my goal is anywhere from 115 to 125 for my weight. I am currently 147. I am taking the weight loss slowly and I am aiming more for total overall health rather than just losing pounds, so I have been working out several times a week (not super intense,but I am pushing myself and gaining strength and tone)
I would like to be back where I was for the majority of my life. While I was in the military i was diagnosed with PTSD from combat and an assault that occurred while I was at Fort Bliss. I went through some intense mental changes and had a breast reduction, died my hair, etc etc. Anything to change who I was, I ended up gaining about 20 pounds, and then went on to gain even more after i got out of the military. I progressively gained weight until i was nearly 180. my depression and lack of stable income made life really hard. I think the final straw for me was listening to my ex boyfriend tell me “I would be more attracted to you if you were more toned” This is kinda a joke now for me and my current bf, but it def cut my deep at the time. Especially since he was basically crippled from Lyme disease and I was doing EVERYTHING in that relationship. I felt so used.
But things are looking up and I am happy with my weight loss and I don’t feel shamed of my body anymore. I still am not HAPPY with it, but I wont hide under sweaters and sweat pants now.