your past struggles with food. Congratulations on this personal victory, Carolyn.

(Carolyn aka stokies) #8

Chezza, thank you. You are right - they would want me to be happy. They are who inspired me to go back to school for my doctorate… and their final gift to me aside from the house full of memories was the realization of how I need to prioritize my own health before I can help others. I just wish I could have helped them save theirs :cry:

(Carolyn aka stokies) #9

You are always so supportive- and right! :wink:

Thank you!

(Carolyn aka stokies) #10

From you PetaMArie, that speaks SO much! :heart:

Thank you always for such kind words!

(Full Metal KETO AF) #11

Carolyn I am sorry for the loss of your folks. I dread the same thing is coming sooner than later for me. It’s hard becoming the elder of your family when the parents are gone. But you know how much they loved you and wouldn’t want to see you suffering their passing still. You still have many years ahead and they would want you to be happy and enjoying life. I have lost two younger sisters already. I know what they would want for me. Do take loving care of yourself. :cowboy_hat_face:

(Carolyn aka stokies) #12

I too lost siblings as well, so I feel you so much on that one. My brother is older than me but he has no ability to deal with this house. It was hard enough for him dealing with the losses for different reasons, so this is now on my shoulders. We are the last two of our line in the family on this side, as neither of us have kids. I think that hits even harder when looking at all that is left, which I want to preserve… but to what end? There is no one else left who cares :sad:

Thanks for replying!

#13

Thanks for sharing this great news during such an emotional time.

That’s really a great accomplishment, Carolyn! :heart:

(Jean) #14

Most of us here are emotional eaters that’s why we decide to try it. Your loss is hard and I hope I can handle it when my parents pass. I’m 52 so everyday with parent is more precious. Like the other have said we all want the best for our kids so you have to keep moving forward and continue on the keto lifestyle . They are proud of you before rhe weight loss , they would be even more so if possible with how you have progressed . For your one year anniversary make sure you do something special for you and don’t take a cheat day. I hope it gets easier in the house

(Katherine Borchert) #15

Fantastic. Staying on track through all that stress is awesome